……………….. I walked into the dressing room Chad and the other
"So you want to talk dresses" I tried to sound normal and failed
miserably as I didn't make eye contact with any of the guys.
"Okay so what's Mari done now" Pete sighed folding his arms
"Nothing" I shrugged
"Oh you're such a bad liar and yes I do want to talk dresses"
Miranda smiled at me "But first you have to spill or you'll wear
pink" I looked at her and raised and eye brow "Oh and you know
I'll do it Remember the Pepto Pink shirt Sorrenson almost made
you wear before we used a football jersey" I shuddered at the
memory "Exactly" She tapped her foot
"Hold on what pink jersey?' Mike pulled a face
"She had to sing the Anthem before our homecoming football game
and the Drama Choir teacher wanted her to wear a Pepto bismol
pink shirt" all the guys looked at me
"I've never seen you in pink" Chad smiled
"And you never will" I sighed sitting on the counter top
"Okay so if it's not Mari being a pain in the ass what is it?"
"This" Chad handed the magazines to Mike and to Kerion the others
crowding round to see.
"You have to be kidding" Ryan looked at Chad and then looked at
me I shook my head "So we know who?"
"Nope" Dan sat next to me nad nudged me with his elbow
"You okay" I nodded
"How did I expect to be a rock star and not have my life put out
there" I ran my hand through my hair.
"I don't understand" Heidi sat down on Alfie's knee "Chris?"
"I'm sorry" I looked at her "I didn't tell everyone, but Arron
hurt me to the point I can't have kids" the tears brimmed in her
eyes Xander groaned and put his head against Miranda's back. she
looked at Heidi and then at the others
I know you guys wouldn't say anything, but it's not the easiest
thing to talk about" I got off the counter and walked over to
them "I was raped and beaten and I lost a baby all by a guy who I
thought I was in love with" I held each of their hands "I didn't
tell anyone for over a year and the only way people found out was
by a doctor saying something" I looked at Kerion who gave me a
weak smile. "Then Chad didn't find out till he literally dragged
it from me" Heidi looked at the others
"Did you all know?"
"We did but we were all listening in to a meeting that Chris was
having with her parents and Lukas" Mike nodded "she didn't know
we were listening in"
"You can't ever have kids?" Miranda was choked I shook my head
"You okay with that?" she looked at Chad. God bless my blunt best
"I'm okay with it" he nodded walking over and wrapping his arms
round me "we're not ready for kids anyway and there are ways to
have a baby if it's the right thing for us"
"What are you going to do about this?" Alfie waved the magazine
"I'm going to come clean about it" there was an intake of breath
from a couple of them "What else can I do?" I let go of Miranda
and Heidi and turned to face all of them "Someone has ran to the
press about this and like I said to Lukas if people are going to
make up stories and we all know they will, I'm going to tell the
"You know we've got your back" Pete smiled at me
"You do know none of us would have said anything to the press as
well don't you?" Dan looked concerned
"We know" Chad answered for me as I nodded
"So are you going to do an interview or something?" Miranda asked
wrapping her arms round Xander
"Lukas is sorting it out now" I smiled at her
"You are going to be in with her right" Ryan looked at Chad and
held up the magazine that had the Marriage in trouble head line
"Yes" He nodded
"Look guys I need to not think about this for a while" the
tiredness was apparent in my voice
"Okay" Chad laughed kissing me
"Dude let her breath" Miranda swatted him and grabbed my hand "We
need to talk dresses for awards" she grabbed Heidi as well "You
rock band geeks go play with each other" she pulled us toward the
"She really doesn't think does she before she talks?" Mike
"No she doesn't" Xander groaned Mir stopped at the door
"Oh I thought about it and I just thought you'd all like it" she
laughed "Oh and you have a Bachelor party to plan"
"WHAT" Chad and I both choked
"Oh you think just because you're already married that we're
going to miss out on going to a strip joint" Heidi laughed
looking at me "Hell no you're the first of us to tie the knot we
need to see naked men" Mir opened the door and shoved me out into
the hallway before grinning at the guys all standing looking
"You are kidding?' I looked at her as we walked into the wardrobe
room "Last thing I need is someone recognizing me and waving
their junk in my face" I groaned.
"Okay see we can take your mind of everything" Miranda grinned
walking and pulling out a book from her bag "And no we're not
joking about throwing you an all out Bachelorette party"
"Okay anything but a strip club" I sighed "I'll go clubbing and
we can do dumb shit within reason and if I have to post bail for
you two I will" I laughed
"Oooo we can get tattoo's" Heidi smiled
"Okay been there done that" I swatted her "Did you not see the C
on my leg?"
"No I missed that" She frowned
"How the hell do you miss sit it was out there for all to see at
the VMA's" Miranda shook her head
"Okay I was more shocked by the costume you were wearing" she
held out her hands I stood up and undid my jeans and eased then
over my hips and showed her the C "Is that C for Chris or C for
"Both" I nodded tapping my finger against the small K that was
woven in to the swirls on the C "but that's for Kroeger" I knew
Miranda and Heidi wouldn't let me dwell on things for too long
and it felt good to laugh about something as simple as my tattoo
and whether my bachelorette party was going to be filled with
naked men ………………..