Think Again Rhona

A/N: Just a quick thing that I have to say. Isn't it a bit weird that I'm posting chapter 13 on Friday the 13th?

The week went by and it was already Friday. Friday night to be exact. After my conversation with Lucas, I had done my best to see if Tobie had any interest in him. Which didn’t seem to be much. It seemed that Tobie had Lucas mixed up with Jake.

I then tried convincing him to give up, as Tobie had never gotten a boyfriend in her life. He just asked if she had her first kiss then.

Yes she did. And it ended up with the guy having a black eye and her being suspended for two days. But I didn’t tell him that part of the story.

Ignoring my advice, Lucas was still the same as ever. Which meant that he stayed away from Tobie and admired her from a distance. The flirty and outgoing guy that I knew was gone.

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Powdering herself with makeup, Liana put on her dress that hugged her body perfectly. Ever since she found out Andrew was going to the party, she made extra caution of her looks. The relationship between us had improved. And I was proud to say that I had let go of Andrew and gave him to Liana.

I put on the shirt that I bought from the mall. Underneath, I had my favourite ripped skinny jeans on. I dabbed some mascara, eyeliner, eye shadow and lip-gloss on. Yes, somehow, Liana and Victoria were able to convince me to put it on. So ashamed.

Tobie, with her whole new style had also worn a dress. A red twist-front bra top dress. And I bet you Lucas will faint when he sees her.

She didn’t look slutty at all. In fact, I’m sure Tobie was scared of that fact that she put a leather jacket on top. Which gave her that Tobie vibe, if that makes sense.

Victoria, on the other hand, just kept it simple by wearing a black strapless dress that also hugged her body perfectly. Her hair was messed up a bit with dark makeup all over her face. Victoria always used the “badass” look for parties.

I got out my converses and started to put them on my feet when Liana interrupted me.

“Rhona! You’re going to a party, not going for a walk! Put on some stilettos!”

She handed me some pink lizard prints pumps that had a 5” heel. My eyes widened immediately.

“No way am I wearing that.”

But of course, Liana had her way with words.

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I got off the car and made my way to the house with flashing lights and loud music. Doing my best to walk without tripping, I put my hands to the side to help with my balance.

“Come on Rhona! You can go faster than that!” Liana said as she made her way in front of me.

No I really couldn't go any faster.

When I made my way to the door, Liana, Victoria and Tobie were waiting patiently for me. Lucky Tobie, she didn’t get forced into wearing heels, she got to wear her comfy converses.

I opened the door to the land of partying and drinking. As soon as we entered, we made our separate ways. Liana went on her hunt to find Andrew; Victoria went to find a random guy while Tobie went to find the nearest alcohol. I just stood there hoping to find someone I know.

“Hey Rhona!” A familiar voice said.

I turned around to see my blonde friend.

“Lucas? Thank God I found you, I had know one to talk to,” I told him.

He gave me a charming smile and dragged me to a couch to sit on.

“I’m planning to make a move on Tobie today,” He told me.

My eyes widened, “No.”

“What?”

“No,” I said, repeating myself.

“Why?”

“If you make a move on her today, knowing that she doesn’t like you she’s never going to talk to you,” and give you a black eye, but I didn’t tell him that.

He huffed, knowing that I was right.

“If you want to do something, then just make sure she doesn’t get too drunk,” I told him. “And protect her.”

His eyes brightened just of the idea and stood up.

“Well I’ll see you later Rhona.”

Ditcher.

Seeing that I was alone again, I walked around the loud, crowded and sweaty house with hopes to find someone that I knew. 10 minutes had passed and I still hadn’t found anyone. Sighing, I poured myself a bit of alcohol. I took a sip of what gave me a burning sensation. Holding my cup of alcohol, I headed to the backyard of the house where the pool was. Sitting down on one of the swimming pool chairs, I took another sip of the alcohol.

“Rhona?” A voice said.

I turned around for the second time in this party.

“Oh. Hey Andrew,” I said.

He grabbed a chair and sat next to me. I felt his eyes on mine, but didn’t dare look at them. Because I knew as soon as I would meet them, I would fall for him all over again. And I couldn’t let that happen.

“Aren’t you supposed to be with Liana?” I asked, hiccupping a bit.

Great, two sips only and I was already a bit drunk.

“No, what makes you say tha-, are you drunk Rhona?”

“No, of course not!” I say in a high voice. So convincing.

Andrew snatched my drink from me and gulped it all down. Pissed, the first action was to scream at him.

“HEY!”

“I’m not as weak as you to alcohol, so it’s okay,” he tells me. Like that makes everything better.

“But it’s still not fair!”

I meet his gaze. And that’s all we do, stare at each other for a while. I can already feel my heartbeat increasing, going faster and faster, requiring more air for my body. He removes his gaze from my eyes to my lips. It’s then I realize the distance between our bodies, inches away from each other. Close enough for him to lean in and kiss me.

That’s exactly what he does.

I’ve had other kisses before, but never have I had one that felt like this. The moment our lips make contact, I feel like I’m 11 again. That I’m 11 and I’m riding a roller coaster. I can feel my stomach drop a little with butterflies fluttering around. Andrew’s arms hold me tightly, while I just sit there melting into them. His tongue starts flirting with mine, deepening the kiss. It takes me a moment to realize what I’m doing. And I eventually pull away.

“I’m sorry, but I can’t do this. You’ve got Liana,” and then I start running.

Running because I’ve humiliated myself. Running because Liana would be heartbroken if she found out what had happened. But mostly, running because I know I’ve fallen for him. Again.

I run to the toilet and lock the door. Sitting on the toilet bowl, I cry. Because I’ve fallen for a guy that I can never have. Tears cover up my face, and I know for certain I smudged my makeup. I just wish that I could become that girl again that I was in New York. The one who promised herself not to have any relationship with Andrew. I was so certain that I wouldn’t break that promise. But now, it was too late. I couldn’t undo the past. I had to continue on walking, and stay strong.