"Maribeth! Maribeth! Maribeth!
Curly Tops! Curly Tops! Weirdo! Fat Saddo!" the kids chanted
altogether towards me.
I was covering my ears with my
fat fingers as I tried a new way to distract myself from
Every freaking day of my life
started that way. Ever since I entered Middle School, people have
been torturing me about how fat Iam or how weird I look. When I
was thirteen, I was chubby. no, that's how I put it mildly but
people call me FAT. The fat weirdo. Saddo and the ever so famous
Fat Cow. You name it, been there, done that, definitely felt
stupid. There were times when I'd hate myself for eating so much
but I always turned back to my only comfort.
Like most fairytales, I didn't
have a Prince charming to save me from my evil Step Mother or a
handsome young Prince to wake me up from my deep slumber. no. I
was alone in this hell-raised world.
I was always the girl who gets
called as the "Fat Cow" while I do my groceries (let's not forget
the ocassional tripping of fruit stands) or when I eat outside,
people would always stare at me like they're saying, "Should you
be eating that?" Im so sick of it. But yet again, I turn to my
The cycle never really ends. I
eat, get teased, get depressed then eat again. It's sick really
but I can't seem to stop my self.
Food was my only comfort.
Nobody was there for me. Well except for Anne, my bestfriend
since kindergarten. She wasn't fat but she accepted me for who
But like everything else, all
good things always have to come to an end.
Anne went to Europe together
with her Mother to continue her studies there. We still keep in
touch and she still knows every dillema in my life. She's the
only one I can share my outburst with. I miss her so much. Anne
Today was the last day of
Highschool. No more Hell. No more "Fat Cows", atleast for now.
I'll be hiding in my cubby hole never to be seen again. Ofcourse
that's not really true but you get the picture.
I walked out of the stupid
small classroom and rushed outside of the campus but I bumped
into someone as I hastily made my way out. He came bouncing to
the floor with a loud BANG!
"Im so sorry!" I nearly gasped
from my panic attack. Things like these are just not
"Watch where you're going next
time fat pig!" The guy, who I now recognized as Guji Terlington
AKA jock with his gang of stupid jocks snickering at me and
throwing nasty comments. People were even taking Guji's side and
said nasty comments as well.
I didn't think twice and ran
away from the scene catching a glimpse of my old toyota car and
shoved my big ass inside as hastily as I could. Just to get away
from this embarrasment as tears rolled down my pink freckled
covered chubby cheeks.
I drove away from school and
stopped into a local grocery store and bought just about all the
flavors of Ben & Jerry's that they have. The cashier dude
looked at me weirdly. Whatever. Im used to that look anyway.
Years of having people look at me like that. You'll get used to
it too if you were me.
I arrived home safely. Thank
God I didn't pass over angry men driving pick-up trucks yelling
about how fat Iam.
I dropped the heavy bag of Ben
& Jerry's and quickly got changed into a more comfortable
outfit. I opened my computer and opened the first Ben &
Jerry's i could get my hands on. Yum. New York Super Fudge Chunk.
I shoved a spoon full in my mouth and logged into my IM. I
scrolled into my contacts and found ilovenerds AKA my
bestfriend in the world, Anne Sterling. I clicked on her contact
and sent her a smiley face.
ilovenerds: Hey hot stuff!How're you? I miss you
crappydappyB&J: Im fine but a little down in the dumps.
ilovenerds: Why? Tell me who the fuck*ng person is and lemme
kick their a$$.
crappydappyB&J: nah. its not important anymore. So you
coming back here in NY? imissulikehell.
ilovenerds: my mom told me were going for a visit, so yeah :D
We are so gonna catch up on each other when we arrive
crappydappyB&J: Omigod! You serious? You better be! When
are you coming?
ilovenerds: The day after tomorrow:p haha. Hey gotta go Mabe
moms calling me to pack. mwah. :*
crappydappyB&J: Bye! Can't wait to see you ! mwah
ilovenerds is offline.
Iam so excited that Anne is coming home! She is so gonna fill me up with her latest news. I just can't wait! I felt instantly better and I quickly finished up my B&J and went to watch TV. My parents are never home. They go to all these business meetings we rarely even see each other now. I won't be surprised if they forget that they have a daughter back here in New York.
** well thats it for today guys. :p hope you like the 1st chap. :D coomment are welcome. xD