Honestly, a child like me...couldn't possibly be adopted. I appeared to the adults as if my soul was condemned, or tarnished by some hellish aura. At the time I didn't fully understand those words.
My name is Alice, as you might have not known I'm an orphan. I currently live in an deserted church in Italy. I have no recollection of who my parents were or who I really am. All I remember is my name. I suppose I was abandoned as a baby. Maybe my parents didn't want me. I used to live with the nuns at a regular orphanage but, frankly I was too much for them to handle. They took care of me since I was a baby. Its been 5 years since then and well...lets just say I was " un-adoptable" it might not be a word but it makes sense for someone like me.
Living in a deserted church calms me. The nuns did not favor me. Or, like what they have told me " You are the devils spawn" or " God will never favor you, indecent soul".
To tell a child such harsh words is a little...cruel wouldn't you agree. But, that doesn't matter now since they are true. I then thought about how I would never experience the lifestyle of having a family. Things like that aren't meant for children like me. To be called the devils spawn, only shows that I could never gain a family. And so what if god does not favor me. Does it really matter. I will grow older in this church and I will die...alone.
But one day it seemed that god had pitied me.
while I was gathering food for myself. A couple had spotted me in an alley. They asked whether if I was a alone or not. I told them I was alone. They looked at each other and back to me. The man gave me a big smile. And the women giggled. They looked nice. And so the women asked... " Would you like to, be our child"? This question made me froze. And so I asked them,
" Why me"? They looked back at each other. The man crouched down and patted my head.
" How could we not choose you to be our child when you have such beautiful eyes".
I blushed at his comment.
I told them how could that be such a possible explanation for them wanting me to be their child. The women went into her purse and held out a piece of candy. She smiled at me handing the candy to me, placing it on my palm.
This situation became odd. How could I " The devils spawn" be treated so well by a couple I have just met.
" Its not right for a child your age to wander the streets by yourself. And who could have possibly left you like this"?
I thought about it some more and decided that if god wanted this for me then I should take advantage of this shouldn't I? I should try to live a happy lifestyle with them. And once they grow tired of me then...I'll...
" Lets go shall we, lets be happy together". The women said as she gently grabbed my hand. Personally I think of this situation to be rather weird but, I should thank god for giving me this one chance to experience what a real family life feels like. But as fate would put it, my happy family life would only end in disaster.