I got up at five thirty and I go downstairs after I changed
into my clothes for my school and I got my backpack ready for the
day at school. I'm already planning my Spring Break which is the
last week of March same as Caylee's where we will be in New York
touring the campuses if Caylee gets into Juillard which she
should know by then. They told them it would be within 3-5 weeks
when they would all find out by a letter. I look and I see
Chelsea up with Kyle "Good morning Chels." I said "Morning Ash!
Have you heard anything from Caylee yet?" Chelsea asked me "not
yet, she's anxious." I said and Chelsea smiled at me "I would be
too." Chelsea said and I smiled at her it was now February 20th
and Kyle is now seven weeks old and Chelsea is back in school now
since Kyle is old enough for the day care. "Do you need me to
hold him while you get ready?" I asked "Please?" Chelsea asked
"sure." I said and she handed me Chelsea. Since he was born we
have remained friends, no mention of the kiss, no more incidents.
I'm her friend and she's mine. She's focusing on school and Kyle
and I'm focusing on school and Caylee.
Chelsea came down with Kyle's diaper bag and her backpack "I
will see you at school!" Chelsea said and I smiled putting Kyle
in his car seat for her "Thanks!" Chelsea said and she walked to
the car, her dad did at least let her keep her beat up old car.
Which Uncle Carl has fixed up to be as good as new. I think Uncle
Carl enjoys having two girls in the house instead of just
Savannah, because she's seventeen now and focusing on just her
friends and she doesn't need her daddy as much as she used to
anymore. Emma is now ten months old and she is beautiful and my
baby sister. "Vannah come on!" I said and Savannah came down
"Alright I'm coming. I'm up." She said I had to remind her
because Aunt Alice is already at work and Uncle Carl isn't going
to be up for awhile.
After school Chelsea parked her car and then she got in
mine, we were going to my mom's she has been wanting to meet
Chelsea and Kyle for seven weeks now. "Will your mom likes me?"
Chelsea asked me "She will love you." I said and we pulled up to
my mom's house. Kyle and Jon were outside throwing the football.
Yes I know funny thing, Big Kyle and then little Kyle. Chelsea
got out and I got Kyle's diaper bag and then she got Kyle's car
seat. My mom and Clarissa were on the swing on the front porch
with Emma crawling around, they had a gate up. "Hey mom." I said
"Hi Ash! And you must be Chelsea!" My mom said "I'm Anna!" My mom
said and I got over the gate and I took Kyle's car seat from her
and I helped her over the gate. "Kyle is so handsome! He's such a
cute baby!" My mom said "thank you ma'am! Emma is beautiful too."
Chelsea said smiling "Can I hold him?" My mom asked "Yes."
We stayed until seven thirty and then we went back home.
"Your mom and step-dad loves me." Chelsea said "Emma was very
fond of you too." I said and Chelsea smiled at me "Emma is your
gergous little sister." Chelsea said and I smiled at her. When we
got home we went our seperate way and I called Caylee "Hey baby!"
Caylee said "have you heard anything?" I asked "Nope. How did
it go?" Caylee asked "It went good." I said "Does your mom like
her?" Caylee asked "Yes but she loves you." I said and I heard
Caylee laugh "see. We will see each other soon." I said "I know.
Lauren is 36 weeks today.Hope could come any day now." Caylee
said "I bet you are excited!" I said "Yeah. I just wish you were
here baby." Caylee siad and I smiled "I wish I was there too
baby. I miss you." I said "I love you." Caylee said "I love you
too." I said
Ashton is such a great friend and such a great help with
Kyle. It's been tough on me, you know? Moving out of my dad's
place, being pregnant, now I have a son, and I'm living with
strangers who have been nothing but kind. I don't want to admit
it to Ashton because he is in a relationship with Caylee and he
seems very happy with her. But I'm starting to form feelings for
Ashton and I don't know what to do. I know not to tell him
because I don't want to ruin things between us and I don't want
to ruin things for him and Caylee. I have befriended his friend
Mackenzie and she has already told me all about how jealous
Caylee can get and I don't want to be the cause of their breakup
if they ever break up. But if they break up then it's on like
gravy on taters.
I get brought out of my trance by Kyle cries "It's okay baby.
Mommy is here." I said picking him up from his bassinet and
holding him. Ashton sticks his head in and I try not to blush
"Hey Chels, is everything okay?" Ashton asks me as he walks in
"yeah Kyle just needs a diaper change." I said "I can do that."
Ashton said "No need to. I have it." I said smiling at him and he
sits down on my bed and watches me change Kyle's diaper and then
I'm bouncing him trying to get him back to sleep. I have a
research paper I need to do and I can't do it with Kyle awake.
"How is your English paper coming along?" Ashton asks "Not so
good now. Not with Kyle up." I admitted "Hand me Kyle. I'm
already done so I can bond with him until he's hungry and you can
work on your paper." Ashton said what a great guy! "Thanks." I
said handing Kyle over.
I know it's only been two days since I auditioned but I am so
nervous about the results of what will happen! I'm with Lauren
and we are at my house in my room listening to music. "How does
it feel to be thirty-five weeks?" I asked her we were munching on
fruit from the fruit bowl I made last night. "I want Hope out. I
can't sleep at night, I'm very uncomfortable, I can tell Hope is
uncomfortable as well. I'm very anxious to hold my daughter."
Lauren said and I smiled at her "Have you heard from Nate any?" I
asked him "No I haven't heard from him. I figured I would have,
but I don't care. Anderson will be put down on the paper work as
her father." Lauren said and I smiled at her. "I can't wait to
spoil Miss Hope." I said "You will be her godmother." Lauren said
and I smiled at her "I hope so." I said and Lauren smiled at me.
"Ready to work on Latin now?" I asked and Lauren rolled her
eyes "Who is ever ready for Latin?" Lauren asks and I giggled at
her "come on." I said pulling out my textbook and handing Lauren
hers. After studying for a few minutes Lauren looks up at me
"What is your opinion on Chelsea? Do you trust her?" Lauren asked
me and I looked at her "I trust Chelsea, I trust Ashton." I said
and Chelsea looked at me "She seems like a nice girl. And beside
she has a baby so I don't see why Ashton would have a fling for
her." I said and Lauren looked at me I knew she didn't believe
me. "Oh come on Cay." Lauren said "Alright I'm not that trust
worthy but I don't want to lose things with Ashton." I said "Tell
him how you feel Cay, you can't keep your feelings and thoughts
to yourself." Lauren said and I smiled at her "geeze thanks." I
said and Lauren laughed at me. "Are you staying dor dinner?" I
asked "Nope, Anderson is cooking a nice dinner." Lauren said
"Alright, I will see you tomorrow at school." I said and Lauren
smiled at me. "I love you." Lauren said "I love you too." I said
and she smiled at me.
After dinner Ashton and I were on Skype "I'm really
worried." I said "About your results?" Ashton asked me "No. I
feel bad for saying this. But I'm worried about us. It's uneasy
to me having Chelsea at your house. But I know there's nothing I
can do." I said "Honey, baby. Don't worry. You are the love of my
life. Chelsea is more like a sister to me. It will all feel
better when we see each other in March." Ashton said and I looked
at him "I want to be with you now." I admitted "Don't worry. You
might miss your accepted letter." Ashton said and I rolled my
eyes at him "You are right." I said and Ashton laughed "When
aren't I?" Ashton asked me "Not always." I said and Ashton
laughed at me "baby you're mean to me." Ashton said "I'm not that
mean." I said and Ashton laughed at me "Don't worry." Ashton said
and I smiled at him.