“Wake up sleeping beauty.”
I woke up with my face planted onto a bed. My head was light headed and I desperately needed some water.
“Whaaaaaattttt?” I said in a moan.
“Rhona, wake up.”
“Rhona, you have to go to school.”
That sure woke me up. My eyes flung open and I sat up straight in an instant. As I did, my eyes were met with William’s. Eyes that were filled with laughter.
“What?” I asked him.
“Your reaction... too funny to describe...” William managed to say with the laughter.
My eyebrows burrowed in confusion, “wait... Isn’t it a Saturday today?”
William nodded with a huge grin on his face. I gave him the same smile and hit with my pillow.
“You’re lucky that mom’s in a conference right now, or she would kill you,” William said in a more serious tone.
“Sorry, I’m pretty weak with alcohol.”
“You what me to get some water and chips? There good for hangovers.”
As William went downstairs to get some, I start cleaning up a bit. My appearance and what had happened yesterday.
After I had cried alone in the toilet, I unlocked the door and slowly made my way out of the house. Drunk and sad, it took me around an hour to get home. And when I did, I made my way to my room (which took 30 minutes) and slammed down onto the bed.
When William came back with water and chips. I immediately headed for the water, gulping it down as much as I could.
I nibbled on the chips bit-by-bit, afraid that if I ate too much, I would throw up.
“How you feeling?” William asked.
“Much better,” I replied.
The whole house turned into a silence after I said that. No footsteps, no coughing, no munching, and no toilet flushing.
“Are the others back yet?” I asked.
“No, probably still at the party.”
I nodded as I took another gulp of the water. When I finished the water, I shooed William out of the room so I could clean up. Still wearing the clothes from yesterday, I stripped down and took a shower. Letting the hot water soak on my body, I washed my hair with shampoo and conditioner. When I finished, I wrapped my body with a nice fluffy towel and started drying my hair with a blow dryer. As I did, I slowly started to recall what had happened in the party.
I hanged out with Lucas, and then he ditched me. So I got a drink and started talking to Andrew. Uh oh.
Andrew. I completely forgot about him. Forgotten about the kiss and all the tears I wept for him. And I liked it better that way. When I forgot.
Frustrated, I thought of a plan on what to do with Andrew. Things had not turned out the way I wanted them to. And because of that, my situation had gotten worst. After I had dried my hair and changed into new clothes, my plan was set.
Avoid Andrew for the rest of the day.
It wasn’t the best plan, but I couldn’t take him right now. I also needed time; time to think what is best, because I could not make the same mistake again.
Knowing that soon enough Andrew and the others would come home, I got out a random bag and put what I needed to survive the day. My wallet, my phone, earplugs and my songbook. I got out of the room and waved William goodbye.
“Where are you going?” He asked.
“What about breakfast?”
And I slammed the door behind and walked down the steps to the garage. Chelsea had given me a bike just in case I need some freedom. Just what I needed. I sat down on the seat and pushed off, pedaling as fast as I could. Where was I going to go? I had no idea. My plan was just to wander around, freeing all the stress.
As I cycled around the streets, I could see a glimpse of our rental car coming down the same street I was on. I needed to think fast, or they would see me. Knowing that all of them had hangovers and might not have clear vision right now, I quickly pulled my hoodie up. As the drove passed, my heart started beating faster. When the car just left me alone, I let out a breath of relief. I continued to go down the road. What was I looking for? I wasn’t sure of that either, maybe just a quiet park. One where I can have it for myself just to think. The breeze that went through my hair calmed me down a bit. From the distance, I could see some greenery. I continued on that sight, which lead me to a park. Not just any park, the Hollywood Memorial Park. I hopped off the bike and just started walking around with it. I sat down on a near by bench to gather up my thoughts.
What did I think of the kiss? It was sudden, but when I compared them to others, that kiss was the best. I don’t know if it was the alcohol, but something exploded when we touched. Like fireworks, creating colourful lights in the sky. I sighed, the kiss was too complicated. Something that I could not figure out.
The more important question for me was, what were my feelings for Andrew? I had always thought it was just a silly schoolgirl crush. But when I came here, the feelings got stronger. Stronger than I had expected. Had it turned into love? What did love feel like? There was no answer for these endless questions. And my emotions were all blurry to me; there wasn’t a clear straight answer.
So I did what I do when my emotions were blocked up. I let them out. By writing. I pulled out my songbook from my bag and started writing. Each word was there for a meaning. To prove something. When I finished, I labeled the top part as “Heaven”.
As I read over the words, I realized something. I liked Andrew. I really liked Andrew. And if I like a guy, then I should be able to go out with him. I didn’t see why I shouldn’t. Liana liked him, so what? Liana didn’t wait 10 years for this moment. And it took 10 years for me to figure out my feelings. And I knew now what I had to do.
I was going to tell Andrew my feelings.