My mom was still asleep when I began getting ready. I was kinda glad because I didn't want to see her unless I really had to.
What was up with her not talking about dad? I mean, she could atleast give me some explanation on why he packed his bags and left to Austrailia! I looked at all the clothes and outfits strung out across my room and tried to decide what I was going to wear.
My outfit had to be hot but it also had to prove a point. Not to Josh, but to my mom. She thinks that if Josh and I study in the kitchen, nothing will happen...that's where she's wrong.
I finally settled on a baby-blue tank with my white skinny-jeans. I straightened my hair and put on the usual amount of makeup. I, then, went back downstairs and got my books to set them on the table.
My phone buzzed in my pocket for, what seemed like, the billionth time...and of course it was Malcolm. For some reason, he had been txting me and trying to call me all night! It was driving me crazy...we haven't talked in 2 weeks. What would he want?
But the buzzing wasn't Malcolm, this time. It was Josh!
The text said, "Hey, Button! Just making sure our session is still 'allowed' lol"
I softly laughed and texted back, "Yes! It is still allowed, Silly :) What time are you coming?"
Not even a minute passed when my pocket vibrated again. The message said, "I'm on my way! Cya then, Button :D"
I smirked and sat down at the table. I had a feeling this was going to be fun!
Josh got there earlier than I though he would! My mom was just waking up when the doorbell rang.
I opened the door and Josh was there holding a light-pink flower. I smiled as I remembered that it was one of the flowers in the field yesterday.
"How sweet!" I exclaimed. I carefully took the flower from his hand and told him to come in.
He said, "You seemed like you enjoyed my secret place so much...I thought you should have a piece of it." I smiled and stuck the small flower in the freezer.
"So, ready to get this kitchen session started?" I asked sarcastically.
Josh grinned and replied, "I'm so ready! It's going to be exciting!!!!!!!"
We were laughing as we made our way into the kitchen. When we walked in, my mom was in there making coffee.
"Oh, hey Josh. Wasn't expecting you to be here so early." She said mid-yawn.
I answered for him. "Mom, it's 11:00...that's not early."
She scowled at me and just replied, "Whatever. I'll be outside working on my tan." She, then, looked at Josh and narrowed her eyes. "Don't try anything with my daughter, Mr. Princeton."
She walked out before either of us could defend him. I turned towards Josh to apologize, but he was just standing there grinning.
"C'mon," I said "to the table."
We started scanning through sparknotes on the internet, when I felt Josh's hand starting running up my leg. I glanced over at him but he was acting completely normal!
I closed my eyes, only for a moment, as his hand starting trailing back down my thigh. This time, when I looked over at him he was watching me.
I scooted my chair closer to his and moved my body towards him.
Before we knew it, we were kissing each other. Not gentle, either! Josh's kisses had passion and want in them and, right now, I couldn't give any of that to him.
I pulled away right before my mom walked in. "Sorry to disturb," she stated "forgot my suntan lotion!" She quickly walked into he bedroom and then back out carryinga huge bottle of lotion. "Tootles!" She hollered out the door.
Josh looked back in my mom's direction one more time, and then put his lips back on mine.
No matter how bad I wanted to do this, I pulled away again and said, "Josh...I know what you're wanting...and I'm wanting it too, but we shouldn't do this right now."
He smiled at me and said, "You're right, Button. I'm sorry that I kinda pressured you."
I half-laughed and said, "You didn't pressure me, Josh! I wanted it just as much as you!"
"Well in that case..." Josh pressed his mouth back on mine and we began kissing again.
I started laughing and turned my head away. "Josh! Not right now...I promise we'll do this some other time, ok?"
He pretended to be upset with me and gave me a goofy pouty face. "Fine...but only because you promised."
And so we just sat there and pretended to study when deep down we were wishing something else could happen.
It was 8:30pm when Josh was leaving. I walked him to his car and sat with him in the driver's seat for awhile.
He was holding me in his arms when he said, "Nicole...I won't be able to see you tomorrow."
Until that moment, I had my head rested on his chest listening to his heartbeat. But, then, I raised up and looked at him confused.
"Why not?" I asked.
He hesitated. "Because...me and Chloee are meeting tomorrow."
I felt like I was falling out of an airplane, just then, and without a parachute.
"...Oh." Is all I could say.
He took my hand and stated, "I know what you're thinking, Button. But I promise it's not like that...I'm meeting with her to break up with her."
One little ray of sunshine came crawling back into my life when he said that.
"You promise?" I asked quitely.
He lifted my hand to his lips and said, "No. I swear. Swear on my life."