I sat with Ronnie on a table in the garden drinking cans of soda
after the BBQ party was over.
"I thought the BBQ would never end" I said sighing in relief.
"I never wanted a party to end so badly" said Ronnie as I laughed.
"Lets go inside, it's getting cold" I said shivering as I jumped off the table and so did Ronnie.
We both walked inside to meet mum and dad in the living room. They were both sitting with Landon's mum.
"Oh… we're sorry to interrupt" said Ronnie.
"It's fine" said Landon's mother.
"We didn't know you were still here" I told her.
"I was talking to your parents about Landon" she said as Ronnie looked at her confused while I tensed up and gave a confused look at my mum.
My mum took a deep breath and let it out slowly "Landon's missing".
It felt like an electric shock went through my entire body and that suddenly my heart was really heavy.
"He went out two days ago and never came back" continued my mum "His father is looking all over for him but so far they've found nothing".
"What do you mean?" said Ronnie scared "Could he be hurt?".
"No girls" said Landon's mother "he's not hurt, he's probably just lost".
"Why would he be lost?" said Ronnie.
"He probably ran away" I mumbled under my breath and luckily no one heard me.
"It's a new town, he must be lost" said mum trying to calm down everyone.
"Good luck finding him" I said before pulling Ronnie away from the living room and walking upstairs to my bedroom.
"How can you be so calm about this?" Ronnie asked me sitting on
my bed while I set up her sleeping bag on the floor "Landon's
missing, he could be anywhere, anything could've happened to
"They'll find him" I said shrugging "He's probably drunk at one of his friends house or in a really long video game match".
"What if he's not?" she said "What if he's hurt?".
"He's not" I said sitting next to her "He's Landon, he'll be fine as usual".
"I hope so" she said sighing.
"Good so now you're over the whole depressed thing and you can set up your own sleeping bag" I said as she looked at me in disbelief while laughing.
"You're such a bitch" she said as I rolled my eyes.
He's gonna die, he's gonna die and you know so don't
try to deny it.
I stood in the school's bathroom trying to shut out this negative thought while I blamed Ronnie for planting it in my mind.
But than I thought, what if he did? What if something did happen to him and I wasn't prepared for it? I'd break into zillions of pieces.
So that was it, that was my wake up call. That was the lesson I learned… Prepare for the worst thing that might happen so it won't hit you hard.
"Summer?" said Olivia walking in the bathroom "Come on, we'll be late for class".
"Yeah, lets go" I said nodding.
I tip toed through the boys empty locker room looking for Raymond
"Raymond" I called.
"Is that a girl's voice?" said Raymond walking out of the shower with only a towel around his waist.
"Not just any girl, it's my sister's twisty friend" said Raymond sarcastically.
I tried to get him back but I was too depressed and too tired to fight with him "Raymond, I need to talk to you".
"Really? Because the last time I wanted to talk to you, you didn't seem in the mood at all" said Raymond crossing his arms.
I tried to answer him but my eyes start watering and his facial expression immediately changed.
"Summer, is there something wrong?" he asked concerned.
"No, it's fine" I said wiping my eyes "But you're probably right we shouldn't talk-".
"No, just wait outside for a second" he said nervously "I'll get dressed and meet you in a second and we'll go somewhere quiet to talk".
"I'm scared" I told Raymond with tears all over my face while we
walked in the forest "I have this feeling that something bad will
happen and I'm trying to get it out of my head because I wanna be
the strong one, you know the one that holds on for everyone but I
can't do that".
"You don't have to" he said stopping and leaning by a tree.
"Yes, I do" I cried "No one else is doing it so I have to but I know I'm not strong enough".
"Yes, you are Summer" he said holding my right hand with both his hands "You're strong enough to do anything but this is a moment when you're allowed to be afraid and to cry so don't think that you're weak because you do".
"Raymond?" I sobbed.
"What?" he asked letting go of my hand.
"What are you gonna do about the baby?" I said in disgust as he sighed and looked above him.
"I have no idea" he said putting his hands in his pockets "My parents want me to take responsibility for it but I can't….I'm only 17 and I didn't even finish high school yet and everyone knows that if someone shouldn't have a kid than it's me but I'm tied up , I can't decide what to do and I hate that".
"You should've thought about that before" I said glaring at him.
"I know but what am I supposed to do now? It's too late to fix it" he said shrugging "I'm thinking about just running away from everything, if I get a good grade on my SAT's than I could get in a good college and move out this dump".
"Yeah, too bad that's never going to happen" I said, I didn't realize it was harsh until after 3 seconds and I quickly looked up at Raymond and he just realized it was pretty cruel "Oh no, I didn't mean it like that".
"No problem" he said laughing while my cell phone rang in my pocket. I took it out and looked at the ID and it was Ronnie.
"Ronnie's calling, she's probably wondering where I am" I said as he nodded.
"Want me to give you a ride?" he offered as I rolled my eyes.
"Your car barely made it here so no taking chances" I said laughing "But thanks for the talk, it really helped me".
"Yeah but I insist to drive you" he said as I sighed.
"Fine but on your responsibilty" I said pointing at him.