*OKay my internet doesn't like me right now two and a half hours i've been trying to post this and e-mail it but even my hot mail is down... I suck worse than a whore with now teeth right now*
…………….. The dining room door opened and Radlov and Egan walked in.
“Well you two were the last people we expected to see up and around at the crack of Dawn” Radlov Chuckled “But then if Sam is making his amazing omelet’s then he must be hungry”
“We didn’t eat last night” Sam smiled.
“Did Dante tell you about the club last night?” Egan poured a coffee and sat opposite me
“There were three guys in there asking about you” He pointed at Sam.
“Really Well maybe a night out at the club tonight might me what’s needed” He picked up his coffee cup
“Not without the rest of us” Radlov shook his head
“Okay no offence but, your both” Sam took a deep breath “Well Club material especially here in Prague” I sniggered a little making them all look at me as I got up to get more coffee.
‘You’re calling us old” Sam Nodded and smiled
‘Pretty much… there are enough of us and some of Siman’s boys to be able to hold off and invading army if we have to in the club” Sam leant on the table “I’m getting more than a little irritated by whatever pussy thinks he can go around trying to fuck me over, trying to get us all to turn against each other” I sat back down he reached over the table and put his hand over mine and closed his eyes and took a deep breath before he opened them again looking right at me and smiled the door opened and Siman walked in.
“Samuel phone call for you” Sam got up
“I won’t be long” he squeezed my hand and bent and kissed me “I love you” he murmured in my ear as Siman sat down at the table Sam walked from the room.
“You’re his calm” Radlov leant his elbows on the table and tented his fingers under his chin. I smiled nervously “You really make a difference”
“I don’t’ know how” I picked up the cup and looked at the steaming liquid
“Oh the right woman makes us all think twice” Egan sat back more in his chair
“When we find a woman that can make us have the same reaction and feeling that Sam just had we tend to hold on to them” Siman smiled “Some of us fail miserably because we do things wrong that we can’t take back and regret it for the rest of our lives” he got a pained look in his eyes.
“And then those women give us the babies that make us melt” Radlov took a breath
“And the daughters I swear to be the death of us” Egan smiled “Because they know we’d die to protect them and love them and… no offense” he looked at Siman “No man will ever be good enough for our little girls”
“Not true” Radlov sighed “One man was good enough but he couldn’t do anything to stop the bad things from happening” I looked down
“Bad things happen regardless” Egan groaned “all we can do is love and support them and mourn them when we have to” He put his hand on Radlov’s shoulder.
“You all did everything you could to protect your children” I mused running my fingers round the lip of the cup not looking at any of them. “Not every child has parents that love them” the room was so deathly silent “Not every man like the three of you wants to find that one special woman to be there for him… sometimes some men have daughters that they can’t stand the sight of and use them worse than a slave” I gripped the cup tighter as I spoke not looking at any of them “Some Fathers would die if they knew what happened to their daughters, and sometimes some daughters wished they could die” I looked up with that “Since meeting all of you I’ve seen what things should have been like, could have been like. I hide the scars from the beatings I was given even as a six year old, I was beaten because of the hatred my Father had for me and for my mother and I don’t’ understand why he didn’t kill me… I guess because he didn’t I always thought at some point he’d love me… You don’t know how it hurts to see you love and smile at your girls, to hear people talk about how Lauren was so loved by you and my Sam, I feel bad for the fact I’m jealous of what other people have the family that are the closeness, All I can do is say thank you for getting me away from my old life” I looked at Radlov “But sometimes this one still feels like I’m on the outside looking in and I don’t feel that will ever change” I had no idea why I was putting this put there to the three of them, and how the conversation had even changed from them talking about me being with Sam but these words fell from my mouth and I felt angry, angry and Jealous for not having family like they did, I knew I was being a spoiled brat but I couldn’t help it right now all the mix of emotion over the past few hours and days had over whelmed me. I took a deep breath and pushed my chair back from the table. “I’m sorry” I ran to the door seeing Sam standing there looking at me in shock I stopped and looked at him before running by him and up the stairs…………