Alexia stared out into the starry dazed by all the small blue
lights that twinkled softly shedding eerie light down on her.
no not eerie… she thought frowning down at her paper, she
had been writing a story about a some girl in a fairy land. She
was using the Christmas sky to help her become inspired from her
writers block. It was cold outside despite the Florida climate,
her and her mother lived out in the country next to the ocean on
the tip of the peninsula making it a perfect place to come out
and think at night. Be for her starched a deep bluish black sea
with a white stripe of sand marking it's kingdoms borders.
Kingdoms borders… she thought doting down some notes for a
future chapter of "tale of the unforgiving castle" she
needed to find the right words to write so that the prince of the
fairies could save the girl before she was tossed into a pit
filled with "the fallen," that would eat her since she failed to
entertain the king. Sighing in defeat she closed her journal, a
tear silently rolled down her face as she thought about her
father. Looking up into the night sky she prayed in hushed tones
for her father to come back and take her with him, he had died
last year on Christmas eve by a drunk driver and since then her
mother hadn't paid attention to her and had avoided her. she
looked to much like her father.
"why Lord? Why have you abandoned me?" she prayed as sobs racked
her body raw as her shoulders shook her until she was laying in a
ball, "why did you leave me? My God you said I would never be
alone, but I am!" she nearly screamed within herself, that's when
she heard the voice.
it was soft at first and very faint but then it grew louder and
louder until she could hear that it was some one singing, no not
some one some ones. It was a choir of beautiful voices all
singing the same song.
Praise to the king! For he is born unto us this night! Praise
your king o' little town for unto us a child is born! Hosanna!
Messiah! Unto us the savoir is born! The prince of peace the
child of God! Praise and glory to him on the highest! Messiah!
Our Lord! Glory to you! praise to you!
Slowly alexia unrolled form her ball and began to sit so that she
could see the sky. "those voices, they are so beautiful…" she
sighed as she stared off into the starry sky hoping to see the
singers, but she didn't see what she was looking for instead she
saw a bright star twinkling brighter then any other. And from
that star came another voice, it was soft but she could hear it's
"my child, for tonight I came down as a baby so that I might die
for you. I died for you my beloved so that you could join one day
in eternal light."
A tear slid down her face, but it was not from her sadness but
from some unexplainable joy boiling inside her.
"but my Lord! You have abandoned me here without a love from my
mother to help me through the lost of my father!" she yelled at
the star slightly hesitant but she wanted an answer.
"my beloved, have never left you nor forsaken you. when you
thought that you where alone and unable to walk any further it
was then that I carried you. though you might not have felt me
nor seen me I was there, for feelings come and go my dearest
daughter but I will always remain," the voice said softy, the
wind picked up slightly brushing alexia's hair out of her face,
but she believed that it was Gods own hand.
"my father I am sorry that I have doubted you, but it's just to
hard to hold onto my hope anymore, I am to weak my Father and I
am not able to go on any more! please grant my prayer to be home
with my father once more…" she prayed bowing her head to the
ground afraid of Gods wrath, but a soft hand only lifted up her
head again and when she looked it was Jesus.
"child, when you are weak I am strong and will carry you when
you fall. You will never be alone in your pain my child though
you may fell it your not. Though I am unseen and can not be felt
by those who do not wish for me I am there for them, as I am here
for you," he said whipping a tear from her face as she cried,
Jesus laughed slightly when alexia suddenly hugged him.
"thank you Father,"
"your welcome my dearest, but your prayer has to be
answered," he whispered into her ear, "it is yes, one day
you will come home with me and will be with your father again but
right now I need you to stay here for your mother, what would
happen if you left her too? what do you think will happen to
her?" he asked gently stroking her hair, she nodded agreeing
that she needed to be strong for just a little while longer.
"but my God, how do I talk to her! she wont even look at me…" she
whispered back, he held her back so that he could look at her.
"talk to her, tell her that
you've seen me and you want to feel like her little girl
again," he said his arms
dropping to his side again, alexia knew she had to say goodbye to
him now because their talk was over, for now. Giving him another
hug she ran up to the house only looking back once to see the choir
of angels singing the song they did so long ago when Jesus was
born, no not long ago… some day it'll feel just like
yesterday… she thought turning to go inside faintly aware of
her Father God smiling down at her from heaven as he thought,
that's my girl.