As I lie here with my head dangling from my bed, I have an epiphany of sorts. I would have ended it a long time ago had I not been instructed and forced (on the insides) to keep on believing that there was something better waiting for me in the near future. And as I lie here, my rib cage stormed with sobs I won't let spill, I realise you played me all along. I also realise that you will bring the tiniest of consolations to my understanding of things and I'll lap up the goodness like the needy bitch that I am.
A short while later, I'll admit reluctantly, forced by you, of course, that I was too quick to judge you, that you meant well (as fucking always) and that you were simply yanking my chain for my future benefit. Again.
I'm not special to you, none of us created, are. You use us for your little games and then you make us feel bad. I knew you weren't as perfect as the Books say you are when I realised after 28 very fucking messed up years that you've been punishing humans and what-nots for the sins of Adam and Eve, two imbeciles , who, by the way, you forced to sin and then pointed your equally-guilty Renaissance-concocted finger at.
It's like getting punished in class the next day for a trick that was played on the teacher a day before, while I was absent and hadn't the foggiest idea about.
What the fuck be Original Sin anyhow?
The Original Sin IS YOU!!!
You are THE MISTAKE, just being the typical chick/dude who wants to take down everyone with them. I bet you are in cohoots with Satan, too. I've had my doubts for a while but living under Islam for 5 years made my shit shiver every single time I even had a thought that would cause you to frown or worse, take me to task over.
And what is it with you and HELLFIRE?!
Why you want to be burning our skins over and over again so that we be always wearing our torment on the tips of our lashes. And if some people were so bad and the things they thought up so damn evil, why you allowed them the opportunity to set foot on this here planet??!!
YOU ARE THE ONE WHO NEEDS THERAPY. NOT US AND CERTAINLY NOT HOLLYWOOD.
PULLING THIS SHIT OVER OUR EYES FOR MAD-LONG FUCKING MILLENIA. IF WE EXIST AND/OR THRIVE, IT'S BECAUSE YOU ARE CALLING THE SHOTS. THAT'S WHAT I HEAR BEING SAID OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
HOW EVEN A SINGLE LEAF ON A TREE CANNOT SHAKE WITHOUT YOUR PERMISSION. MAN!!!
YOU ARE THE BIGGEST HUGEST BDSM FAN EVER!!
I'D TAKE YOU DOWN IF I COULD, BUT I DON'T WANT TO BE GIVEN THE JOB.
I THINK THAT'S WHY YOU GOTTEN SO CRAZY..THEM DECISIONS WAS DRIVING YOU NUTS, WEREN'T THEM??
YOU STILL GOT A CHANCE TO TURN THIS AROUND; GIVE US ALL THE 'HAPPY EVER AFTER', EVEN THE CHILD MOLESTERS AND TEMPORAL WORLD CONTROLLERS. WHY YOU WANNA BE ALL MEAN AND FIRE AND BRIMSTONE AND WHAT-SHITS! WHY YOU WANNA DO ME LIKE DAT??
GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF THIS EVENT HORIZON, ALSO KNOWN AS MY THOUGHTS AND EMOTIONS. GET US ALL THE FUCK OUT OF HERE, AND THEN JUST WATCH US PRAISE THEE. MAN, WE'LL GET YOU SO HIGH ON THE HALLEUIAS THAT YOU AIN'T NEVER COMING DOWN AGAIN.
GRANT US THE OPPORTUNTITY TO SHOW YOU SOME REAL LOVING.
WE'LL BE GOOD. YOU PROMISE…! ;>