"They all are so pretty. And Amber is so grown up now."
Kate said. Amber smiles while trying to figure out who she is. "I
can't believe this girl right here is the baby girl I saw that
felt like yesterday." "I know what you mean; they are all growing
up so fast. Like Emmy can talk more now." We smiled at each
others. Mine was kind of forced. Okay, maybe I'm not over what
she did. But I just wanted her to see my beautiful kids one time.
Ah, they are right. Before I know it my little Emmy is going to
be getting married.
December 30th. 2:00
am. Lyndsey's dream
"Momma, I'm gone!" Sixteen years old Ericka yelled down the hall.
I come rushing up to her, seeing her wearing ripped blue jeans, a
tank top, and her long curly strawberry blonde hair is down,
Austin comes in the room with his skater hair dude, jeans and a
Hollister Polo. My senior girl, Amber comes down in her cute
short pink dress, with white leggings, rainbows. Dream is now 13,
her mid-back length curly blonde hair is straightened, and she's
wearing jeans, a pink Hollister baby tee. My now ten years old
daughter Emmy came down in a blue jeans skirt, white leggings,
purple shirt, and kids rainbows. "Ericka, when will you be back?"
I asked her with a knowing look on my face. "Two hours, they just
want me to show up, you know?" I shook my head no. Ericka and
Amber are now the popular kids. Of course Amber would be, since
her mom Abby was. She does know that Abby was her mom. She comes
up to me "Momma, I want to go live with Abby." I looked shock;
Blake comes in wraps his arms around me. "What is it Lynds?"
"Amber wants to live with Abby..." I mumble. He looks shocked as
well. The door bell rings, Dream answer it, in come Abby who
looks just like she did back in high school. "I'm here for my
daughter." "Who is your daughter?" "Amber." "No she isn't. She's
my momma's and daddy's." "Yes, she is. She is only your daddy's.
I had her." She rolled her eyes at me, and looked at Blake.
"Blake, leave these dork, and come live with me and Amber." "Oh
daddy, will you?" Amber asked smiling. He looks at me and goes
over and kisses Abby! I scream as loud as I can………………….
"Lyndsey! Baby wake up!" Blake shakes my shoulders, I
jerk up. I see that he is still here. I hug him and start to cry.
"Blake, you're still here." "Of course, I will never leave you."
So I broke down and told him all about my dream. He laughs, and
smiles at me. I slap him, he laughs again. "Mommy?" Emmy said
through the baby monitor. I get up, and goes to make sure Emmy
didn't grow a few feet and become ten. I smile when I see her as
I last saw her. She held her arms out to me. "Will I always be
the baby?" "I don't know, I might have another one. Make it six."
But really five. I kiss her forehead and start to sing. I have an
amazing singing voice. She slowly goes back to sleep in my arm, I
dance around the room. Do I really want another kid? By the time
I go back in my room, Blake is already up for the day. I slip on
the pair of pants that Nikki brought me three years ago. And my
old pink baby tee. My long feet length hair is brushed and it
will be down for the day. I see Blake come out of the bathroom,
so I go up to him stands on my toes and kisses his lip softly.
"We need to have a romance dinner. Tonight. Nicole is coming over
after school to watch them," He smiles and kisses me. We walk out
the room holding hands. Hard to believe we're twenty-four. Blake
yells "Amber, Ericka, Austin time to get up!" I go over to the
stove and start to make pancakes. I feel a tug so I look down;
Dream was standing there with tears in her eyes. "What is it
Dream Girly?" "Amber won't let me go in her room." She sobs; I
pick her up and position her on my hip. I flip the pancakes and
goes sit down, "Dreamy it will be okay, she's just growing up.
You'll get like that will Emmy." She looks at me and hugs my
neck. "I hear that Barney is on, how about you go watch it." She
kisses my cheek and runs off to the TV. Ericka comes in, hands me
her brush. "How do you want it?" "Like yours, momma." So I brush
it, and then straighten it. Ah, they got it good. I had to pay to
get curls. Amber comes in with her brush; I sit her down on the
floor. "Am, how do you want it?" "Straight, but in a pony tail.
