Crazy I was to think that someday it would all go away. To finally be free of everything that kept chasing me. But everything I was running away from just caught up with me that much sooner. Some people say that before you die, your life flashes before you. Others say it goes in slow motion, or even stops in place. To many times I was faced with death. I can tell you that instead of your viewing you whole life before you or slowing time, instead in that time realize why your alive, and who your here for. Yes, I'm still here because the Lord had graciously given me numerous chances, but I'm talking about who on earth I live there for. The ones who I couldn't stand to be in my place, standing in front of death. The ones I care to deeply about losing. The ones I love, the one I would do anything for. Some things happen for a reason, and there is no use trying to have then re done. Its true I wished some things didn't happen but I cant change that. God has everything happen for a reason, he is in control. I thought that there would be a reason for which things happened. One mistake can change your life. Going back to fix it can change it to. But yet that one mistake can fix your life, a change for the better. I just didn't know that what I thought what I was doing was right didn't even take me to where I needed to be. That mistake saved my life. I just need to remember my life was great how it was. I thought time could fix it all. Crazy I was to think that time was on my side.