I have two weeks left here in Calfornia and I can't believe
how quickly the summer flew by. I changed into my favorite denim
shorts and my Hollister baby tee. I pulled my hair up into a
sockbun and I applied very little make up. I put my flip-flops on
and I smiled at Ashton who was outside with Hoss "My mother
stayed over." Ashton said "how are things going?" I asked "Fine."
He said "Do you want to escape today?" I asked "Please save me
baby." Ashton said and I smiled at him "Where are you going
today?" Ashton asked me "I need to go to the mall, I want to get
Grandma Mary something nice." I said and Ashton nodded "I will
go." Ashton said "go get permission, I need to go now." I said
and Ashton ran inside and then a few moments later he met me back
at the door "I will drive." Ashton said "good because I need to
borrow your car." I said and he smiled at me.
When we got to the mall parking lot I leaned over and I
kissed Ashton's lips softly "I didn't feel safe kissing you at
home with your mother there." I said and he smiled at me "I'm not
so sure why she's here, but I know she's up to something." Ashton
said "I'm here for you babe." I said and Ashton smiled at me
"Good, hopefully things will stay good." Ashton said "Yeah, let's
go in babe." I said and I held Ashton's hand as we walked to the
jewerly store and I found the perfect one: Grandma in diamonds
and it was a golden heart shape locket, I could do a picture of
Liam and I. "She will love it." Ashton said and I smiled at him,
after I got the necklace I put it in my pocketbook and then we
walked around the mall "I'm going to give it to her the night
before I leave." I said "Oh yeah." Ashton said "I don't want to
leave you or Grandma." I said and Ashton held me close to him.
"I'm always in your heart." Ashton said and I smiled at him.
When we got home I kissed Ashton good-bye he had to spend
time with his mother and I was going to spend time with Grandma
"hello Grandma." I said and she smiled at me "I love you Caylee."
She said patting the spot on the couch for me to sit next to her
"I love you too." I said "This summer has been the best summer in
eight years." Grandma said "I agree. I love every minute with
you." I said "I'm going to miss you and Liam. I got to see a side
of you, your mother never gets to see. The side of you, your
father always talked about. He was proud of his strong and
beautiful baby girl. He would alway say "Mom, I need to start
saving up my little girl is going to Juillard." Well I know you
have until February but you are an amazing dancer. You will
amount to everything. I'm so proud of you." Grandma said "Thank
you. Will you be at my Graduation in June? I know it's a long way
to travel. " I said and I saw something in Grandma that I can't
explain but "Yes baby I won't miss it for anything in the world."
She said and I hugged her.
I changed into my pajamas and I put my glasses on. I curled
up on the couch with Grandma and Sassy and we watched romance
movies all night, Grandma couldn't fall asleep and I wanted to
spend time with her. Around four am Grandma smiled at me and
yawned "It's time to go to bed my dear." She said "Okay Grandma.
I love you." I said and she smiled at me "Good-night, I love
you." She said and I scooped up Sassy who started purring and I
carried her up to our room, I got a text from Lauren, Lauren: Are
you awake Cay? It was one am over there, Me: Yes Lauren, what's
wrong? Lauren:I'm freaking out over this. My parents are cool
about it, freaked but cool. I'm freaking out. Me: Laur, you are
going to be a good mom. Don't freak out, you have 35 weeks to
prepare. Lauren: Thanks Cay, sleep tight. I smiled at my phone
and Sassy curled up next to my head and purred until she fell
asleep, I know Lauren is going to feel better when I'm back in
California with her. I feel like such a horrible friend because
I'm not there with her.
It's the 22nd today, another day closer to good-byes and I
have a stomach bug so I can't be near Caylee or Mary. Caylee and
I are communicating by texting, I'm sure it will be gone and
passed on by tomorrow. But today I have to deal with my mother
being with me. "Are you seeing anyone?" I asked "I'm dating a guy
who's a dentist." She said and I smiled at her "Does he have any
kids?" I asked "He has two kids. Oh and we have a child
together." She said "What?" I asked "The baby is a girl, she's
two months old." My mom said "He's here with the baby. Maybe if
you feel better tonight you and Caylee can meet her." My mom said
"How old are his kids?" I asked "Jon is sixteen, and Clarissa is
fourteen, your little sister's name is Emma." My mom said and I
smiled at her, I bet she's beautiful.
It's that night and I am feeling better so Caylee and I are
out at dinner with my mom, her boyfriend Kyle, and my half-sister
Emma. "She's beautiful." I said and my mom smiled at me "She is
very beautiful." Caylee said "Do you have any siblings Caylee?"
My mom asked "Five brothers." Caylee said and she looked at her
"Where do you want to go to school at?" Kyle asked "Juillard."
Caylee said and they both smiled "Just like your mother." My mom
said and Caylee smiled "Can I hold Emma?" She asked "Yes." She
said, my mom has been out for 14 months, met Kyle a year old,
found out she was pregnant, then 2 months ago had Emma. Emma has
baby blue eyes and brown hair. "You're good with kids." My mom
said and I smiled at her "I want to hold my little sister." I
said and she smiled at me and handed Emma over "How would you
like to move in with us?" My mom asked me and Caylee looked
uncomfortable "I have to think about that." I said and she hugged
me when we got home.
I went inside after kissing Caylee good-night "My mom wants
me to move in with them." I told Aunt Claire and Uncle Carl "And
your dad wants you to move in with him." Aunt Claire said "Only
you can decide Ashton." Uncle Carl said "Don't base Jace's place
just for Caylee, and don't base your mom's place because she
asked you." Aunt Claire said "West Palm has always been my home."
I said and she smiled at me "I'm staying here, finishing out my
senior year in the high school I started at." I said and Aunt
Claire smiledat me "Your mom is two hours away, you can still
visit them." She said "Yeah, and I can visit dad on vacations." I
said and she smiled at me. "You're a smart kid." Aunt Claire
said "Thank you." I said and I went back outside.
Caylee came out, she was wearing her glasses, her long
pajama pants and a tank top "Hey babe." Caylee said "I decided
not to move in with either parent." I said "I figured so. Senior
year and all." Caylee said "You're not upset?" I asked Caylee
"Nope, Ash. We're going to handle this." Caylee said and I smiled
at her. I kissed her lips softly, I was going to tell her that I
loved her, when we throw them a going away party, Mary will tell
them her secret that night after the party and I know Caylee is
going to need me. I kissed Caylee again on the lips "I need to
head on in." I said "Me too. I will see you tomorrow." Caylee
said and I smiled at her "Okay beautiful." I said and Caylee
smiled at me "Good-night babe." Caylee said kissing my lips again
and I watched her walk away inside her house.