Please." I smile and gets to work. My four out of five kids are
sitting at the table eating; Blake comes in kisses my lips. "Your
momma and I are going out. So Nicole is coming over and watching
y'all." Amber smiles. She adores Nicole. "Isn't Nicole graduating
this year?" Blake asks me. I go back to my mind and try to figure
it out. She is. I nod. Oh my God, Izzy is eleven then! I text
Nicole: Can you come over and watch the kids tonight? I need a
romantic dinner with Blake, Please. I'll pay. I hit
I walk them off to the bus stop. Kisses Blake good bye, and get
to cleaning. I hear Emmy cry. So I get her out, get her dress.
Brush and put up her hair. She wants up. So I put her on my hips
and I go into Austin's room to clean. We get done and my phone
goes off saying "New text message from: Princess Nikki!" I open
up my phone: One new message from Nicole, read now? I
clicked yes. Sure, I don't have no date tonight, and all I got
is to study for my mid-terms, why now though? I've been offering
for eight years. I hit the Reply Button: Because we
need to talk, and I'm finally ready to leave Emmy. Thanks, be
here at six? I hit Send. I go make them their
lunches, and we eat. My mom can't believe I'm still a size zero
after four kids. Erica comes over with Emma, Lily, and Justin. I
smile as Emma hugs me and goes off with Dream. Lily and Emmy go
off while playing with dolls, while Justin goes and plays with
Austin's old toys. "I want another kid." I say as we sit on the
screen in porch. "Why?" "I don't know. I just do, I want to make
it five. And Emmy wants another sister; I just want one more
baby." "I know what you mean. But I already gave child birth to
five kids. And If I don't have to I won't." We giggled. Stephanie
and her young kids comes up, they go to find their buddies. Cyndi
comes up with her kids as well. "Steph and Cyndi!" we fill them
in on what we were talking about. We all end up giggling and
before we know it, all of our school age kids come running up.
They take off different places in the house. "Well I hate to be a
damper to this party, but Brent and I have a big date, my momma
is watching the kids." We hug good-byes, and she gather up her
kids. "I got to go to, we have a date too." Cyndi said laughing,
off they went. Nicole pulls up she comes over and hugs me. "I
can't believe you're 5'3." I say. "Well I'm only and inch shorter
than you." We smiled and laughed. "Erica will you be here if
Nikki needs you?" "Yes, where will you be?" "A date with my
hubby." We smiled and giggled. I hug her and go off to get ready.
I come out in pink short dress, white leggings, high heals,
diamond earrings, and my hair is in the super curly mode. So it's
down, and it's so cute! I walk down the stairs, slowly. I see
Blake waiting there in his fancy suit. Nicole smiles and picks
Emmy up. "Emmy and Dream goes to bed at 8, Ericka and Austin
8:30. Amber 9:00." I say he put his hand on the small of my back
and leads me out the door. We get in the car; he leans over and
kisses me. "Lyndsey, I forgot how pretty you really are." I smile
at him, "You're looking sexy too."
We ate and now we're shoeless, walking on the beach "Blake, I
want another kid." "You do? I thought Emmy was the last." "I did
too, but I want one more. To make it five, I know Amber is the
first, but I didn't have her. Amber and the twins are getting to
the point where they don't need me anymore. I need one more
person to take care of…" He cuts me off by kissing me. "Good, I
kind of wanted to try again and to get a boy this time." I smile.
We go to a hotel room and try. We leave it at twelve. Nicole is
asleep on the couch; I go over and put $50 on her phone and goes
to sleep. Two weeks later, it didn't work. So we tried again.
The weeks go by, and nothing happens. It's finally
May, and she thinks this is it!
