A prayer of thanksgiving to no one in particular
I feel like you have always looked out for me, even in the worst of times. I thought the unhappiness and suffering would never end, felt like a hamster on a wheel, a wheel of constant torture. You made this life bearable, my dearest, because you became the silent voice of my insides and because I had so little to smile about, you caused me to tickle pink over the most trifling little incidents.
People often wondered and asked my why my laugh was so loud, so..liberated..
I would pause, a little affected by their prodding, then moments later reply, "I have been blessed more than you even if you have been given more than me, for contentment isn't a ticket you can purchase, this opportunity is by 'invitation only'.
I grin and giggle so much, almost all of the time, because you permitted me to be grateful, because every time I'm smiling like a fool in love it's not because I am in love, it's because I realise that you perhaps have a special plan for me and perhaps you love me, like I understand what love is.
SO THANK YOU, DEAREST, DAY THROUGH NIGHT
FOR THE REVELATIONS I'VE RECEIVED SINCE I WAS NINE
YOU PUT ME IN THE DEEPEST SHIT AND THEN YOU PLUCKED ME OUT FROM IT
MY THOUGHTS, STUFFED AND STINKING, YOU PUT THROUGH THE WASH
IT'S MOMENTS LIKE THESE WHEN I FEEL I'M LIVING THE MOST.