It was a couple of days before I felt the energy to go after him and do what needed to be done, but then it took a lot of co-ordinating from Brook, Ava and Cherry. We were going to head out at week's end towards our desination high in the mountains. I looked at my family in a new light as they helped me get my things together. Marek and Mari had started to pack my clothes as Kie worked to make sure my guns were clean and in high working order. On my last night at home with them we had a quiet night. It was strained and I could feel the tension. I sighed. "You know I figured that it would be bad for me to leave again, but I don't like the gloomy faces. Please, cheer up. I am going to come home unscathed and it will be the end to all of this. I don't want to do it, but this all has to end. I can't have us looking over our shoulders if we are all going to start new lives."
Mari nodded at me and tried her best to smile. "We just don't like it when you have to go away. Momma, we know you will be fine and we understand why you are doing it, but it doesn't make it easier. I understand how much it tears at your soul. I can still feel the taint from killing Veata. I don't want your soul tainted more than what it already is. You do so much for us and I feel helpless right now." She got up and came around to me and hugged me tightly. "If I could I would do this for you, I love you Momma."
I hugged her back and smiled into her shoulder praying she didn't hear the catch in my voice. "I love you too dear heart, more than words could ever explain. Thank you, I know you would do this to save me from the pain, but this is a problem that I caused and now I have to fix it."
Kie smiled up at me and then looked at the kids. "Come one guys, how about a movie and then we will head to sleep for the night. Imi has to leave early in the morning with the other three and we could all use an early night."
They nodded and helped Kie and I pick up. I grabbed Talia out of her seat and got her into the bath before putting the sleepy baby to bed. When I cam back down stairs they had chosen a movie and gotten settled. I jumped into the large dogpile of bodies and huddled them all close to me. The movie was long, but good. We enjoyed popcorn and snacks before we all headed to bed. I kissed Marek and Mari before I gave them each a tight hug. No matter how many times I left, I still missed them as much as the first time. They whispered goodnight before the started their trek upstairs.
Kie and I shut down the house and headed for our room wrapped in each other's arms. The feel of him against me was euphoric. He closed the door and locked it tight. Like a flash I was in his arms and his kisses rained down on me. I felt myself drown in him and loved every second of it. His calloused hands worked their way under my shirt. I moaned with pleasure as his hands loosened my bra and he caressed me all over. Clothes flew across the room quickly in our need and in the moment when we joined together, I exploded into wonder and reveled in every touch. We made love at that night, until the early morning hours when my phone rang to signal my time to leave. I did so reluctantly, oh so reluctantly. After one last kiss goodbye to my husband and baby daughter, I walked out the door to my final battle. The last hertle that I would have to go through before my family and I could sleep in peace.