I don't feel too good, so I go and lay down. I end up throwing up
before I could lay down. I go drink a ton of orange juice. Now I
really got to pee. I go get out one of the many pregnancy tests
we have. It comes out reading pregnant! I take three more; they
all say I'm pregnant! I call the doctors and he says he can get
me in today. So I go off. It's four pm, I'm cleaning the house.
Emmy and Dream are watching Suite Life on Deck. The phone rings,
Amber answers it "Hello?" "Yes, my mom is here." "I'll go get
her." She steps away from the phone and yells "Momma, doctors!" I
run and answer it "Hello?" "Yes," "yes!" "Thank you, thank you. I
will." I hang up and pick Dream up and spin her around. "What is
it mommy?" Ericka asks. Blake comes in the room and sees my
smile, I run to him. I wrap my arms around his neck, and he lifts
me off the ground we kiss. Amber and Ericka giggle. "Y'all, I'm
pregnant!" The girls screamed their happy scream, Austin high
fives Emmy. I smile and goes calls my momma. I hang up and I'm
just glowing. "Momma, I hope you have a boy." Austin said. "No,
another girl!" the girls giggled. "Mommy, I love you." Emmy said
and hugged me. "Mommy, I love you." Dream said and kisses my
cheek. "Momma we love you." Austin and Ericka said hugging me
together. "Momma, I love you as well." Amber said hugging me.
"And momma, I love you too." Blake said laughing his butt off.
They all dog piled on their daddy. I just sit down on the couch
June 13th. Nicole's Graduation day.12:00 pm Granville
Central High school.
The whole gang is sitting on the bleachers, Momma and daddy,
Izzy, Hope, Bruce, Brittany in one section. Brad and Katie, Kelly
and Kevin, next to them. Nick, Alexa and baby Grace beside them.
Erica, Jake, Josh, Lindsey, Emma, Lilly, and Kevin are next to
them. Then it's me, Blake, Amber, Ericka, Austin, Dream, and
Emmy. Emmy is in my lap and Dream is in his. Then both sets of
grandparents. Then all of our aunts and uncles. They have been to
every graduation. But we all think this is our grandmas and
grandpas last one. What? They are seventy, and not in good
health. They call all those people up now the principal we had so
many years ago calls up "Nicole Angel Summerland" She walks up in
her black graduation gown, and matching cap, she get her diploma
and smiles she stick her tongue out for the picture we all took.
He slowly called her to come give the speech; we're all the smart
kids. "I know it's kind of a family tradition to say part of what
my older sister Lyndsey said. But I'm not doing that. We're here
today for our big "family" we have all been together since Pre-K,
we're going to be scared out of our minds this fall. But ya'll
prepared us, the best you could. We learned a lot. And we're
finally ready to get on with our next chapter in life. I mean, my
sister Lyndsey was my inspiration, but I couldn't make all those
straight A's, and have the best of friends, and the best
boyfriend. I struggled all of my high school, expect for this
year. We're finally going to go out in the real world; ready to
be who we wanted to be. Thank to all of y'all who has supported
us for these 18 years." She looked in my eyes and smiled, I did
to. Everyone clapped and cheered. We're now at the place where we
grew up at. "Now that y'all are all here. I'm not going to
college this year, I don't know what I'm doing but it not going
to college, I need to take a year off. I will go or maybe do
online" she stated. Her newly found boyfriend Adam held her
tight. "Matter of fact, Momma and daddy, this will be my last
days. I'm moving out." We all looked shocked. "Lynds, I'm doing
what you and Erica always talked about, I'm going to go to New
York to do my fashion stuff." I smile "As long as you'll be back
here to see this one born." She hugs me, I will. "Not you too!"
Izzy wined "I need at least Nicole. Everyone is leaving me." All
of us older kids hugged her tight. She breaks free, and we all
bust out laughing like the good 'ole days. I glance over to see
momma and daddy smile their big I'm-proud-of-our-kids smile.
