Ok...so I thought to myself "I won't upload another chapter until I get the go ahead that exams are over" But that's changed. I think People need to take some time out to chillax. Too much studying is the source of all exam problems. Well....if I'm lucky the book might get stuck in your head and insted of writing about shakespear and his lady mac and his net for ham, you might end up writing "So Jace then Gets with raven but she remembers what he did to her long ago. She forgives him. Then this other dude comes into the picture and steals the limelight for a while but he's no so nice...." Yeah, I should be so lucky :) Anyway, the point is, I've uploaded. Ok...Now time for the rant...Here goes.
So I've just watched the first x-men fiml again and I can't help but think that the name sounds like some gay club of something. lol. Now I'm watching hellboy and I like that girl's fire power but not those evil peeps who go after them. Or the fact that that old dude dies. Oh well....aww man! Spoiler alert!!! Lol. ( I say lol a lot. Lol...Oh damn.) Oh yeah, and earlier my friend bribed me with a free mcdonalds to do a vid of me singing and put it on youtube. I COULD look like leona lewis......Oh well...she might not noice :D (here's to hoping). I had food tech today and brought all the wrong ingredients. We were making muffins. I brought bun cases. Wwe needed sunflour oil. I brought olive oil. We needed to bring a nice fruit to go in...I brought banana (yeah...banana buns= not nice. My friends wouldn't even try them. I was offended!) Oh and we went to see Arthur the other day and it is the best film ever! "well at lease something in the room is attracted to you" Bahaha!!!!
Anyways, enough about me! On with the show!
Oh and I hope that everydodies doing well in their exams but I have no doubts that they'll fail after seeing so much talent on this site. Good luck guys, I'm rooting for ya!!!
“Are you ok?” Jace asked sitting down with a yogurt.
“Yeah, why?” I asked perplexed. I didn’t think I’d done anything out of the ordinary. I knew that something was happening to me, Something different. It was like there was something in my mind that was developing slowly. I could feel it burn through my brain, changing things as it went, whispering in my ear. To you, this would sound insane, like I was developing a split personality or something. But to me, this thing, whatever it was, felt familiar, like it was a part of me. I knew that it was something to do with me being bit but I couldn’t think why it was like that or how I knew. I could feel myself changing too. Oh, I shielded it from Jace because I knew that he wouldn’t understand and I needed to keep it secret. Because I was afraid that if I admitted it out loud, that was like admitting it to myself and that would make it all the more real. And I didn’t want this to be real. I wanted it to be some bad dream that, if I pinched myself, would all disappear. Of course it wasn’t true but I just wanted to be normal so very bad.
“...Look I know that you’re keeping something from me and I can’t be doing with that.” I heard Jace say as my melancholy thoughts left me.
“What?” I asked processing his words. How did he know I was keeping something from him?
“You heard me. I know that something is wrong with you. I don’t know what but I can sense it. Nobody, and I mean nobody, acts fine after being kidnapped like that. I mean, you ended up in hospital for crying out loud. That would have traumatised even the strongest person.” So I wasn’t strong?
“Yes I was kidnapped but the reason why I’m acting normal is because I’m alive. He didn’t kill me or rape me or even threaten me.” I spoke calmly, hammering down the anger with every breath. I could feel a blinding rage fill me up and it scared me. I’d never been so angry in my life. He was looking out for me, I knew that, but the new part of me wanted to kill him for doubting me. What was happening?
“Yes, maybe I ended up in hospital but worse things have happened to me. I’m not different because there’s no reason to be” Yes he did bite me but it can’t be that bad, can it?
“No. I mean you are different. You’re stronger somehow. And I don’t mean mentally either. He did something to you and I need to know what it was.”
Did he have a death wish? I was barely in control as it was, did he have a death wish? And then it dawned on me.
It was starting.
Whatever happened to Taylor was happening to me and I couldn’t stop it. He’d snapped even though his will was stronger than anybodies. I knew that eventually it was my turn. And I really didn’t want that. But as I couldn’t stop it, I knew that I had to get out of there. And fast. But how could I leave? I loved him too much but I had to protect him. Leaving in anger would only make him follow me. Leaving like Bella did was too...clichéd and down right awful. So the only choice was to time it right.
“He didn’t do anything to me, Jace. Why can’t you just drop it?” I asked slumping down onto the sofa. As I moved, his eyes followed me and came to rest on one spot. His face and posture hardened and rage filled his eyes. What- Oh. I gazed down to see that my top had moved slightly so he could see the bite mark. How he didn’t notice it earlier eluded me.
“Didn’t do anything to you?” He moved to where I was sat and moved my top even farther down. I tried to bat his hand away but I knew it was hopeless; he’d seen it anyway. “How could you lie to my face like that?” He asked softly, tilting my chin upwards to see him.
“Because you wouldn’t understand” I replied, casting my eyes down to the floor.
“Then you underestimate just how much I love you.” He smiled a heartbreaking smile like he knew he was losing me.
“I love you too.” I rested my forehead against his and shut my eyes. I heard him sigh in content as if he hadn’t expected me to say that to him.
“Please never leave me.” He spoke softly. I stayed silent. How could I say anything? I knew that I had to leave but if I said yes then I’d be bound to my promise, and if I said no then it’d break his heart. My heart thumped unevenly as I opened my eyes to look at him. How could he be so perfect? It wasn’t fair. Fate was playing games with me and I didn’t like it. Not at all. I had parents and They’d been taken from me and I have Jace but soon he’d be taken from me. Eventually, he’d do something or say something and I’d snap like I’d been so close to doing a few moments ago. I couldn’t leave him and I couldn’t stay either. So what could I do?
“I’ll try” I eventually said. It was neither committing or disagreeing .
“That’ll do for now.” He smiled softly. “But if there’s anything I can do to get you to stay then I’ll do it.” He spoke with such finality and love in his voice that it made my heart shatter even more. But the it struck me. What if I left right now to calm down and then came back? Whatever was happening to me couldn’t be that bad that I had to leave. Could it? No, of course not, that was stupid. I could leave to allow whatever needed to happen, happen and then I could come back and we’d go on with our lives happily without ever needing to think of this again.
I held onto the naive thoughts and ignored the rational ones. The kind of ones that told me nothing was ever that simple. I’d forever be changed into something else and we’d never get over this.
You can see why I ignored them. If something supernatural was happening to me then it was plausible that I didn’t have to leave forever. Yes, that would work. The sudden thought filled me with the greatest feeling of euphoria.
“Well there is one thing you could do.” I spoke trying to keep the excitement out of my voice.
“Anything” He spoke that one word like it was his lifeline.
“Let me go” He started to speak but I held up my hand, silencing him. “For an afternoon and when I get back, it’ll be back to normal. I just need to wrap my head around a few things first.” I smiled, finally letting the excitement bubble in my voice.
“Why haven’t you left yet if that’s what you need?” He embraced me tightly. “Go” Be breathed. And that’s exactly what I did.