The meeting with her client ended nearly lunch time. Scha let out a relief sighed. The meeting had prologue longer that she expected. She might as well have her lunch somewhere around the area before heading back to the office. Zen won’t be looking for her to go out lunch because they are not in talking terms. It has been nearly a week now. Well actually she’s the one who’s not talking to him. She’s the one whose been avoiding him by having breakfast meeting with client everyday. Beside he never had lunch with her anymore ever since Luna is around. In fact he’s been having breakfast, lunch and dinner with the girl. He hardly spent time with her. She pouted her lips angrily as if Zen is in front of her right now.
But why is she angry? She asked herself. Zen has told her there’s nothing going on between him and Luna. They are just friends, she reminded herself. Yes, just friends like she and Zen but friends could fall in love with each other. Just like Zen has fall in love with her without she even realising it. Possible, one day he would fall in love with Luna. Yeah, possible since she had rejected him, and he definitely would want to move on with his life and Luna is available. But she will be gone next week. Scha smiled, yes Luna will be gone by next week and Zen will be hers again.
Hers?? She hit herself. Zen is not hers. She’s rejected his love remember. She’s in love with someone else. She’s in love with HIM, the Anonymous Him, who writes beautiful poems.
What else does she knows about him? She asked herself. Nothing, NIL, Zero – she knows nothing about him and yet she's convinced that she's in love with him. What if Dee Dee is right about him? What if he is someone serving in prison somewhere? Maybe he's not but what if he's old enough to be her grandfather? Would she accept that? Damn it Scha, she scolded herself. He couldn't be that old. He’s just experiencing love. If he as old as her grandpa, he would has experience that earlier in his live. What about his looks? What if his face is worst then a gorilla? Her head asked her. Love doesn't care about how the other looks like, she debating with herself. She will accept him no matter how he looks like she convinced herself. Yeah, even if his face looks like a gorilla she will accept him but hopefully not. Again if he does she will still accept him, she convinced herself again because he’s romantic, BUT Zen is more getting romantic nowadays.
Yeah, Zen is being very romantic nowadays. Hard for her to believe it, but that what he is right now. He has become more romantic than the Anonymous Him. The Anonymous Him only sent to her poems on friendship while Zen? Well he has been giving her a single full blossom red rose every day along with a simple love poem. Yes, he gives her a single full blossom red rose WITH a poem; beautiful and romantic poems. He would leave them on her desk and every time when she came back from a meeting she will find them there. That’s all started on the third day after he confessed his love to her (the one she stupidly rejected). First day a simple poem reads:
I missed your sweet smile
I missed your cheerful laughter
But most of all
I missed us being together
He has asked her to find out herself what the meaning of a single full blossom red rose and she has. It’s mean – I LOVE YOU.
But the poems that she received yesterday really had made her heart beating so fast.
I am thinking of you
Every day and every night
Every hour and every minute
Even every second its count
I am thinking of you
And your beautiful eyes
Looking deeply into mine
And they never tell a lie
I am thinking of you
Of all the joy I could give you
If you ever let me
Show all the love I have for you
I am thinking of you
Just to let you know
I’m always here
And to love you forever more
And this time he put the poem in a message bottle instead. Gosh, he is being so romantic. Her heart is beating so fast right now just thinking of him. She doesn’t care where he gets all the romantic poems from but she loves it.
Romantic, she smiled dreamily, so romantic. She always looking for someone romantic, but is that enough to be in love with someone? What happen when it’s gone? Does the love gone too? Zen had asked her this questions before and she remembered him said a person don’t have to be romantic to show someone how much you love them. What’s important is showing how much you care. He is right, caring is part of love and all this while Zen had shown her how much her care about her. How much he truly loves her, but it’s gone now because she had rejected him.
“Next please,” the cashier called waking her up from her thought. She started order her lunch and while ordering her phone signal went off indicating an incoming e-mail. Taking her tray and sat at the corner to the restaurant. She immediately opened up her e-mail from her laptop. It’s a message from HIM. She smiled. Ah, something to take her mind off Zen.
