…………. I curled up on the couch relaxed and cozy my laptop open and some serious shopping happening with stuff there for Hadley as well. I heard the door open.
"I'm late I know I'm thirty five minutes late… but the roads were bad… and I got us pizza from the little place on tenth you love" he called out before walking into the room "And the cheesy garlic bread" he grinned at me
"I never even noticed the time" I smiled at him "and that food smells so good" my stomach took that moment to agree and rumble "See" he lent over the back off the couch and kissed me before walking into the kitchen and putting the food on the counter top I put my computer on the coffee table and got up. "So did you get your business all sorted?" I reached for plates from the cupboard.
"Yes I did and I need to talk to you before we eat" He took the plates and put them down next to the boxes
"You want me to leave?" I looked up at him and frowned
"Why would you ever think that?" he shook his head "Come on" he pulled me back to the couch and sat me down and sat facing me "Okay… you know I love you" Oh crap here we go isn't that the break up line that everyone uses "Chelle…" he squeezed my hand.
"You zoned out for a minute" he smiled
"You're scaring me with the conversation beginning… it honestly sounds like you want to break up"
"No way" he laughed "in fact this is the opposite of wanting to break up with you… I want more" I felt my jaw slacken "I want a whole lot more commitment… I want us to…" he moved off the couch and dropped down in to one knee
"Beckett…" I started to shake my head "I…"
"Michelle Deering… you're my dream woman… I want you… I mean us" My head was staring to spin a little with what I was thinking "I want us to become parents"
"What?" okay I was now freaking the hell out I gripped his hand "I… we… oh god" I hung my head this was mind fuck time I pulled my hand away from him. I felt him get up from the couch and heard him walk away. I went over to the windows. I was panicked enough with him going down on one knee... but kids… kids were… well I'd never pictured having kids at least not yet I was only just finding myself, it wouldn't be fair to either me or a kids right now to even think of… the door from the garage opened.
"Go find Momma" I spun round in time to see Beckett stand up and put his hands on his hips and then look up at me and smile "Okay So I woke you and you're sleepy" I frowned at him as he bent down and then stood back up with a bundle of fluff in his is arms a little head lolled to the side and made eye contact with me.
"OH MY GOD" I moved across the floor "What did you get?"
"Well I've wanted a dog for a while… and I think we could make awesome puppy parents… And Kizzy her is the perfect Snow dog… I can see her with you at the mountain when she's a little bigger… and she's going to be an awesome guard dog"
"Kizzy" I smiled taking her fuzzy face in my hands and getting my face licked for it
"Well her names Kismet" he handed her to me "It's because things were meant to be as in us" he tucked a strand of hair back from my face "I just thought it was cute and suited her but if you don't like it we can think of something else"
"I think it's perfect" I smiled at him "and she is beautiful"
"So are you?" Beckett moved in to kiss me and Got kissed by Kizzy instead making him laugh "So you don't mind becoming a parent to her then" he rubbed her behind the ears
"Oh hell yeah" I smiled "You had me panicking for a while there"
"Let me get the rest of her things and then we can eat dinner" he pushed his tongue into his cheek.
I set Kizzy on the floor and walked in to the kitchen with her hot on my heels with her puppy waddle making herself fall over a couple of times trying to keep up before she saw the tassels on the throw rug on the kitchen floor and she went in to attack mode leaping on them. Beckett walked back in with a bed and other doggy things and went and put the bed next to the hearth in the living room. I held out his plate with his food on it.
"You really thought that I was talking about real kids" he asked reaching for a wine glass and filling it before we sat at the table
"I did but it begin with I thought you were… well you were going to ask me to marry you and then you ask me if I want to be a parent" I picked up my glass and took a drink
"Would it be so bad?" He asked taking a bite from the pizza "I mean marrying me and having babies"
"One day it would be amazing but right now I think we have so many unknowns" I chewed my lip "I know I love you, god do I ever love you" I smiled at him "I like us as us right now… but I did love having that ring on my finger" I admitted "It felt right"
"Well you never know what might happen in the future" he winked at me "OW" he jumped and scooped up a toe nipping Kizzy "But right now lets be good parents" he offered me his glass in a toast, so I picked up mine and clinked glasses with him
"Amazing Parents" I laughed…………….
the link for Kizzy is below