Chapter 8: Do I really know him?
When I woke up, I was still laying on Logan’s chest. I could hear his snores. I lifted my head up and looked at the dark blue sky. I bit my lip and looked down at him. I patted his chest and he didn’t wake up at first. I sighed and patted him again and his eyes slowly opened. “Something wrong?” He asked sleepily. I shook my head. “We should go before someone sees us.” I said. He slowly smiled and leaned up to kiss me. I sighed lightly and he laid his head back down.
“Who cares if someone sees us? We’re in love. We should be able to do whatever we want.”
“I know but….” Logan sat up and picked me up as he stood up. “What are you about to do?” I asked. He smiled and looked to the left. I followed his eyes and saw the moon shining over a small body of water. I didn’t even notice it before. I looked back at him and shook my head. “You better not.” I said. He took off in a run with me in his arms. I held onto him tightly screaming the whole time and I suddenly felt myself being thrown in the water. I quickly got to the surface and looked at Logan. He was swimming around me and smiling at me.
“I told you not to.” I said. He stopped swimming and pulled me to him. “Were you scared?”
“No but I…” He kissed me to silence me. “Stop talking.” He whispered and then kissed me again.
He soon pulled up to my house. I looked over at him. He looked unsure about something. “What’s wrong?” I asked. He bit his lip and sat back in the seat. “Have you…..have you ever thought about eloping?” He asked. I looked down for a second. Was he think about eloping with me while I’m still in high school?
“No. But….is that….what you want?” I asked looking back at him. He shrugged. “I don’t know, Beth.”
“Why do you want to rush things?”
“Why would you want to elope?”
“I don’t, Beth. Jesus.” He looked out of the windshield.
“You and your mood swings. Were we not just happy a few minutes ago? Every time we’re talking about our future, you just seem to get irritated.” I said.
“Do you think we’ll have a future, Beth?”
“I’m sure we will. So don’t be so down.”
“Would you elope with me if I asked you to?” He looked at me. His eyes showing seriousness. I nodded.
“I need to hear you say it.”
“What is wrong with you?” I asked touching his shoulder. He shook his head and sighed. “Just tell me you’ll love me no matter what I do.”
He looked almost scared. What was with him? Was he about to do something crazy?
“I will love you no matter what you do.” I said. He didn’t smile but he nodded.
“You should go in. I kept you out long enough.” He said. I nodded and took my hand off his shoulder. He leaned over and kissed me. It was a quick kiss and he watched me as I got out of the car. I watched him drive away and I went to my door. I walked in and amazingly from the living room, I can hear my dad’s snores.
I smiled to myself in relief. I quietly snuck up the stairs and into my bedroom. I shut my door and went over to my phone. I knew Alicia would probably up watching TV. She sometimes has vampire sleeping hours.
I dialed Alicia’s number and held my phone to my ear as I began taking my clothes off. Took five rings.
“Hello?” She sounded like she was almost crying.
“Hey….are you okay?”
“Oh my god! Yes! I’m fucking perfect!” She began breathing hard and that’s when I realized what was going on.
“Oh god, you’re having sex.” I said.
“Fuck yeah, I am.” She moaned.
“I’ll call you back.” I said.
“No.No. Its fine.”
“No it isn’t. Andy is going to want all your attention.”
“Oh god! You’re right.” She breathed.
“So call me back whenever.”
“Okay! Harder baby.” She moaned loudly.
I hung up immediately. Very disturbing and awkward moment. I wish I or Logan would answer the phone while we’re having sex. That would piss me off. I got into my bed clothes and got into bed.
When I woke up the next morning, I felt like spending a girls day. I called Alicia.
“Hello?” She croaked.
“Well somebody has finally lost her energy.” I said.
“Yeah well that’s what happens when you’re up all night getting fucked by your boyfriend.”
“Is Andy still there?”
“Yeah, he’s laying right here in my bed ,next to me, asleep.”
“I’m glad you two are back together.” I said.
“Not as glad as me. He knocked on the door last night and as soon as I opened it, we were fucking on the floor with the door half way open.”
“Of course.” I said. She chuckled.
“So what are your plans for today?”
