i thought about this question for a while, if it was right to forgive him or not?
he looked into my eyes, " Stella, i never want to let you go!" i smiled and kissed his cheek.
i thought that from now on if i wasn't going to trust him, that at all times, i would be at every concert backstage! first i have to find out, how to tell Josh this?!
" Josh?" i ask quietly
" what is it?" he asks suspiciously
i swallow hard, " i don't know how to tell you this, without hurting you!" i say as i try to look away
he raises an eyebrow, " what do you mean?, are you breaking up with me?" he asked in shock
i bite my bottom lip, " no, it's not that." i say as i fiddle my thumbs
" what is it then, you can tell me!" he said looking into my eyes.
my smile dimmed, " i'm having trouble trusting you and was wondering if it was safe for me to be backstage at every concert with you?" i asked concerned
he was quiet for a while, " it's fine, if your sure you want to do this?!"
i smiled slightly, " it's fine with me, but don't you think it'd be a good idea to tell your band mates first?"
he stood there in thought, then took my hand and we left the house. he got in the driver's seat, still silent and Josh and i drove back to the motel, where the other band members were staying. he opened my door and took me hand, he grabbed out a key and opened the door.
he walked inside, telling me to stay in the door way.
" guys you here?, it's me!" he said in a low voice.
i hear a moan and a laugh, then i see three men enter the room.
i smile, " hi guys, i'm Stella!" i say as i held out my hand.
each of them just look at me, then give Josh a questionable look.
Josh smiles, " Stella's my girlfriend and she was wondering if it was ok with you guys, if she stays backstage with us at every concert?"
they smile at me and Mike walks up to me, with a big grin and holds out his hand.
" nice to meet you Stella, i'm Mike!" he says as i shake his hand and smile.
then Matt indroduces himself, " nice to meet you to Stella, i'm Matt!" he says as i shake his hand and my smile grows bigger.
then finally Ian comes up to me and gives me a hug, " hey Stella, i'm Ian!" i shake his hand and Mike and Matt follows in with a hug too!
i laugh and smile at them all, " i'm glad to finally meet you guys!" i say as Josh kisses my forehead.
i smile at him, while i got lost in his eyes. then Mike speaks up and says, " we'd love for you to be backstage with us!" i smile contently and thank them for the warm welcome!
we leave with smiles and walk to the car hand in hand, i turn to look back at them and wave goodbye with a warm smile.
when we get into the the car, Josh leans over and pulls my hair behind my ear. our lips touch and i feel my heart beat faster as our kissing gets more intense.........,
to be continued................................, ( chapter 13 is in the works, will be posted later!)