Later that night when all was quiet, I decided it was time for little fresh air. My mind was reeling with everything that's happening, and everything that was still bound to happen. It took me awhile to notice that I wasn't alone as a comforting and rested on my shoulder. I looked behind me to see Brook smiling sadly me. " is everything all right Imi?"
I sighed. "Honestly no. I can't ever get a quiet life can I? It seems that everytime I try for a normal life, I get sucked back into things I would be better off not remembering. I was tired of the life and I left it. I don't understand why I can't just be left alone. Why the lives of those I love is always in danger. I feel sometimes like I should just disappear to protect my family and friends. I want to end this once and for all and if it is Chris, than I have to say that it would just be easier to kill him and get it over with."
She looked at me for a moment. "I can understand the feeling hun, I really can. Kade and I used to work seperate cases all the time and I wondered if I worked harder, then he would be safe. It took me a really long time to understand that it was his choice to marry me even though he knew the kind of lives we lead. It made my resolve that much stronger ,my love so much deeper and there were no words to explain how much he drove me to be better. I adored him for it. When we left the agency, they tried really hard to get us back and when that didn't work they tried to split us apart. I can understand my dear, but if you give in to it, then they win. If this Chris is so gung ho about getting you back that he is willing to kill you guys for it, to force you back. Don't give him the satisfaction, it would mean that he beat you."
I nodded my head. "I can understand that, I really can. I just don't have the heart for it anymore. Some of the things that we did were too horrible and I couldn't sleep for months on end. Now Chris wants to drag us back kicking and screaming to something we just can't do anymore. I don't like it one bit Brook, and that he would place my family and friends right in the middle of it, well it makes me want to commit one last murder. I warned him that if he ever crossed me, I would end him. I wasn't kidding then Brook and I will do it. I won't hesitate and it is to the point where he has finally pushed me too far."
She placed a reassuring hand on my shoulder again. "You know, you don't have to do this alone anymore. We are all here, and I bet the kids could use a bit of sport as well."
I shook my head. "No, I don't want to jepordize their future just for some lust filled revenge. I figured when Chris and I broke off the relationship and thus I left, I figured it was finally over."
Her eyes got wide. "You dated your boss?"
I shook my head. "No I dated my handler, more of a rebound thing and I just didn't want to be alone. It was right after I was recruited into the Special Ops unit. He seemed so wonderful and I couldn't have been more wrong. He started to try and move his way up through the ranks using me. I was disgusted with him before that, but it was even worse after he started to send me to kill children the age of my own. He thought it was interesting to torture me. He did it for seven years before I left him to move to another unit. When I left so did the others."
Her eyes showed the shock I had felt for years. "He made you kill children? Is he unstable?"
I nodded. "He had been before they brought him into the program. They were working to take the mentally damaged and turn them into psycho warriors. It just didn't work on the females. We weren't what they wanted us to be. We got transfered to a place where the baby killing stopped, but then it was just mindless assaination of those who showed even a minute chance to overthrow what our government stood for."
I heard Brook let out her breath. "I can see why you want quiet. It must have been so hard to keep those two lives seperate. Loving mother, friend and nice business woman and then the killing person they wished you to become."
I nodded. "You have no idea. I guess that this is the last time
that I will have to do something like this. If Chris put out the
order to have us killed it means he is working on his own now.
Tomorrow I am going to call my old commanding officer and tell
him that it is my last contract and then to never look my way
Brook stood up. "So I guess that your mind is made up
I nodded. "One last one, one last job. One more taint on my soul
that will never be removed. Thusly it will be the only way to
keep my family safe. I will do what I must, that is all there is
I heard Brook put her hand on the door knob. "Then you better
count me in."