“Spending the day with you. I know you were having sex all night but we’ll go out and get some coffee and you’ll spend the day with me. So get up.”
“You do realize we just changed places, right? I’m normally the annoying best friend that wakes you up.”
“I know. Come on, meet me at the mall in twenty.”
She hung up. I got into the shower and put on a black skirt and a white short sleeves shirt with a half jean jacket. I left my hair down and I slipped on my black flats and was now ready. I grabbed my keys and walked out of the house.
About fifth teen minutes later, me and Alicia were walking around in the mall with vanilla lattes in our hands.
“Why are you wearing sunglasses?” I asked.
“The sun is shining in the building.” Alicia said. I rolled my eyes.
“Anyways, I think something is going on with Logan.” I said.
“What do you mean?” She asked. We sat down on a bench.
“I don’t know. He has his moments. He got drunk the other night and came over my house. I think he was mad at me because my pregnancy test said negative.”
“You took a test?” She asked.
I nodded. “My dad made me…….long story. But I feel like every time we discuss our future, he gets angry. And he seems unsure.”
“We’re only in high school. Why do you have to think about the future now?”
“It’s not me, it’s him. I don’t know. I guess I’ll just have to look a little deeper into our relationship to see where its going.”
“Speaking of looking a little deeper, look, 3 o clock.” She said looking pass me. I turned where she turned.
I saw Logan talking and smiling with a blonde girl. She was touching his arm. I know it seemed harmless but I can’t explain the anger and jealousy I felt at that moment. Me and him were just making love last night.
“Are you going to go over there?” She asked. I watched them for a second longer before slowly getting up. I could hear Alicia’s heels slowly following me. I walked over and the blonde looked at me. Logan then looked at me and his smile vanished.
“Hey.” I said. The blonde cleared her throat and looked back at Logan.
“This is Natalie.” Logan said.
“Yeah, I’m his ex.” She said.
“I didn’t ask you what you were.” I snapped. Logan’s eyebrows pulled together. “You need to calm down.”
“I am calm.”
“No, you’re angry.”
“I’m angry because you have this random girl here and seem to be having a damn good time.”
“She’s my ex. A friend. There’s nothing going on between us two.”
“If I was strolling around the mall with a guy talking and laughing with him, what would you think?”
“You can trust me, Beth.”
“So why did you get that guilty look on your face when you saw me?” I asked.
“Because I knew what it must have looked like to you. I would not and will not ever cheat on you. You should know that. And if you don’t by now…..then you must not really love me.” He said.
“Then act like it. Stop accusing me of shit.”
“I’m sorry.” I said. Logan sighed and looked at Natalie. “I’ll see you around.” He walked away from the both of us. I watched him as he walked out of the mall. My eyes then went to Natalie. Her blue eyes went to the floor as if she was scared. Then she looked back at me. “I don’t want Logan back, just for you to know. We’re just friends. I have a fiancée in Europe. I’m leaving to be with him in a few days. I just wanted to tell Logan bye.” She said.
I didn’t feel any anger towards her. I felt stupid. “I’m so sorry for just walking up and….”
“No it’s fine. I probably would have done the same thing if it was my man. How long have you and Logan been together?”
“Not long. A couple of weeks.” I answered.
“I was with him for a year and a half. He was my first love actually.” She said smiling. She had a look on her face as if she was recalling good times.
“Why did you two break up?” I asked.
She let out a sigh and she started to frown. “Well…..I loved him to death. He was sweet. I loved his voice. Sex was beyond amazing. But….then he started to….act up.”
“Act up? What does that mean?”
She let out another sigh and bit her lip. “I don’t want to ruin you guys relationship. I really don’t.”
“It’s fine. Just tell me.” I said.
She looked around first and then to me. “He kind of had a drinking problem.”
“A drinking problem?”
“He keeps in the dark about it. He doesn’t want everyone to hate him. I found out about it when I found all the bottles in his room and in the basement. Specifically in a white drawer down there. I cried my eyes out when I found out about it.”
I was completely taken back. So he isn’t as perfect as I thought. I needed more proof though besides what happened the other night and what his ex was telling me.