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This is a piece of literature I wrote September 25,1985. I made it into a song in April of 1991. This piece was given to me, I believe divinely, after a severe depression that I was having due to the guilt of having three abortions. It took me back to three stages in my life and how I felt at the time and I received a healing in my soul afterwards.


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Submitted: May 12, 2008    Reads: 64    Comments: 7    Likes: 2   


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How Wrong Was I

 

I thought no one would ever know

To stop a life before it could grow.

A baby now would never do

There's so much life to live.

I'm young right now, I need to be free

I can't have a baby stopping me.

Life's too short and I haven't got

The time or the love to give.

    Again there's life inside of me

    This time I'd want this child to be,

    But I'm all alone and so afraid.

    I fear I have no choice to make.

    Out of sight, out of mind

    I know that I will heal with time

    If I just forget I will be alright

    And I won't cry anymore

With child again, oh, no, not me

Lord, why are You punishing me

I haven't the strength to take a stand

And have a baby without a man

How wrong was I to think that I could be God

And choose whether this one lived or died

The pain I suffered never went away

Till I begged the Lord to heal.

    The grace of God, so full and free

    In Jesus Christ, He pardoned me

    A murderer I was but am no more

    He cleared me of all my sin.

    Blessed beyond my hopes and dreams.

    Six beautiful children He has given me

    Three in heaven I will someday see

    Until then I will patiently await

My heart Christ came to bind it up

He bore my grief, my sorrow and pain

I feel that now I can really live.

His truth has set me free.

 


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Comments:

Amazing Susan! Simply Amazing!
so touching and heart warming with presence of Love and Forgiveness of God.
I am sorry you went through those experienses
but I am of joy that you have come into higher truths of being ^_^
~katie

Posted: May 12, 2008

Author Comment:

Thank you, Katie, I made a song out of it on Youtube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q1h8QY4irrQ
Thanks for your inspiring comment. Love, Susan

We all have committed mistakes and God is just incomprehensibly wonderful to grant us His pardon. I like the feel of the poem because it reveals two sides of a person: being repentant and, at the same time, being grateful. Nice work! :-)

Posted: May 12, 2008

Author Comment:

Thank you jadey, if you want to hear the song go to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q1h8QY4irrQ, love Susan

Moving. simply put art in motion, enjoyable message.

Posted: May 14, 2008

Author Comment:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q1h8QY4irrQ That is the link to the video I made to go with that poem.

honest and well expressed:)

Posted: May 19, 2008

Author Comment:

Thank you for your sweet comment. I made a video of this on
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q1h8QY4irrQ If you wanted to see it. thanks again for your encouragement

i will surely watch that video. Indeed GOD IS GREAT, Susan.

Posted: May 26, 2008

Author Comment:

My user name for both youtube and godtube is morning2004. If you click on user and then type in morning2004 it should bring you to my videos. I hope you like them. Love, Susan

Don't worry we all go through such phases in our lives and then GOD helps us....i watched the videos and they r great....

Posted: Jun 7, 2008

Author Comment:

Thank you Pratibha. You are sooo sweet.

god is always with us all the time ,we should have faith n trust in him and accept all the difficulties as we accept the happiness he gives us...u write really good

Posted: Jul 9, 2008

Author Comment:

Thanks. I appreciate your comments. I want to use the difficulties to share my story so that maybe other women won't have to go through the pain. If you are interested, I made a video of this song. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q1h8QY4irrQ



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