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The light in the center of my darkness

Novel By: FyresydeHerbalyst

Mara is a single mother of two children who moved to GA two years ago to restart her life. Along the way she meets a few people and gets even closer to her best friend. Life threw her a curve ball and now she struggles to keep her secret from those who would restrain her independence. View table of contents...


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Submitted:May 15, 2011    Reads: 81    Comments: 7    Likes: 2   

All too soon we had to return home and part of me was dreading it. I loved spending time with my family and getting to hear their voices. As soon as we walked in the house I hit the machine and started to set things down as I heard the footsteps of the kids and Rick enter. One message caught my attention and stopped me in my tracks.

"Hey Mara this is Dan, I wanted to apologize for everything. I know that I turned into a real ass and I should have taken care of you instead of hurt you, but for so long I watched you, bent my will to you and I wanted you to do a bit of giving yourself. Seems like even in that aspect I had to take it from you. You didn't even think to look my way, when you could see and when you couldn't. I don't know if something about me repulsed you or what, but I guess that in the end your little self rightous ass got what you deserved. That backwoods hick won't want you after what I did to you so I hope you enjoy your ruined life alone. Oh and by the way I hear that my sister has been helping out over there. Such a gentle soul she can be, until someone messes with her."

I felt myself fall to the ground. Pieces of the puzzle started to click together in my head and I shivered. Lotti was his sister. How could I have not picked up on that? My brain went into overdrive and I felt my breath coming short. It was so much more than I could handle in that moment and I jumped when there was a knock on the door. Rick went to open it as I worked to catch my breath. I heard whispered words and knew that something was wrong. I pushed myself up off the floor, gained my composure and moved towards the front door. As I got closer I heard it then and I had to keep my heart from beating out of my chest. It was her, she had showed up not long after we had and I knew that something was wrong. I walked up behind Rick and placed my hand at his back.

"Lotti, is everything alright?" I tried my best to sound concered as it seemed that was what she wanted.

I heard her sniffle and I put my hand out for hers. "It's Dan, he, well he has gone missing. He left me a note saying that it wasn't enough anymore and he couldn't live his life. He was going somewhere to end it. I am so sorry to bring this to you but I don't have anyone else. My aunt won't talk to me and seems to have fallen off the face of the planet and now to top it all off I am going to lose the only close family that I have. I, well I don't know what to do Mara."

I patted her hand and moved outside to sit on the porch with her. There was no way I was going to let her inside the house with the kids. I turned to face Rick and sighed. "Rick hun, can you call the doctors and reschedule my appointment. I know they said they wanted to get me in immediately for that surgury, but I want to make sure that Lotti is alright."

At first he didn't respond and I got really nervous. "Sure hun. How about we reschedule for tomorrow. I can understand and I think they will too. I will bring you two drinks, it got hot real quick today didn't it?"

I nodded and went to sit on the porch. Lotti sat slouched over and I couldn't tell at that point if her problem was real or not. I didn't care though, there was a chance that this woman could kill me and I was going to be on guard. Her quiet sobs broke my heart. She had been watching my children for a while now and they loved her so much. I became worried and I felt things change around me.

"You don't seem to understand the hold you have on my brother. It is odd to me that he would leave his beautiful loving wife for a stuck up, crippled bitch like you. The fact that he is going to kill himself over you, now that is rediculous. Compared you his wife is a super model, yet he decided that he wanted you. Ugh you disgust me and I should have taken you out when I had the chance. Now I don't know what to do. Georgia won't talk to me, my own aunt for goodness sake. She knew nothing about what I was planning, but she distanced herself once I came into the picture. It was like she knew. She hid things on me, things I had put into place here to hurt you. She backed away from you because we are family. That is why Dan wanted you, he saw you over the years and wanted nothing but you. You, you you you you. What is it about you Mara that just makes people want you so damn bad. Me, well hell I want you to, I want you dead."

I felt my heart leap into my throat and knew that it was my time. I felt her put her arm around my neck and pull me closer. I felt memories pass through me, the day my daughter was born and the look in her eyes. How it felt to hold my son for the first time. The laughter and tears, good times and bad. I could feel something sharp against my neck and knew it was it. I took a deep breath and said what would be my two final words.....


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