When I went to school the next day Derek was at school and so was Isaiah.
“Hey Love.” Ocean Eyes said and slung his arm around me.
“Don’t.” I said and pushed them both off.
“Hey Gabby.” Derek said and leaned up against the locker.
“Don’t you start either.”
Then the demon came up to Isaiah.
“Hey Isaiah.” Lila said and pushed herself up against Isaiah.
“Hey Lila.” She went up on her tip toes and planted her skanky lips on his. He picked her up and they started making out.
I felt like I was going to die. I ran into the girl’s restroom and locked myself in a stall and sat on the floor and cried. Then I opened the window and snook out.
I ran home and I needed Mom.
“Mom!” I said and saw a note on the counter.
I knew you were probably going to ditch school today and I don’t blame you. I’m sorry that you’re finding this note. I’ve decided to leave. When your father comes home give him this note.
I’m sorry it had to come to this. I love you so much, but I guess that’s why I’m doing this. I’m leaving. I need to get out of here. I’m so sorry.
I sat down on the barstool and sighed. I didn’t know what to do. My life was a disaster. And somehow I had the will to go on. I wasn’t dead.
I will and am going to pick myself up and keep on living.
Hey. I texted Isaiah.
What do you want? I felt the rejection within the text.
My mom left and I needed someone to talk to. I texted slowly.
And what? You expect me to fall for that? For me to crawl back to you? You chose Derek. I’m nothing to you anymore. Besides I have Lila.
I was angry. You know what, I didn’t choose either one of you because you’re both asxholes. And for your information you are something to me. And Lila is a sIut and no one will ever love her besides a sad soul like you. And you know what else? I’m sorry I ever fell for you. I’m sorry I’m such a bxtch with no where to turn.
I sent it and then sent another, So, as I’ve said before, go fxck Lila. I hope you get an STD from her because she’s such a sIut. And you’re pathetic.
He didn’t reply, instead he called me. “What the fxck do you want?” I said into the phone.
“I’m sorry. Where are you?” I felt him looking around.
“A place where I don’t want you to come.”
“You’re at home aren’t you?”
“Maybe.” I whispered.
“I need to talk to you. Not over phone, or text but in person.”
When I heard his car door open and close I sighed and opened the door. I didn’t care what I looked like. My make up was smeared and I probably had streams of make up.
He came up to me and hugged me. He held me close and I cried in his shirt. Why were we fighting? Why were we being such jerks to each other?
“I’m sorry.” He whispered.
“Why are you sorry?”
“For making out with Lila.”
“Who cares?” I said.
“I do.” He said and pulled me away to look at him.
He chuckled slightly and I wasn’t getting it.
“Because my dear, I’ve fallen for you.”
I searched his face for any sign of emotion and again there was none.
“I’ve fallen for you once Isaiah. And I’m afraid to fall for you again.” I said and for some reason, I only wanted to be closer to him. So I nuzzled my head in his chest and he started to pick me up.
“Isaiah!” I said laughing. He put me down on the couch carefully and looked at me.
“What are you doing?” I asked with wonder.
“Studying you.” He said and then he realized how stupid that sounded and he smiled then chuckled.
“And why on Earth are you doing that?” I said and put my hand on my chin.
“I’m trying to figure out if you love me or not.” He said, and for once he showed his true emotion, instead of putting on a mask. This was the first time, I actually was starting to fall for him. Truly.
His face showed that he was seriously in love with me. He wasn’t falling for anyone else but me. But I’ve been wrong before.
I laughed a little and he said, “What?”
“You’re actually showing emotion for once.”
He crinkled his nose and said, “What are you talking about I show emotion all the time.”
“That is such a lie!” I said.
“What do you mean?” He was confused.
“You are an ocean. How do you think you got your name?”
“I just thought it was my ocean eyes.”
I slightly shook my head and he smiled.
“Then, how about I tell you something to show my emotion. I-”
“Talk to much.” I said with a smile.
“I can fix that.” He said and his lips reunited with mine. Only this time, it was greedy. We started making out and his tongue reached mine, it made me for some reason only want more. For some reason I found myself fiddling for his shirt.
“Are you sure?” He said and I stopped. Honestly, I didn’t know.
He searched my face for a sign of regret, love, or even a simple yes. I didn’t give any of them.
“Well?” He asked.
I stayed silent. Honestly, I didn’t know if I even wanted to give up the “v-card.” I had vowed to stay a virgin till marriage.
I looked at him and he saw in my eyes what I was going through.
“Hey,” he said and put my in his lap, “It’s okay.” He started playing with my hair and I started to get drowsy.
“Isaiah?” I needed to tell him something before I fell asleep.
“I love you.” I said quietly.
He didn’t respond and he just kept playing with my hair, and eventually I forgot about it and fell asleep.