"Nikki, we're okay with it, as long as you are." "I am, momma. I
have been planning this all year long." Erica and I roll our
eyes. Brad punches up jokingly. Nick punches Nikki lightly; Nikki
hit Izzy in the head. We all started laughing again. "Momma, were
you like this growing up?" Ericka asked me. "Baby, you would
never have guess, but all of our 18 years here." We all ate,
laughed, shared our memories. "Now, that Nikki is moving out. It
leaves four kids here and us two adults." Momma said. "So?"
"We're moving." "Where?" Brad asked. "Florida." "That is a far
ways away!" "Yeah, well we're aloud to move." "When?" "July 5th
is our last day." "That is in a month!" We quickly said our
good-byes. I hugged Nicole. "Loved your long speech." "Thanks."
"I can't believe it's finally time for you to leave." "I know,
today feels like the day you told momma and them that you were
pregnant." I giggled. My sweet little Nicole is going to be
entering the real world soon. "Izzy, you'll always be my
Izzy-bell" She smiled at me and came running up to me. "What
about me?" Nicole joked. "And Miss Nicole. You'll always be my
Princess Nikki." I kissed momma's cheek and walked to the car
where my life is now. I wiped the tears that were falling down my
face, but of course Erica happens to see them, she comes running
up to me, she wrapped her arms around me and held me tight
"Lynds, it's going to be okay, I'm going to miss her so much too,
Nicole was my little sister that looked up to me, not you for
once." I tried to smile, we hugged and then I climb into the car.
"Mommy, I love you." Amber said to me, I smile. "I love you as
well." Austin said. Everyone else agreed, even Blake. "I love all
of y'all." I dozed off; being pregnant always makes me tired. I
feel a hand on my shoulder "Baby, we're home, Emmy won't get out.
She's waiting for you." I turn around and sure enough Emmy is
crying in her car seat. I climb into the seat and take her out:
"Emmy, mommy got you now. You're safe." She clung to my neck and
wouldn't let go.
I'm now four months pregnant. They have been in
school for a month. I can't believe Ericka and Austin are six
going on seven, and Dream is five as of yesterday! Emmy is two.
Amber is nine! My momma and dad and the kids did move to Florida.
Nicole is in New York, with her new husband Adam. I can't believe
it. I rub my belly and say "Baby, don't grow up so quick, like
you're siblings are." I smile as I see Erica, Lilly, and Justin
coming over. Erica hugs me and smile. "Emmy!" Lilly squealed as
she saw Emmy come running up. They took off in her room. "Erica,
come see the new baby's nursery." "But you don't know the sex
yet." "It's a neutral color." I lead her to the empty room with
white baby items, the walls we're lime green with orange dots on
them. We sit in the room. This is the last empty room, my last
baby. "Any babies name?" "Nope, you got any?" "Nope." I pull out
a piece of paper and a pink pen I begin to write:
My baby's name:
Jessica Lynn Wakefield
Kevin Jay Wakefield
Tyler Adam Wakefield
(My favorite) Taylor Lynn Wakefield
(My favorite boy name) Edward Jay Wakefield (Eddie) (Ed)
She smiles at me and takes the pen from me:
Caitlin Nicole Wakefield
Cayla Lynn Wakefield
Crystal Lynn or (Krystal)
My favorite though is Crystal Lynn or Brooke Lynn, Christian Jay.
I smile and say "I do like Crystal Lynn and Brooke Lynn." "Same
here." Emmy comes in "Emmy, do you like Crystal Lynn or Brooke
Lynn better?" I ask her. "Crystal Lynn." She calls Lilly in.
"Lilly, do you like Crystal Lynn or Brooke Lynn better?" "Crystal
Lynn." Justin comes in "I like Brooke Lynn better." We smile.
Ericka and Lindsey comes in, school must be over. "Do you like
Brooke Lynn or Crystal Lynn better?" "Crystal Lynn" Ericka said.
"Crystal Lynn." Austin and Josh came in "Brooke Lynn." They said
together. Dream and Emma came in "Crystal Lynn." Dream said.
