There is that moment when you
wake up….And get disappointed that you did.
It was the same familiar scene I have become used of, the hospital.
"So doctor?" my mum asked the doctor once he walked in the room. Mum and dad were the only ones there. I was surprised that Ronnie didn't come, maybe she didn't heard or maybe she did but she didn't want to see me.
"As usual, there's no clear reason why she fainted" said the doctor as dad looked disappointed but mum looked relief.
"It's not her diabetes?" said dad confused.
"No, her body is completely normal" said the doctor "Obviously she's finally going as her planned diet but this repeated fainting could have something to do with the stress".
"I'm fine now, can we just leave?" I asked "How long have I been out anyway?".
"12 hours" said the doctor "What happened before you fainted? Is there something that might have lead to this?".
"Yeah, I thought you were staying at Ronnie's house" said mum "Did you guys have a fight?".
"No, I'm fine" I said "I just decided to come home early because the room was too crowded".
I could clearly tell she wasn't convinced but as usual she shrugged it off.
"Summer" called Ronnie catching up
with me in the school hallway, I stopped once she stood in front
of me "I heard you went to the hospital again, Summer I'm really
"Don't be" I said as she looked confused "I've been giving this a lot of thought and…. You did nothing wrong and neither did he, if he likes you than I'm ok with it and if you like him too than I'm still ok with it".
"Are you sure?" said Ronnie
no, no, no please just change your email and shut Landon away forever ….…"I'm sure" I said putting on a smile.
"Well I didn't tell him anything yet, I just told him that he has to make me feel this before I make a decision" she said "But are you sure you're ok with it?".
"Of course" I said putting on another smile.
"Cool, so are you coming over today after school?" she asked.
"Actually, I'm going to the mall" I said.
"You're not just trying to get away from me, are you?" she asked in assurance.
"No" I said smiling.
"Ok, than what's in the mall?" she asked as I just shrugged.
I sat on a table in the mall's
cafeteria stirring my milkshake with my straw. I watched the guys
in the smoking corner. It isn't really a corner made for smoking
but it has zero security and zero cameras so that's pretty much
enough to make it the smoking corner.
They were always watching me with pretty creepy eyes and I've always shrugged it off but there's always been the dust of curiosity left. Going to them is probably gonna be a mistake but anyone who never made a mistake probably hasn't tried anything new.
I got up and walked slowly to them. It felt like I was walking too slowly and that I had a heavy load on my feet at every single step I took.
"Hi" I said choking on my words as the guy in the front smiled at me.
"Hey" he said "I'm Cash".
"Summer" I said looking at the cigarette in his hand, I've always hated smoking and I've always been against it but now….It looks so tempting.
He noticed I was looking at the cigarette "You want to try?".
"Sure" I said without thinking.
He smiled and threw the cigarette in his hand than stepped on it while his friend gave him a new one and he lit it up than gave it to me.
I hesitate about everything but this time I didn't hesitate, not even one second, I just did it.
I put it in my mouth and took a deep breath but it didn't turn out so well cause I choked and started couching like an idiot, he quickly took the cigarette away.
"Damn it, you look like you never smoked your life and you try pot your first time?" said one of his friends as I looked at Cash shocked.
"Pot?" I said in shock.
"Dude, that was pot?" said Cash confused "I meant to give her a normal cigarette not pot you ant head".
I noticed that Cash was holding my cell phone when did he take that? "What are you doing with my cell phone?".
"I was taking your number" he said giving it back to me "I'll give you a call some time".
"Why?" I said but he didn't answer and just walked away with his friends pot? Seriously can this get any worse?