14th January 2011 - 7:42am
I woke up this morning feeling swell. Everything was perfect. Kate was by my side, asleep, and Frank Sinatra was playing in the background. Chilled. I shouldn't boast, but my life felt like it was finally fitting into the right pieces. I almost forgotten what that could feel like.
I stared at Kate. She was beautiful. Not my usual 'type' of girl, however I think that is what made her even more special. She had sparkling muddy brown eyes, and brown hair that flowed like small ripples in the ocean. The complexity on her face was elegant. She was just sublime. To think a man like me could get her?
14th January 2011 - 11:15am
I've finally realised all I was searching for is Kate. When her gentle and soft lips kiss mine, it's like heaven. I didn't need anything but her love. How a brown haired cheeseball like me could get her is a question I could never answer. Yet I'm blessed, and I'm pleased about it. It's only been 4 years since Kate and I first started dating, but it feels like forever. She is my everything. I'm a merry thirty year old, who's ready to get his life sorted. I say bring it on!
15th January 2011 - 1:13pm
Mine and Kate's families are having a 'get together' tonight, I guess it would be classed as a family meal. I always get so nervous around Kate's parents. What about if they don't like me? What about if I seem like a dirtbag to them? These are always the questions that pop into my head, whenever I am with them. But of course, I do it for Kate. The constant sick feeling in my stomach is bugging me at the moment. How do I stop it? I'm worried. Tonight is the night I tell Kate. Finally. What about if she says no? What about if her family don't want her to? What if MY family don't want us to? All the questions, yet I don't know what any of the outcomes will be.
Tonight is the night I do it. Tonight is the night I propose to Kate.