I had a rough night, I woke up my hair was all over the
place. I had many nightmares, about me being pregnant, about
Lauren dying giving birth, about the plane crashing, about
Grandma being sick and dying, about Ashton and I breaking up,
about random things. I walked downstairs and Liam laughed "You
look like something bad happened." Liam said "Oh shut up." I said
and Grandma snickered "Bad night?" She asked me "Hit me up with
OJ." I said and I sat down in the chair and Sassy went to her
food bowl. "How did you sleep?" Grandma asked me "Not so good." I
said "We can tell." Liam said and I shot him a dirty look."Calm
down Cay." Liam said "I'm calm." I said and I just ignored my
brother and went into my room. I took a shower and then I put my
contacts in and wore my yellow sundress and my cowboy boots and I
curled my hair. I had to look good even if I didn't plan on going
anywhere today. I got a text from Ashton: Do you want to hang out
today? Me: If you want to. I heard a knock on the door and that
was my answer.
"Where's Liam?" I asked when I came down I knew I needed to
tell him I was sorry about earlier. "He's already out with
Savannah but he knows you're sorry." Grandma said and I smiled
Ashton was at the table "What are you doing today?" I asked
"Well, I'm going into the dance studio a little bit and then I'm
going out with him." Grandma said and I smiled "Have a good
day." I said "you too." She said and she kissed my forehead
good-bye and Ashton smiled at me when. "What are we doing
today?" I asked and I walked over to Ashton and I sat on his lap
and kissed his lips softly "let's walk around downtown." Ashton
said "With or without Hoss?" I asked "With." Ashton said "Okay."
I said and we kissed each other one more time before he went and
I held Ashton's hand and he had his other hand on Hoss's
leash. "This is nice." I said taking in the scenery and Ashton
smiled "This is nice." He said agreeing with me and I smiled at
him. After we walked around a bit we went to an outside Cafe so
Hoss could stay with us. "Hello, I'm Alexa I'm going to be your
server. Oh hey Ash and Cay!" Alexa said and I smiled at her "What
can I get you to drink?" Alexa asked "Dr.Pepper." We both said
and she smiled "What do you want?" I asked after Alexa left "A
philly cheese steak sandwhich you?" Ashton asked me and I smiled
at him "A BLT." I said and Ashton smiled at me "Their BLTs are
usually the best in town." Ashton said and when Alexa took our
order Ashton also included a plain hamburger too.
When we got our food Ashton gave the plain burger to Hoss who
took his time on the burger savoring it and then licking his lips
and looking up at us. "How's your sandwich?" I asked"Good,
yours?" He asked "Good." I said and after we ate it we paid the
bill and left a tip and then we went to the beach and went to our
secret area on the beach. He let Hoss off the leash and Hoss ran
into the water and tried attacking the waves. I was in Ashton's
arms and I kissed his lips softly "I'm really glad I have you.
You have made me the luckiest guy in the world." Ashton said and
I kissed his lips softly "You have made me the luckiest girl in
the world. I mean before you I wasn't going to date any guys
until after college." I said and Ashton kissed my lips. I'm going
to miss his kisses, our time together. I'm going to miss it all
actually. Today is the 24th and we leave in ten days. I'm not
looking forward to leaving everybody.
We're at the beach and I can tell Caylee's mind is on her
leaving, she went from that bubbly-self to the sad and gloomy
Caylee. "Don't think about it baby." I said snuzzling her neck
making her giggle "I won't. I promise." Caylee said and I kissed
her neck, her cheek, her lips softly. She gently opened up to me,
letting her guard down and giving into my kisses. Caylee gave in
and began kissing my lips and allowing her body to relax, letting
us make out for a bit until Hoss ran to us and shook off. "Hoss!"
I yelled and Caylee giggled she had pulled away from me smiling
at Hoss. "Let's take Hoss home." I said "Alright." Caylee said
holding my hand and kissing my cheek leading me to the house and
I smiled at her, she really looked beautiful today.
We ended up going back to the beach but to the bonfire
everybody was at "look it's Allie and them!" Caylee said "Go on."
I said knowing she wanted to go hang out with the girls so Caylee
kissed my lips good-bye and walked over to the girls. "Hey
Ashton." Zach said "hey Zach." I said and we did a high five "You
haven't been around much this summer." He said "I know man. I've
been busy." I said and Zach nodded "With Caylee." He said and I
nodded "She leaves soon." I said "Yeah then we get our friend
back." Zach said "Actually I'm going to visit my dad for the rest
of summer." I said and Zach looked at me "Great man. We don't get
no time with our man A." Zach said "I know dude. I know." I said
and Zach looked at Caylee "Is she worth blowing off your
friends?" Zach asked "Dude." I said "No really." Zach said "She's
perfect. I love her." I said and yes I admitted I love her.
"Dude, she's turning you into a love-lush." Zach said "She isn't.
This is on me." I said "Let's just hope the normal Ashton
returns when school starts." Zach said.
I ended up leaving Zach and going over to the other group of
friends I had "Hey Jake." I said "Ashton! My man!" Jake said and
I smiled "How's your summer?" Jake asked "Perfect." I said "I
know. You have been with Caylee." Jake said "Caylee is a good
girl." I said "I know. I'm not hating on her." Jake said "Yeah
you are. Caylee is my girlfriend." I said "Yeah and we have been
your friends before she was your girlfriend." Jake said "I don't
care how many of you will hate on Caylee, she's perfect." I said
a little bit too loud because Caylee heard that and took off.
"Caylee!" I said jogging after her, "What I'm not good enough in
your friend's eyes?" Caylee asked "They just aren't used to
sharing me over the summer." I said "I'm sorry. At least I'm gone
and I won't take up most of your time. I'm sorry for some reason
I changed you?" Caylee said and she started to storm off again.
"Why should we even stay together Ashton? I'm leaving in
ten days." Caylee said "Why shouldn't we? We are perfect." I said
"Yeah, really? Why?" Caylee asked I could tell she was hurt and
angry at the same time. "Your letting your emotions get to you
Caylee." I said "No I'm not. It's true! It's in my mind all day!
What's going to happen to us when I leave?" Caylee asked "We will
make it work. I promise you." I said "Ashton don't make promises
you can't keep." Caylee said "I mean it." I said "Oh yeah?"
Caylee asked "Yeah." I said and I looked her in her eyes trying
to make her feel better and I leaned in for a kiss "No Ash! A
kiss won't solve this problem. It won't ease away my worries, my
thoughts." Caylee said and I looked at her "I know Caylee. But it
will make you feel better." I said "Honestly Ashton why should
we work this out? And try to make it long distance until the
summer or fall?" Caylee asked and I was getting hurt but I had
one last response that would hopefully work and make things
better. "Because I love you that's why!" I said "You love me?"
Caylee asked shocked "Yes I do. I love you." I said "I love you
too." Caylee said and then she kissed my lips softly.