"Brooke Lynn." "Momma, I like Crystal Lynn better." Amber said.
We go into the kitchen and talk it over. Blake and Jake came in
talking and laughing. "Blake if it's a girl, do you like "Crystal
Lynn better or Brooke Lynn?" I ask him. "Crystal Lynn." "Jake?" I
ask. "Brooke Lynn." "Let's see, eight people Like Crystal Lynn
better." I hear my lab-top go off. I go look one new Chat room
Sexy Brad: You know what you're having yet?
Nick Dude: yeah, do you?
Princess Nikki: tell us.
Lyndseyboo: next month.
Sexy Brad: Any names?
Lyndseyboo: if it's a girl do you like Crystal Lynn better or
Sexy Brad: We like Crystal Lynn
Nick Dude: Baby grace said C.L She's learning to talk, and that's
too much. Alexa and I love Crystal Lynn, but are you going to
spell it like that or with a K?
Princess Nikki: Adam and I like Brooke Lynn, but not that he said
it with a K, I like Krystal Lynn better.
Lyndseyboo: I do too. Since my name is spelled differently as
well. For a boy: Edward Jay or Christian Jay?
Sexy Brad: Edward
Nick dude: Edward (Eddie)
Princess Nikki: Edward
Lyndseyboo: thanks, we send our love! And they're hungry, so I
g2g, love y'all.
Lyndseyboo has signed off
"Edward Jay." Everyone but Erica said, "Y'all read my IM?" "Yup."
I smile and go over and kiss Blake, "You do know I want a girl
right?" He nod, "And I want another boy." "What if it's twins
again?" Amber asked. "We haven't thought about that." I add
quickly. "Then you would have seven kids, mommy!" Ericka added. I
Finally today is the day, I go find out the sex of my
last baby. The doctor does my weight "Mrs. Wakefield, you're 120
pounds now. With twins you were 140ish." I smile. "I couldn't
stay that weight when I was pregnant, and I sure didn't become a
size zero again." "It took a lot of work, but I did it." "The
baby is healthy." "Good, am I having a boy or girl?" "Tell Blake,
I'm sorry…" "Why?" I asked eagerly "It's a girl!" "Yes!" "That
will be four girls that I had and one boy. But five girls and one
boy for the kids." "Any name yet?" "Crystal Lynn or Brooke Lynn?"
I ask. "Crystal Lynn." I hugged her and waddled off. I pull out
my cell phone and text everyone! It's a girl! I hit send.
My phone vibrates: One new message from daddy, read now? I
hit yes Congratz, What is her name? Reply? I clicked
reply: Either Crystal Lynn or Brooke Lynn, which one do you
like best? I hit send. One new message from Momma, read
now? I hit yes. Yay! What is her name?" Reply? I hit
yes: Either Crystal Lynn or Brooke Lynn, which one do you like
better? I hit send. I drive home, Erica hugs me "yes!" we say
and smile. One new message from daddy, read now? I hit
yes: Crystal Lynn, but spelled like Krystal Lynn. One new
message from momma, read now? I hit yes. Krystal Lynn.
Izzy, Bruce, and Brittany said the same thing. I rub my belly
and say "Well, missy you finally got a name Miss Krystal Lynn
Wakefield." Blake comes in, and kisses me. "Krystal Lynn, will
look just like her momma."
