Nic had to drive me home, and Matty, Kaleb, and Trevor were all in the car with us. I got dropped off, and I went straight to my room. I wasn't thinking right. I just ruined a relationship. All I could think about was that, nothing about the best night of my life, but the fact that one of my really good friends just got his heart broken because of me. It wasn't all my fault because it takes 2 people to cheat, but I still felt horrible.
I took a nap and I woke up around 7 that night. Matty had texted me asking how I was doing and I said fine, I was more concerned about him. He called me and he said they kind of talked about it, but she was still mad. The worse part about this, was school was starting in the next 2 days. I had to face her. He told me, no matter what, he wouldn't regret it, and if he did, he only regret it because he lost Sadie. I was still head over heels for Matty, and losing my virginity to him made me like him more.
When school started, I was really overthinking and getting anxiety. After my first hour, I saw her, she gave me a mean look, but she had the right too. I saw Matty at lunch and I couldn't help myself but smile.
A week after, everything changed. Matty and I stopped talking, Sadie and Matty got back together, and I was getting bullied. Sadie told so many people, she spread it like wildfire. Everyone asked me about it, and I had to denie it. No one believed me though. This lasted until December. Sadie kept on the bullying and I couldn't handle it anymore. Everyday, I'd come home crying, I really had no friends, and my family wasn't much help, plus the only person who always cheered me up, was Matty, and he was also mad at me. It came to the point where I wanted to self harm, and I tried but I never could do it. Sadie always bothered me to say sorry to her too, and that was one thing she wasn't getting. She got everything she wanted, she got the good grades, the best of friends, a good car, a good job, a good boyfriend, and anything she asked for, she got, but not this time. She wouldn't leave me alone for a sorry. Maybe I should of said sorry, but not the way she was acting. She bullied me and made me hate myself for 3 months and she wanted a sorry? That was not going to happen. She wanted me to take time out of my life, to say sorry to her. I told her to meet me at school if she really wanted one, which she didn't want because she didn't want to cry at school. At this point, it wasn't even worth it, if she wanted a sorry as bad as she said, than she could of met me at school, not no coffee shop. I never said sorry.