I'm sitting on Lauren's couch and I get a text from Ashton
saying Chelsea kissed him. I am not going to be putting up with
this much longer. But at least he was honest with me and didn't
wait too long to tell me about what happened. "Chelsea kissed
Ashton." I said and Lauren looked at me she had her hand on her
stomach "I'm starting not to like that boy." Lauren said "Well I
do love him." I said and Lauren smiled at me "Are you okay Cay?"
Lauren asked me "I can be." I said and Lauren smiled at me "do
you want to call him?" Lauren asked me "Nah I will wait until
tonight to call him." I said and Lauren smiled at me. I was
enjoying my time with Lauren again.
"Are you sure you don't love her?" I asked "Yes I'm sure. It
was out of kidness. She knows I'm with you." Ashton said and I
smiled at myself "it's okay." I said and Ashton laughed "Don't
worry. I don't want to become a dad anytime soon." Ashton said
and that made me feel better. But I promise myself this that if
he cheats on me ever again then I'm done with him. End of
discussion, I'm sure I could find a better guy who won't cheat
on me just because he feels like it or claim it was by accident.
How do you accidentaly kiss someone? I don't believe it.
It's February 10th now and tomorrow is my audition in San
Francisco at the theater, my audition is at 2pm, Lauren is coming
with me tomorrow. Anderson is working and she is coming to give
me support. After dance class today I'm working on nothing but
my dance for tomorrow. The second semester of school has already
started and it's going good. I got all 100's in my four classes,
I no longer have my Hannah to take care of which I'm kind of
relieved about. This semster it's Chemistry, Civics, dance and
then Latin 2. Lauren is now going on 35 weeks as of the 13th she
will be. Lauren is spending the night here today, Anderson is
letting her spend the night. I can't believe in five weeks Hope
will be born. Ashton and I are still together, Chelsea is moved
in now with them and Kyle is a month old, he's a cute little
baby. "How do you feel about it?" My mom asked me "I feel good
mom, I know I will do good." I said I was lying to her I was a
Lauren and I are down in the dance studio and I'm working on
my dance "I will be glad when I can dance again." Lauren said
"Hope will be here soon." I said I was working on my turn now, we
are missing school tomorrow but since it's for an audition for a
college it's excused. "Work on your toes! Keep them straight!"
Lauren said and I did so and she smiled at me "You are excellent!
You can do it!" Lauren said and I smiled at her "We need to try
to get some sleep." I said "Sleep is hard for me." Lauren said
and I smiled at her "I could imagine." I said and Lauren smiled
at me. "Let's go back to the room." Lauren said since we have to
leave early tomorrow morning. Lauren and I changed into our night
clothes and since it's just one night we are sharing the bed, Sam
is on her bed for the night and I know she doesn't care for that.
Of course I'm not able to get any sleep, I keep tossing
and turning. I finally turn on my side facing Lauren who is up as
well "it's five thirty. We might as well go ahead and leave."
Lauren said "I'm sorry if I woke you up." I said "You didn't.
Miss Hope here was kicking up a storm." Lauren said "how does it
feel?" I asked "Well now that I'm huge, I can't even see my feet
it's not as easy but it's been a fairly easy pregnancy, my
cravings are weird. But Anderson has been so good about this.
He's been helping me." Lauren said and I smiled at her. It take
basically two hour to get there. I got my dance bag ready and I
put on my ripped jeans and my dance shirt on with my now natural
brown hair color in a bun already since it would need to be in a
bun. I left a note for my mom letting her know what was
Lauren and I explore the town some and we eat lunch near
the water front, we went shopping and then we're at the theater.
Lauren is sitting down in the seats with the rest of the
followers and judges, I'm already wearing my dance clothes and
I'm slowly working on my dance moves to prepare. I go up to the
people "Name?" The woman asked me "Caylee Blevins." I said and I
was handed my number which was 101. I gave her my CD of the dance
and she smiled at me "Break a leg." she said "Thank you." I said
and I go wait in line, I'm a nervous wreck. I look out and I see
Lauren out there and she waves at me smiling "Good luck!!" She
said and I giggled there were a lot of people out there for
support for everyone. So not only am I impressing the judges I'm
impressing them as well.
"Can we please have number 101 come to stage?" The Judge on
the left said the only guy. I slowly walked up to the stage
"Name? Song?" He asked me "Caylee Blevins, Give Me Love." I
said and they nodded for me to go ahead. The music slowly began
going and I was getting nervous but I took a deep breath and I
began. I did my back layout for the song, back tuck, back
walkover, cartwheel, chest stand, elbow stand, front aerial, hand
spring, hand stand, hand walking, kip up, round off, side ariel,
vadlez. I did my jump and spin, my leaping my triple spin. I did
a back bend and turned that into a flip like I rehearsed. I did
one las fron aerial before I ended the dance. I looked at the
judges to read their expressions and I think they looked pleased
I know all the people in the audience were clapping so they were
After that Lauren went up to me and she hugged me "Now the
worse part. Waiting." I said "You did amazing!" Lauren said and I
smiled at her "I really tried!" I said "It showed too Caylee!"
Lauren said and I smiled at her I got an incoming call from
Ashton "I did it! I just got done! I feel like I did it great!" I
said "That's great baby! Lauren video taped it and sent it! You
were amazing!" Ashton said "Good! I love you!" I said "I love you
too baby. Now go have fun. Enjoy the rest of your time there."
Ashton said "I love you." I said "I love you too." Ashton said
and we hang up "Let's go home. I'm hungry." I said and Lauren
smiled at me "Denny's first?" She asked me "Yes!" I said and we
found the first Denny's they had."I can't believe you will be a
mommy soon!" I said "And you will be a dancing student at
Juillard's!" Lauren said!