20.10.2010, Two Years Ago

20-10-2012, two years ago

I sat on a train many moons ago

Next to a lady from Africa

I told her my story of life in the city

And how it had all gone wrong

I had 9 months to go, I said

And she smiled a sagely wise smile

Whilst nodding her head, she replied,

A lot can happen in 9 months

I looked at her and nodded in return

Knowing I had been told before

All it takes is a split second

For life to change for all

I wonder does it happen in a moment

Or even a split second…

Or is our every move, every decision,

Leading us to reaching the changing moment?

Months later, 20-10-2010 arrived.

In retrospect a date we’d set aside,

An auspice wedding date we predicted

In 2005, my friend and I.

The truth being told, as must always occur,

20-10-2010 found us both far from the aisle

My more important dreams withered away,

Soul unfulfilled, no matrimony desired at all

20-10-2010 the day I got the call

Two years ago today I can recall

So vividly it amazes me

There in the canteen bright as day

The call was the catalyst, if moments are,

I could never have imagined one call

Could change my definitions, change

And twist the meaning of my existence

That call, two years ago, set it all in motion

Began the change in my soul relationship

Changed my ideas of any planned future

Nothing was to turn out in a way I could know

That 2010 call

Was the start of a crazy free fall

Into an abyss called hell

The unmistakable absence of love.