Think Again Rhona

“Wake up sleeping beauty.”

I woke up with my face planted onto a bed. My head was light headed and I desperately needed some water.

“Whaaaaaattttt?” I said in a moan.

“Rhona, wake up.”

“Nooooooo.”

“Rhona, you have to go to school.”

That sure woke me up. My eyes flung open and I sat up straight in an instant. As I did, my eyes were met with William’s. Eyes that were filled with laughter.

“What?” I asked him.

“Your reaction... too funny to describe...” William managed to say with the laughter.

My eyebrows burrowed in confusion, “wait... Isn’t it a Saturday today?”

William nodded with a huge grin on his face. I gave him the same smile and hit with my pillow.

“You’re lucky that mom’s in a conference right now, or she would kill you,” William said in a more serious tone.

“Sorry, I’m pretty weak with alcohol.”

“You what me to get some water and chips? There good for hangovers.”

“Yes please.”

As William went downstairs to get some, I start cleaning up a bit. My appearance and what had happened yesterday.

After I had cried alone in the toilet, I unlocked the door and slowly made my way out of the house. Drunk and sad, it took me around an hour to get home. And when I did, I made my way to my room (which took 30 minutes) and slammed down onto the bed.

When William came back with water and chips. I immediately headed for the water, gulping it down as much as I could.

I nibbled on the chips bit-by-bit, afraid that if I ate too much, I would throw up.

“How you feeling?” William asked.

“Much better,” I replied.

The whole house turned into a silence after I said that. No footsteps, no coughing, no munching, and no toilet flushing.

“Are the others back yet?” I asked.

“No, probably still at the party.”

I nodded as I took another gulp of the water. When I finished the water, I shooed William out of the room so I could clean up. Still wearing the clothes from yesterday, I stripped down and took a shower. Letting the hot water soak on my body, I washed my hair with shampoo and conditioner. When I finished, I wrapped my body with a nice fluffy towel and started drying my hair with a blow dryer. As I did, I slowly started to recall what had happened in the party.

I hanged out with Lucas, and then he ditched me. So I got a drink and started talking to Andrew. Uh oh.

Andrew. I completely forgot about him. Forgotten about the kiss and all the tears I wept for him. And I liked it better that way. When I forgot.

Frustrated, I thought of a plan on what to do with Andrew. Things had not turned out the way I wanted them to. And because of that, my situation had gotten worst. After I had dried my hair and changed into new clothes, my plan was set.

Avoid Andrew for the rest of the day.

It wasn’t the best plan, but I couldn’t take him right now. I also needed time; time to think what is best, because I could not make the same mistake again.

Knowing that soon enough Andrew and the others would come home, I got out a random bag and put what I needed to survive the day. My wallet, my phone, earplugs and my songbook. I got out of the room and waved William goodbye.

“Where are you going?” He asked.

“Out.”

“What about breakfast?”

“Not hungry.”

And I slammed the door behind and walked down the steps to the garage. Chelsea had given me a bike just in case I need some freedom. Just what I needed. I sat down on the seat and pushed off, pedaling as fast as I could. Where was I going to go? I had no idea. My plan was just to wander around, freeing all the stress.

As I cycled around the streets, I could see a glimpse of our rental car coming down the same street I was on. I needed to think fast, or they would see me. Knowing that all of them had hangovers and might not have clear vision right now, I quickly pulled my hoodie up. As the drove passed, my heart started beating faster. When the car just left me alone, I let out a breath of relief. I continued to go down the road. What was I looking for? I wasn’t sure of that either, maybe just a quiet park. One where I can have it for myself just to think. The breeze that went through my hair calmed me down a bit. From the distance, I could see some greenery. I continued on that sight, which lead me to a park. Not just any park, the Hollywood Memorial Park. I hopped off the bike and just started walking around with it. I sat down on a near by bench to gather up my thoughts.

What did I think of the kiss? It was sudden, but when I compared them to others, that kiss was the best. I don’t know if it was the alcohol, but something exploded when we touched. Like fireworks, creating colourful lights in the sky. I sighed, the kiss was too complicated. Something that I could not figure out.

The more important question for me was, what were my feelings for Andrew? I had always thought it was just a silly schoolgirl crush. But when I came here, the feelings got stronger. Stronger than I had expected. Had it turned into love? What did love feel like? There was no answer for these endless questions. And my emotions were all blurry to me; there wasn’t a clear straight answer.

So I did what I do when my emotions were blocked up. I let them out. By writing. I pulled out my songbook from my bag and started writing. Each word was there for a meaning. To prove something. When I finished, I labeled the top part as “Heaven”.

As I read over the words, I realized something. I liked Andrew. I really liked Andrew. And if I like a guy, then I should be able to go out with him. I didn’t see why I shouldn’t. Liana liked him, so what? Liana didn’t wait 10 years for this moment. And it took 10 years for me to figure out my feelings. And I knew now what I had to do.

I was going to tell Andrew my feelings.