God. It's a word we commonly use, in and outside of church. In and outside of religions. But the real question is, does God exist?
There are many reasons for him to exist, and I used to go to mass every week with my brother and dad, just for the sake of going. I used to go along with it, I thought that there must be a good enough reason for all these smart people around me to believe in him, so I must just be missing something.
But alas; my eyes have been opened.
Over the past few weeks, I have been properly questioning my faith- my religion. And I have come to a conclusion. Fuck God. It's a load of bullshit.
I had to really have the nerve to type that, I'm not sure if it will be there when I check over my post, but right now- I'm trembling with fear. Will he do something? Will he punish me?
No. He won't. I tell myself, because he isn't there. Or if he is- he doesn't give a crap about us. Why the fuck do all the innocent humans die, why do we suffer?! Why doesn't he step in and do something about all this shit which is messing up our society. Why?
Oh yeah, he isn't there.