“Hi Scha, How are you? Hope you have a wonderful day as mine. I am so happy. I have found out that the girl that I’ve been falling in love with had fallen in love with me too. My poems have managed to make her fall for me. She didn’t know they are from me and she thought some guy she knew online. She thought he and me are different people. Her best friend told me about this. You don’t know how happy I am at this moment to know about this. There is still hope for me to pursue my love to her. I’m not giving up on her. I’m going after her and I’m going to make her fall in love with the real me. I’m going to write more poems for her but this time the poems will come directly from me. I’m going to convince her that I am that person she’s in love with. She’s very stubborn so I might have a hard time to do that. Wish me luck my dear friend.”
Scha gasped reading his mail. God no, he’s going back after the girl, He still in love with the girl and he’s not giving up. She felt disappointed. Her dreams to make him realised her loves towards him had gone down the drain. He didn’t feel anything towards her. He is still thinking about the girl. NO WONDER HE HAS BEEN SENDING ONLY FRIENDSHIP POEMS TO HER!!
Even though she’s feeling so disappointed she still think she need to response to his e-mail, so she wrote, “My dear friend, I’m so happy to hear the news. I wish you all the best and hopefully you will able to win her heart. Maybe you need some time to convince her. She might not believe you.”
What else can she say? She asked herself. There’s nothing she can do but to accept the fact that he’s not meant to be with her. She felt so disappointed but surprisingly not depressed – disappointed because she has lost her love before she could even express it.
An incoming signal came in through her mail. He had responded, “Thank you Scha. You are right. She might not believe me. That’s why I have to do something to make her believe. No matter what happen I’m not going to give up on her. My mom used to tell me never give up something or someone without fighting for it. I’m going to make her mine no matter what. I will tell her that all my love poems are only meant for her. I’ll be writing them only for her now.”
Scha sighed deeply. How she wish he’s fighting for her love. That would be romantic, isn’t it? He’s like one of the hero in the romance stories she read. The hero would fight for the girl’s love even after the girl has rejected his love. He did all he best to make her fall in love with him and finally he’s able to make her realised that he’s the one for her. Oh how romantic. If only Zen were like that. Still fight for her and proved to her that he’s the one for her even though she had rejected him.
Huh?? Zen?? Gosh she’s thinking of Zen again. Does she want Zen to fight for her? Wow, that would be romantic if he does that, but knowing Zen, he probably won’t but maybe he is. He started to write romantic poems to her right? Her mind asked her. Possible but he never tried to talk to her at all. Well how could he when he’s too are busy with his own projects and meeting clients? Maybe he’s trying to seduce with his romantic poems. He knows how much she loves romantic poems. Maybe once he’s sure that she has fallen deeply for him, he will tell her that he’s never given up his hope to regain her love. Wow, that’s truly romantic. Gosh, romantic again! She scolded herself.
She brought her attention back to his e-mail. She then replied, “Yeah, you should fight for her. A person who loves someone should never give up. He should fight until the end. A girl would find a guy romantic if he willing to that for her. Fight for her love. Convince her that he’s the one for her. So my advice to you is never gives up.”
Gosh, she wished someone would tell that to Zen, she told herself. Pressing the send button, she turned off her laptop. Suddenly she lost her appetite to eat and took her unfinished lunch and threw them in the dustbin. She headed back to the office.
Inside the cab the incoming signal was on again. She read his mail from her phone, “Thank you Scha, l shall follow your advice. Shall fight for her love and never give up. I have to go. I’ll catch up with you later tonight and tell you all the details. Bye my friend. Have a pleasant day.”
Scha sighed. Her day wasn’t pleasant anymore. She has lost both Zen and HIM. Gosh, why is she thinking of Zen again? Does she felt regret now that she had rejected his love? Does she want him to tell her that he still love her no matter what? Will she accepted him if he ask her again? Urgh!! She felt like screaming. She doesn’t know what her heart wants anymore.
She sighed again. She doesn’t have the mood to go to office. She didn’t want to face Dee Dee with her disappointed and unhappy face. Dee Dee would want to know what happen and she could never keep any secret from that girl. It’s Dee Dee’s fault making her think about Zen and the rejection. Yeah, Dee Dee finally knew about it when she saw the rose and poems from Zen. She has been making Scha unsure with her own feelings anymore.
Making up her mind she told the taxi driver to turn around and headed home.