At nine month pregnant I still walk my walks with my
good old Saint Bernard Sasha, Amber joins us this time "How old
is Sasha?" "She was six weeks old for my sweet sixteen. So ten
years." "How long do they live for?" "Ten years and up." "But,
she's in good health." We walk. "Momma, I'm not your birth
daughter am I?" she asks. "Why do you say that?" "All the kids
look like you and daddy, and I only look like him." We sit down
on the bench "We we're going to tell you when you were older, but
no you're not." "Who am I, then?" "A woman, name Abby. You're
dad's ex, before I came in the picture. She got him drunk and
then that night you were created." "So I wasn't plan?" "Nobody
was, only Krystal." "What is her name?" "Abby." "Do you have a
picture?" I pull out my wallet and show her a picture of Abby,
Erica, and I at the beach of our junior year. "I look just like
her." "Yes, but I'm still you're momma." "I know, you always will
be, she will just be a woman in my life, if I want her in it." I
hug her tight. "Why didn't she marry daddy though?" "He fell in
love with me, he didn't really love her, and he got custody of
you, since she dropped you off at his house." ""Wow, Momma. I
never want to meet her; you're the only momma I ever need." I
smile, then my face goes white pale like a ghost. Uh, I just had
my first contraction. "Amber, we need to get home." Of course
since I'm going into labor the slow power walk is even slower. We
made it home and I'm really close to having my water break,
"Blake! It's time now!" He grabs my hand lifts me up and we rush
to the car the kids' runs over to Erica's. After seventeen hours
of labors, a lot of screaming. I hear my sweet baby cry. I get to
hold her in the pink blanket. She has her daddy's dark brown
curly hair and his baby blue eyes. Just like Amber. "Krystal Lynn
Wakefield. I'm your mommy and this man right here is your daddy."
He kisses me then takes her from me. "You're siblings are on the
way." My kids comes in. "Momma, she looks just like I did." Amber
said shocked. "Mommy, she is so pretty." The rest said. "Lynds,
she is so little and yet so pretty." Erica said. Momma came in
her face was horrified and happy. "What is it momma?" I ask
dreading the answer. "You're grandma and grandpa on my side of
the family died. Right when we got the news my grandbaby was
born." A tear slips my eye, "Krystal looks just like Amber!" She
takes her from me and twirls her curls. Daddy comes in with Bruce
and his eyes sparkled when he saw her. Izzy climbed up in the bed
with me, I kissed her cheek. "What do you go by in school?"
"Izzy. But momma, daddy and they all still stay Bella or Bells."
"Because I came up with the nick name Izzy. The second I saw you
that is." The whole gang piled in now. Nikki is holding her as
mom and them goes to the hotel. "She looks just like Amber, she
is so beautiful. I hope my baby one day will look like this."
"You're pregnant?" I ask. She just smiles at me. "Nikki!" I
The day I bring Krystal home is to take her to a
funeral. Everyone is in Black, but afterwards in my house Brad
said "We can't live in New Jersey anymore." "Why?" we ask, I'm
holding my newest bundle of joy. "I can't miss her grow up
anymore. We're moving in across the street." "I don't like New
York as much as I thought I would, so we're moving on the other
side of you." Nikki said. "We're living next to Brad." Nick said.
We look at momma and them. "Fine, we hate Florida. Izzy sure
does." "We're moving at the end of the street." I hand Blake
Krystal and hugs my momma.
The years fly by so quick, before I know it, its
Krystal's wedding day. The whole family is here. With all of
their families. Amber has three kids, two girls who are six
Lizzie and Izzy, a little boy who is two Christian. She married
her high school sweet heart Kevin. Ericka has two twins girls
name Lyndsey and Brooke who are two. She married Bradley who
lived two towns over. Austin is single, but with a son who's one
Blake. Dream is married, and has a nine month old name Angela and
a husband who is Jacob. Emmy is married with two, two weeks old:
Zoey and Maddie.
"Momma, do I look pretty?" Krystal asked in her long beautiful
white dress, which sparkles. Her long curly brown hair was
straight. "Yes, baby girl." I can't believe my baby girl is
getting married. Nicole came in with her three kids Abby who is
14, Kimberly who is 8, Katie who is 4. Izzy comes in with her two
kids Casey who is 6 and Ashley who is 3. We give my last daughter
away today, and now it's time for me and Blake to finally relax.
Or will we? "Mommy, Matt is leaving me and the girls." Emmy said.
Here we go again, Emmy leans to my shoulder and starts crying.
Ah, I'm never going to miss this. Those were the years!