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The light in the center of my darkness

Novel By: FyresydeHerbalyst
Romance


Mara is a single mother of two children who moved to GA two years ago to restart her life. Along the way she meets a few people and gets even closer to her best friend. Life threw her a curve ball and now she struggles to keep her secret from those who would restrain her independence. View table of contents...


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Submitted:Feb 24, 2012    Reads: 73    Comments: 17    Likes: 3   


Jenna decided that she would do the job for the rest of the day and make sure to clock me out. She understood that I couldn't lose a days wages. I hugged her and thought that maybe she wasn't as scatterbrained as I had once thought. I was in Rick's truck before I knew it and he was humming to the radio. I smiled at the quiet sound of his voice as it rang around the cab. I giggled as the song came to an end. All of a sudden my favorite song graced the radio, I put my head in my hand and sung along with the words. Each word a piece of my soul and how I felt about my life.

I said I wanna touch the earth
I wanna break it in my hands
I wanna grow something wild and unruly

I wanna sleep on the hard ground
In the comfort of your arms
On a pillow of blue bonnets
And a blanket made of stars

Oh it sounds good to me

I said cowboy take me away
Fly this girl as high as you can
Into the wild blue
Set me free oh I pray
Closer to Heaven above
And closer to you
Closer to you

I wanna walk and not run
I wanna skip and not fall
I wanna look at the horizon
And not see a building standing tall

I wanna be the only one
For miles and miles
Except for maybe you
And your simple smile

Oh it sounds good to me
Yes it sounds so good to me

Cowboy take me away
Fly this girl as high as you can
Into the wild blue
Set me free oh I pray
Closer to Heaven above
And closer to you
Closer to you

I said I wanna touch the earth
I wanna break it in my hands
I wanna grow something wild and unruly
Oh it sounds so good to me

Cowboy take me away
Fly this girl as high as you can
Into the wild blue
Set me free oh I pray
Closer to Heaven above
And closer to you
Closer to you

Closer to you

Cowboy take me away

Closer to you

I giggled as the song came to an end and then heard an intake of breath from Rick. "That was amazing Mara, how the hell do you sing like that. There is so much feeling in it I don't even know how to express what I just heard in your voice."

I could feel the blush creep up my cheeks. "It is something I have always wanted and the song really gets to me sometimes. I guess that and wide open spaces are my favorites, but of course you know I am not much of a country girl."

"True, so do you want to start our conversation here or wait till we get to the house?" His tone noted just how scared he was.

"I guess here is fine as long you don't swerve off the road or kick me out. Rick, what was that this morning? I mean you were just cruel about everything. I don't mention Tate because he is a bad memory of the past that I don't ever want to think about. He may have given me two beautiful children, but it was by force and that is something you need to understand. Would you want to tell someone about such painful things."

It was quiet for a second as he thought. "No, I wouldn't and I could have asked so you didn't have to volunteer painful information like that. I should have known that it was something that was horrible for you to relive. Are you serious about leaving?"

I thought for a moment. "To be honest I called my mother earlier to ask her if I could move back home. I mean with everything that has gone on I don't think I am in the right place in my mind and with it looking like I won't get a donor from here, maybe moving home is something that I should do for a while, see if I can get a match there. You would think it wouldn't be that hard, but apparently no one is RH positive. I guess that it is just my luck that this would happen, but I can't penilize the children for it ya know. I guess if that is what is good for us, then it is what we will do."

I heard the breaks squealing and I put my hand out in front of me to stop my collision with the dash board. I was about to yell at him when he grabbed me. "No I can't lose you I don't care what else you do, but you can't leave me. I love you with all my heart and I just can't lose you or those children, you all mean the world to me. I would lose my brain if you left, it would break my heart."

It took me a second to regain my bearings, but when I did I wrapped my arms around him and then gibbs slapped him. "How dare you do that just to get my attention. You could have killed us both. Please tell me what is on your brain, cause I know that you need us, but I have to get my own head straight about what I want. Think on this one, what if down the road after we get married, I start to regret things. I don't want to regret anything in my life and if having to go away to get my head straight is what I need to do, then by damn I will. Don't think for just one second that I am going to put anyone but my kids above myself. I mean you have to look at it like this, I know what is best for me Rick. It isn't about convincing me to stay it is about giving me a good reason that I wouldn't regret it in the long run."

The quiet that was between us was so heavy and thick that you could cut it with a knife. "Mara, I- well I don't know if I can give you a reason other than I love you with all my heart and I will do everything I can to get you a donor for your eyes no matter where we have to go. I don't care if we have to leave the country for it. If you want to see then I will do everything in my power to make sure that you get it. It doesn't matter to me if you are blind or not, I love you all the same. Now how about we get to the house, the kids will be there soon and I think you might want to get their afternoon snack ready for them. I will look up a few different options while you weigh yours up. I know I can't make up to you the comments I said, but I want you to know that you are the only one for me and that I want nothing more than to be with you forever. Now let me help you out of the truck and into the house so that we can get things done."

I nodded my head and waited as he came over for me. He led me carefully into the house and I headed for the kichen, Molly's nails clicking on the floor was the only sound that could be heard other than the steady footsteps that hit the floor. I moved quickly into the kitchen to get the kids favorite snack together as I heard Rick pounding on the keys to the computer. I heard the door open and an intake of breath.

"Hey Mara, I brought them home for you. Have a good one."

I smiled. "thank you Emily, I greatly appreciate it." I walked out of the kitchen with two plates in hand and put them on the table then turned to embrace my children. I gave them both a kiss and then sent them over to the table. It was that I heard a cheer from the office.

I rushed to the office with the guidence of Molly to feel Rick envelope me in a hug. "I got it, I got a response to the email that I sent out two months ago. There is a donor. In Washington there is a donor. They are ready whenever you are."

My breath caught in my throat. "Are- are you sure? Are you serious? I don't- I don't know what to say, now this is so sudden.





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