Trust is a complex thing in ones mind...well...at least in mine...for me I can trust at a distance. .. once betrayed or situations arise that are questionable I feel my bricks stacking up as an unstoppable force or reflex...its as if my mind is getting ready for a war and shielding its temple from harm...though I'm humbled by my ingenious I also am broken. Am I to non forgiving or not understanding enough ..as if I have been holding those bricks in my hand the whole time just waiting for the moment to build my indestructible wall shielding my heart at the first sign of caution. .. The thing is..as I write this you lay next to me asleep...I can look at you and reminisce...you make my heart full....you never let my reflexes to build my barricade happen...though sometimes im scared of how defenseless I now am standing before you...We have been through so much and I know I couldn't have gone through this without anyone but you. But..please dont mistake me for a weak fool who can't see past the feelings I have for you...Trust is a fickle thing, it needs to be earned and not broken with misunderstanding or mistakes. To have what we do.. is to be unselfish because..without us...life doesn't make sense So as I lay here, confused and somewhat torn apart by your actions. ..I worry if i'm now a fool at your mercy...I know what we have is rare, longed for, everlasting true whole hearted and genuine...I just hope and lean on faith that you hold it to a high value and dont let the...Destructive jealous unhappy people,fester on making us a mockery and lettodays fast untrusting world destroy something that has depleted with time and almost become extinct as if it were a living organism phasing out.... we found together..we found true love.