God hear my cries at night

The day i first new you on a personal level
you filled me with the holy spirit
and took away my desires of cutting myself
and all my evil thoughts

Now it feels like you left me
and dont hear my cries at night
Are you there for me?

All the stuff in the past is coming back up
all the horrible details of my past
and i dont know how to deal with it
without you in my life.

Flashbacks are haunting me
at this very moment
God are you there?
im crying to you

please answer my prayer
and lift my spirit back up
and to forget all the horrible stuff in my life

Can you hear me crying out to you
asking you to take this away
but i hear nothing...
just crickets chirping at night

God please come back to me
i love you with all my heart
and need you at this moment..