I stare at him

Through the blurry window

Of my tears

His confident stride

One arm swinging,

The other in his pocket

He passes by me

He can’t see me

Yet I stand there

Tears flowing still

My knees shaking

Weak from the weight

That bears in my heart

“Don’t leave me”

But he cannot hear

The thoughts I shout after him

So as my knees hit the floor

Salty tears spilling onto my tongue

The agony of my heart is unshaken

The pain in my soul intensified

I lift my hands to heaven

My eyes looking up

“Why God?”

“Why me?”

“Why did he leave me?”

And in a still small voice

I heard Him reply

“Because you disobeyed me”

And my world went still.

The tears dried.

The agony paused.

The burden lifted.

Because I knew.

May God have mercy

On my soul…