the kiss was warm and gentle, and i've never loved someone so much in my life!
as we broke away, i looked into his eyes and smiled, " Josh, i love you so much!" his smile widened.
i dropped him off at the motel so he could get ready for his next concert, and of course as his girlfriend and a fan, i got free tickets and backstages passes! of couse i brought Khessy along with me cause she helped me get through a tough time when Josh was sick!
we had an awesome time as always, at the concert. and Josh even dedicated and played our song, "Beside you" for me!
when the concert was over i went backstage to go see Josh, and to my surprise he was locking lips with Khessy!
i stood ther in shock, stund by what i was witnessing and it looked to me like he was accually enjoying it!
tears betrayed me and ran down my cheeks, Josh looked up to see me crying and i could see the sadness in his eyes but i will never forgive him!
i ran off with enough time to get away from the concert, Josh, and my betrayed friend Khessy!
i drove home in tears, asking myself why Josh would hurt me like this and why Khessy would betray me!
when i got home, i went to bed. i cryed myself to sleep at the sound of rain outside my window. i felt so unloved and betrayed, it feels like someone punched me in the gut! it happened so soon and he quickly betrayed me so fast! a tear fell as the thought of Josh kissing Khessy replyed in my mind over and over!
it felt like something died inside of me, like when he betrayed me, my love for him drained from me in heart broken sorro!
i was so heart broken, i was pulling myself away from the world and growing more useless and helpless inside from the neglect. he caused me to suffer and feel hopless, more tears fell and streamed off my cheeks and nothing will repair my wounded heart.......................,
to be continued............................, ( chapter 10 will come shortly)