Chapter 11: Just a normal day
Alicia and I were walking home from school. Unfortunately I was carrying her books while she was on the phone with Andy. They were talking about their usual sex life. I was trying my hardest to ignore. But it was hard. A white car suddenly pulled up next to us. I looked over to see Lance in the driver’s side. I smiled and stopped walking. “Hey.” I said.
“Need a ride?” He asked. I nodded and looked over at Alicia who already had the back door open. I was about to get in after her.
“Why don’t you sit in the front?” he asked. I bit my lip and then closed the door and went over to the passenger’s side. Lance smiled at me before driving us off.
We arrived to Logan’s house and Lance parked on the street. Alicia got out of the car and slammed it shut and then walked up the driveway. I opened the door but lance grabbed my arm and I turned to look at him.
“I have to tell you something.” He said. He looked a little nervous.
“What is it?” I asked. Lance let go of my arm. He sighed and leaned back in his seat. “I…….never mind.” He said.
“Tell me.” I said. He shook his head. “Are you sure?” I asked. He nodded.
I got out of the car and shut it closed. I got into the house and went upstairs where I heard music playing. I opened Logan’s door and saw him smoking a cigarette as he was lying on his bed.
“Hey!” I shouted over the music. Logan looked at me and then reached over to turn the music down. He sat up and smiled at me. “I’m sorry. I wanted to pick you up but I was just thinking. I know it’s a stupid excuse.”
“It’s fine. Lance picked me and Alicia up when we were half way here.” I closed the door and got on his bed with him. I grabbed his face and studied his eye and his nose. They were bruised.
“Father still giving you shit?” I asked. Logan nodded and placed the cigarette in a black triangle ashtray. “But he’s been ignoring me also so as long he is, I’ll be fine.”
He pulled me into his arms and kissed my temple.
“I love you so much.” He whispered. I smiled and laid my head on his shoulder. He used his hand to turn my face towards his and he kissed me deeply while his hand slowly went down to my thigh. When he pulled away, he smiled. “Can you sing for me today?” He asked.
I shook my head while smiling at him.
“Please? Bethany I need to hear your voice.”
“I need to hear yours but you don’t hear me begging.” I replied.
“I just need to record you once, sexy. Please?” He whispered against my cheek.
“Come on. My voice couldn’t be that good.” I said.
“You just haven’t heard yourself sing. Let’s go downstairs so that I can record you and then you can listen to yourself.” He suggested. I did want to hear what I sounded like. Alicia, Logan and Lance and Andy all said my voice was good.
“Okay.” I said. I got off of him and he got up and followed me downstairs into the basement. Lance was sitting on the couch. Alicia was sitting at the desk talking to Andy still.
“What are you two about to do?” Lance asked as Logan gave me a microphone.
“She’s going to sing.” Logan said proudly. Lance sat up more and smiled a little at me. Logan turned around and leaned over Alicia to bring up some program on the computer.
I bit my lip.
Logan looked at me. “Know this song?” He asked. The instrumental version of Decode.By Paramore. I smiled. I loved this song.
“You’re recording her?” Lance asked. Logan nodded not taking his eyes off me. “Go ahead.” He said.
I found it easier to sing when my eyes were closed. I slowly closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
How can I decide what’s right? When you’re clouding up my mind I can’t win your losing fight All the time
Nor could I ever own what's mine When you’re always taking sides But you won’t take away my pride No, not this time Not this time
How did we get here When I used to know you so well? How did we get here? Well, I think I know
The truth is hiding in your eyes And it’s hanging on your tongue Just boiling in my blood But you think that I can’t see
What kind of man that you are If you’re a man at all Well, I will figure this one out On my own
(I'm screaming, I love you so) On my own (But my thoughts you can't decode)
How did we get here? When I used to know you so well? How did we get here? Well, I think I know
Do you see what we’ve done? We’re gonna make such fools of ourselves Do you see what we’ve done? We’re gonna make such fools of ourselves
How did we get here When I used to know you so well? How did we get here When I used to know you so well?
I think I know I think I know There is something I see in you It might kill me, I want it to be true.
When the song ended, I opened my eyes and everyone was staring at me with wide grins on their faces. Even Alicia who was still on the phone with Andy.
“Was that good?” I asked. Logan nodded. “That was amazing.” He replied. He turned and did something on the computer. I looked over at Lance and he was smiling and staring at me in fascination. I blushed and looked down at the floor.
“Good job.” Alicia mouthed and then went back to talking to Andy. “Alicia, can Beth sit here so she can hear herself?” Logan asked. Alicia got up and sat on the couch by Lance. I sat in the chair at the desk and he pressed play.
Then I heard singing. My singing. My voice was unlike anything I’ve ever heard. That couldn’t have been me. “That’s me?” I asked. Logan nodded and kissed my forehead. “That’s you, baby.” He assured me. I sounded great. Better than I thought I did. “Wow.” I whispered.
“I want to burn this to a cd and give it to a guy I know.”
“I don’t….I don’t want to become like….a singer or anything.” I said.
“Did you not hear your voice? It’s the most amazing singing I have ever heard. You have a talent, Beth. I’ll just give it to the guy. See what he thinks and we’ll go from there.” He said. I smiled. “Fine.” He kissed my forehead again.
There was some footsteps coming down the stairs and I was scared it was going to be Logan’s father but then I recognized the black and white shoes. I knew it was Andy. He was looking at Alicia as he was on the phone. They were actually on the phone with each other while they were in the same room.
“Really? That’s what you two are doing?” I asked. They both laughed and hung up their phones. Alicia went up to Andy, wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him deeply. I looked over at Logan who was looking down at me. I smiled as he kissed me.
“Great, I’m the only one not getting laid tonight.” I heard Lance say. Logan broke the kiss and laughed. Andy did too.
“We should all go out tonight.” Alicia said. Logan nodded. “Sounds good.” He looked at me and I nodded.
“I’ll stay here and finish writing some music.”
“No. You should come along. It won’t be fun without you, Lance.” Alicia said. He rolled his eyes. “I rather sit down with a pen and a piece of paper then watch the four of you slob all over each other.”
“We won’t be slobbing all over each other.” I said. Lance sighed. “Well you two might not but them two will.” Lance said jerking his head motioning to Alicia and Andy who was making out. I shook my head and smiled. “It’ll be fun. Just come with us.” I said. Lance smiled at me.
“Fine. I’ll go.” He finally said.