“You’re numb and stupid.” Trish shakes her head while she lifted one leg up on the chair. She was on her Mac Book constantly reblogging pictures after pictures of hot guys on her tumblr.
“I knoooooow.” I wailed, plopping on the bed beside Sophie who was quietly painting her toenails. I grabbed a fluffy powder blue pillow and pressed it against my face. “God, I’m so stupid!” I yelled through the pillow, muffling the sound of my voice.
“You can say that again.” Sophie mumbles behind me. I took off the pillow and sat up.
“Sophie, I thought you’re still mad at Evan?” I arched an eyebrow at her while I fixed my ponytail.
She blew her nails before she took a glance at me. “Well, I used to. And that was after I saw how patient he was with you after all these months.”
Goodness, has it been that long? I guess I was too hard on the poor guy.
“Why don’t you call Evan now and tell him you had just changed your mind?” Trish suggested, pausing the music from her playlist.
What? Is she freaking kidding me? He probably has a date by now. This was all my fault. Maybe I can just find a large rock and a rope and go to a nearest bridge where I can finally hang myself.
After what I’ve said, maybe—just maybe Evan had already moved on.
I suddenly saw a lot of tiny stars after being hit in the head with one of my hot dog shaped pillows. Sophie sat there, laughing her guts out. I grabbed the pillow and hit her right back.
“Dude, you’re still in love with Evan. I had to smack some sense into you.” She gives a resigned grimace as she took the cordless phone from the bedside table and handed it to me. I smiled at her tolerantly. “Give him a call. Come on—You have nothing to lose.”
“Yeah, Clarey.” Trish added, flopping down on my bed. “How are you going to find out if you’re so scared to try it?”
I stared at the phone in my hand. Sucking in my breath, I dialed Evan’s number. Trish and Sophie were giggling non stop. I quickly placed a finger on my lips. Evan finally answered the phone after five rings. I immediately stood up and head to the window. I peeked through the blinds as I stared at his dark bedroom.
“CJ?” He whispered. He sounded so groggy, like he just woke up. “It’s twelve o’clock; shouldn’t you be asleep by now?”
“I—I just wanted to, you know…?” I stammer.
God, how was I supposed to say this?
He cleared his throat. “What is it CJ?”
Before I could speak, a light flickered on and he suddenly appeared in front of his window shirtless. He moved the curtain to get a good view of me. I pulled up the blinds as well.
He threw me a questioning look. I, for one, am fully distracted at what’s in front of me. It’s like I want to climb through his window and just kiss him all night. What the fuck was happening to me? Deep breaths, Clarey. You can do this.
Just fucking say it already!
Trish and Sophie were whispering next to me, although Evan couldn’t really seem them. Sophie had gotten a bit irritated that she slapped my butt making me yelp.
“What is it, CJ?” He says, smiling. He knew what was coming next.
“I want you to be my date for the prom.” I said slowly through the phone.
Even from the darkness I could see Evan’s face light up. The corner of his mouth rises in a sly smile. He pumps a fist in the air and all of a sudden I felt like I was lifted to cloud nine once again. It had been months ever since I felt this way..
Evan was probably serious after all. I mean, after all the things I have done to him and he’s still there for me. I just hope I did the right thing for taking him back. We both remained silent as we stared at each other from our windows, completely speechless.
“Um, you’re not wearing a shirt.” I pointed out.
He rolls his eyes and shakes his head. “Uh, thanks Captain Obvious.”
I’m thankful the shadows hide my blush. “Sorry.”
Evan whispers through the phone. “I love you, CJ.”
Three words. That’s all it took to make me melt in a puddle of goo. My insides warmed up instantly as soon as he said it.
“I love you, too, Evan.”
I bit my lip in a sexy way and slowly closed my blinds as I ended the call. I wasn’t really sure if getting back together with Evan was such a great idea.
Ah, screw it. Let the fates decide.
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Five days before prom…
“Clarey, wait up!” Trevor caught up with me as I was walking along Bonita Canyon road. Before I could speak a car rolled by shaking us with its thumping bass.
“Hey, Trev, what’s up?” I said uncomfortably.
He ran a hand through his thick blonde hair. He seemed upset and I think I already know why.
“What happened to the plan of going to prom together?”
“Oh, yeah, about that…” I trailed off, twisting my lips. “I’m so sorry, It’s just… Evan and I got back together last night.”
He shakes his head in disgust. He was pissed once again for one of my stupid decisions. I’m back to being the girlfriend of his long time archenemy.
“You’re shitting me right?” He gives a small laugh, licking his lips. I shook my head.
I stared at him for a moment. I went closer to him, giving him a hug. I really do feel bad for turning Trevor down. I mean, a few days ago I just told Evan that I already had a date with Trevor and NOW here I am telling Trevor that I’m back once again with Bonita Vista High’s Alpha male.
What is up with me?
I need someone to slap me, like, right now. Sometimes I feel like I’m not human at all. I just literally ripped out my best guy friend’s heart.
He slowly wrapped his arms around me and leaned his chin on top of my head. I felt him kiss my crown. His fingers found their way to my face as he leaned down to look at me. It happened so fast. I wasn’t able to move away for he was holding my face with both his hands as he caught my lips in his.
The minty taste of his lips drowned me as I kissed him back, pulling his face harder on mine. Yes, I admit—his kiss was great.
But it wasn’t the same as Evan’s.
No sparks. No chemistry. There wasn’t anything there. Nothing at all to define if there was any love between us. All he was to me was just a friend.
I quickly pulled away from him, wiping my lips on the sleeve of my sweatshirt. I felt guilty for kissing him back.
“What the fuck was that?!” I shot him an aggravated look.
“I thought you liked it? For a second there…”
“NO!” I narrowed my eyes at him.
He quickly took a step back with both hands in the air. “I’m—I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have done that.” He quickly tells me, his eyes were like saucers.
I let out a deep sigh of frustration. “Trevor, please understand there can never be us.”
“Never…?” He whispered.
After saying that last word, which I’m sure had a great impact on him; I turned my back and continued my way down Bonita Canyon.
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