Skinny Love.

CHAPTER ELEVEN- REALIZATION

“I realized something last night” Killen’s voice came from the doorway to the lounge, great, he just couldn’t leave me alone for a second could he?

I turned to face him and he was staring at me intently, his blue eyes ripping into mine. How long has he been standing there? Watching me like the creep he is?

“And what would that be?” If he decided he wanted to kill me, I’m seriously out of luck because we’re the only two in the house.

My Dad and Dylan decided that Italy would be a great experience for them, although it’s more likely that Dylan forced my father into it, as she does with everything else.

I don’t see the whole point of me staying here, if he was going to be travelling the world with his girlfriend instead. He’s spending more time away from me instead of the requisite quality time with me.

A moment of silence, passed through the room and the only sound we could hear was the ticking of the clock and the silent buzz of the television.

See, I don’t really pay attention to the sounds of the television so I usually just leave the volume to a minimum and watch the channels blur past as I flip through them.

I know, how much more of a weirdo can I get?

Killen sat down beside me, still not answering my question which slightly ticked me off but I won’t let him affect me anymore than he already does.

“Why do you like Zac?” He was so close to me, that I could feel his hot breath tickle my neck. If he hadn’t annoyed me so much, I would probably jump him right there but keeping my cool I flipped through more and more of the four hundred and five channels available.

I simply stated a fact, “That doesn’t answer my question”

“Answer mine and I’ll answer yours” He simply stated back.

“Well, that’s unfair!” Putting the control down I glared at him, wasn’t I the one who had asked first?

“Why?” He looked completely puzzled and I wondered to myself how this person had gone through the first three years of high school without a brain.

“Because, I asked first!”

“Well, I asked second, now tell me”

I rolled my eyes. What a demanding person. Deciding that f I answer him he’d leave me alone I answered, “Because he’s not a jerk”

He looked at me as if I was stupid and I couldn’t help but glare back.

“Is that it? That’s the reason why? You don’t have any other reason for why you like him?”

I flicked through my brain, and honestly the only other reason I could find was because he was so darn hot.

I shook my head. “Now answer mine”

He stared at me, blatantly caught off guard for no particular reason.I couldn’t help but think that he looked a tad bit cute with a bewildered look on his face.

He stood and made to leave, but I stopped him.

“Killen, what did you realize last night?” I demanded, a bit of a whine to my voice.

He closed his eyes and took deep breaths.

“Did you realize you were a complete jerk to me these past few days?” I hinted, a smirk playing on my lips.

“That and………This” He quickly bent his head to mine and kissed me.

It was nothing like Zac’s kiss. It was slow and urgent, but not forceful. I made no move to push him away, for what reason? I don’t know.

All I know is, I could stay like this forever and be completely satisfied with my life. His lips tasted like chocolate and vanilla. The mixture was incredibly pleasurable.

Butterflies beat at my stomach as he bit gently down on my lower lip. I didn’t feel any butterflies with Zac.

Slowly he broke away and leaned his forehead on mine.

“I’ve wanted to do that since I first met you” He breathed. Uh? Hadn’t he called me a thief when he first met me?

I looked into his deep blue eyes and I melted. Everything around me was suddenly forgotten, all I could think of was falling into that sea of blue that was his eyes.

“Why were you being a jerk?”

“Because it would be wrong to like you in that way, so I distanced myself and found every reason to be mean to you, to hate you, but I-I can’t bring myself to hate you. I just can’t”

“So I’m not good enough for you?” I spat “Is that it?”

His face fell as realization dawned on it.

“No it’s, it’s not like that. It’s because my mother’s possessive” He looked at me square in the eye and I cringed back, what was he trying to say? “If she decides she wants to marry your father, that’s exactly what she’ll do. And being with you wouldn’t be right. We would be Step siblings by then and if I start liking you now. I wouldn’t bear having to be brotherly towards you in the future”

Oh, I totally forgot about that and I realized what he was saying is true.

Not only was I disappointed we couldn’t ever like each other in that way if that ever happened, it would mean my father remarrying that materialistic slut.

I realized why he was being a jerk to me and I can’t help but feel bad he has to be that way to me. I still don’t find it a valid excuse though. He could’ve just distanced himself without being that mean.

I can’t help but feel bad for ever thinking him wrong, but I have to say he’s a really good actor. If I liked someone so much, I wouldn’t be able to be that strong and resist.

And one more thing I realized is that I bloody like Killen Gates. Someone who might just be my step-brother in the future.

Back when I first saw him, I only liked how gorgeous he was but his attitude was all wrong. Now that he’s explained himself, I don’t know what to think but that I like him.

I like the way he kisses me. I like the way butterflies beat at my stomach when he kisses me.

I like how I could fall into his blue eyes and get lost in them. I like how his hair is always perfectly mussed. I like him.

“I don’t like your mother very much” I stated honestly “Not really” I don’t know where that came from, I was just thinking about the things I like about him.

He laughed “I don’t either, but I have to deal with her everyday”

“So do I, now that I’m living here” I laughed along with him.

He stared into my eyes and I stared right back, how I wished his mother wasn’t dating my father.

I tilted my head up at him and kissed him, he seemed shocked but replied moments after.

He moved his lips in synchronization with mine.

“Let’s give us a try” He whispered in defeat, against my lips.

I nodded. “I promise to not fall in love with you” But aren’t I already?

“And I promise not to fall in love with you”

“And if all else fails…….”

“We have to get our parents away from each other”

I nodded and slowly he bent, and he pressed his lips against mine.

A/N: Hello Loves, so I know this might be going a little to fast but I'm trying to fit the plot so there's not too many chappies! =) Hope you enjoyed either way! =)