i sit down at the table, holding my abdomain and laying a cold, damp cloth on my forehead.
i close my eyes and smile at the thought of being a mother someday, with Josh!
i get up, wiping the sweat from my forehead and go into the bathroom, closing the door behind me!
i strip down and start the bath water, pouring in lavender sented bath salts, invigurating bubble bath and light some aroma-therapy candles to help the stress!
i sigh in relief as the soothing smells fill the room along with the warm water calming my nerves. i slowly slide my way into the soothing bubble bath and relax, i lay my head down on my bath cushion and let the stress and nerves just melt away!
i lay there in the tub for a good hour and a half, untill i hear Josh walk in the door. and i know he can smell the candles and bath salts from down stairs cause i can hear him coming!
still i just relax and close my eyes, untill i hear the bathroom door open and see Josh's smile from across the room!
leaning down beside me, he runs his gentle fingers through my sopping wet hair.
i smile and kiss his cheek, i turn away and look down avoiding eye contact, as a tear falls apon my face!
his smile dims, "Stella, what's the matter?" he asks in a hushed tone.
another tear fallsand streams down my cheek, "nothing" i say in a ragged tone.
he looks me in the eyes, seriously, "Stella, really what's wrong?"
i give a heavy sigh and wipe away my tears, "Josh, i tested myself after you left and......., i'm pregnant!"
he just stared blankly, then looked up at me with sad eyes, "how far along are you?" he asked in a whispered voice.
another tear fell, "i'm 3 days along!" i said as i choked on my tears.
he brushed a stran of hair from my face and smiled, "you'll make a great mother!" he says kissing my forehead.
i smile and look down, he reaches down into the bath water and places his firm hand on my abdomain. he smiles and kisses me passionatly on my lips.
when he leaves the room, i slip out of the tub and wrap in a towel, blowing out the candles!
after getting in my pajamas, i made my way downstairs to join Josh on the couch.
i snuggle in close and lay my head on his sholder. he pulls me closer and runs his fingers through my hair, smiling.
i look up at him and slightly smile back at him. i snuggle in closer as he lays his arm around my sholder.
as the weeks go by, my connection with the unborn baby grows stronger as my abdomain grows larger!
my nausea gets worse and my cravings get really wierd, who knows what's going to happen next.............................,
to be continued.......................................,(Chapter 21 is going to be posted soon)