After a wonderful time in New York, Ashton and I are saying
our good-byes and I am trying not to cry. It's the following
Sunday and class begins on Monday. "I will miss you so much." I
told Ashton "I will miss you too. Promise me you will let me
know?" Ashton asked me "Yes." I said and I kissed his lips our
plane leaves around the same time. "I love you." I said "I love
you too." Ashton said and I went to go sit down at my gate while
Ashton goes to his gate. I sat down at one seat and I pull my
Ipod out I need to block out noise. I'm having a pregnancy scare,
I could be pregnant so I could be giving up dancing. A woman
walks up to me "Hi, is this seat taken?" she asked me "No, by all
means." I said and she sat down "Thank you." She said and I
nodded. I am swearing off sex for a long, very long time. This
did this for me, I love Lauren, I love my Hope but I can't afford
to be pregnant.
Our flight was finally boarding so I went to the plane and I
found my seat and of course I would be next to a pregnant woman
and her husband, and on her husband lap is a little boy.
"Congratulations." I said "Thank you." The woman said, I could
tell she was beaming. "Daddy, I want sissy out now!" The little
boy and I smiled at him, I look out the window while the plane
was taking off and when I could finally play the music so I did
just that during the flight. During the layover I looked at my
texts, my mom and the boys are at an amusement park so it's just
going to be when I get home.
When I landed in California I went to the luggage claim and
I got my bag and then I walked to my car. Once I got in and I was
driving out of the parking lot I called Lauren "Hey Lauren, can I
come over?" I asked "Sure. Anderson is working, so it's just Miss
Hope and I." Lauren said and we hung up. I drive to Lauren's and
then I go right in not knocking because I don't want to wake Hope
up. Alright I texted her to let her know I was coming up. Lauren
was on the couch with Hope in her arms. Just looking at that I
eneded up bawling. "Cay-bear what's wrong?' Lauren asked she
gently put Hope in the bassinet by the couch and she hugged me.
"We had sex, a lot. The condom broke. I haven't taken my birth
control like I should have before I left. And then the condom
broke. So it's possible I'm pregnant." I said "Oh Caylee. It's
not the end of the world." Lauren said and I sniffled "I'm not
ready." I said "And I was? You would be nineteen, out of high
school." Lauren said and then I guess it dawned on her. "It's
been a week you have about two more and then you can take a
pregnancy test." Lauren said.
After Caylee and I say our good-byes I watch as Caylee go to
her gate and then I walk to my gate. I sit down and I let the
possibility of being a father sink in. I'm not ready to be a
father and I know Caylee isn't ready to be a mother either. Caleb
and Connor are at the gate "Hey guys." I said "How did it go?"
Caleb asked me "My girlfriend might be pregnant." I said "Not
cool." Caleb said and I nodded Connor smiled at me though, he
was a cute little guy. We talked about the pros and cons of this
on both of the flights. "I get to go home and meet my two new
little cousins." I said "Good luck man. We need to hang out
often." Caleb said and I nodded. I want to hook him up with
Chelsea I think they would do good well.
I go to my car and then I drive home, I see Chelsea's car
there and then Aunt Alice's van there, Savannah's car is back. I
take my bags and then I walk up the steps and I hear Hoss barking
so I know he is home. I go inside and I'm greeted by Hoss who's
wagging his tail and licking me. "I missed you too buddy." I said
and then I'm greeted by Savannah who gave me a big bear hug.
"They are in the living room." Savannah said and I smiled at her
"I'm ready to meet my cousins. How do you feel about being a big
sister?" I asked Savannah "It feels good." Savannah said and I
smiled at her. I walk into the living room and I see two little
girls, they are gorgeous with their baby blue eyes and blonde
hair in matching pig tails. Aunt Alice was beaming "Lindsay and
Abrianna this is your cousin Ashton." She said "Hi Lindsay and
Abrianna." I said and they smiled at me. Chelsea was on the love
seat with Kyle "We're going out tonight. There's a guy I want you
to meet." I said and she smiled at me.
After we had family lunch together, the girls were napping
in the room and Chelsea was putting Kyle down for his nap as well
so I'm in her room. Chelsea sits up on the bed with me, she's
wearing shorts and a tanktop since it's hot out. "How was your
trip?" Chelsea asked me "Okay. Not like I planned." I said "Why?"
Chelsea asked me "Caylee might be pregnant." I said "Ashton!"
Chelsea said "I know. It was a careless mistake." I said "You
think?!" Chelsea asked me and I smiled at her. "Who am I
meeting?" Chelsea asked me "This guy name Caleb, he's a father."
I said "Ah, is he cute?" Chelsea asked me "I guess so. I'm not a
girl." I said and Chelsea smiled at me. "I'm taking Kyle though."
Chelsea said "I know. He's taking Connor." I said and Chelsea
smiled at me.
We go to meet Caleb and Connor around six and Connor loves
Chelsea "Hey Connor. I'm Chelsea." She said after she introduced
herself to Caleb. I excused myself so they could bond, but I was
keeping the guys until Kyle needs to be fed. "Do you like
Chelsea?" I asked Connor and he smiled at me. After awhile they
found us and they were holding hand "Thank you for keeping Connor
and Kyle." Chelsea and Caleb said "no problem." I said and I
heard that they were agreeing to see each other again. On the way
home Chelsea was going on about how much she likes Caleb already
and she can't wait to go out with him again and we promised to
watch Kyle when they do.
Two weeks later:
It's the 14th, Hope will be one month in two days. I have
been stressing over this pregnancy scare. I woke up around four
thirty in the morning and went to the bathroom. I found out some
good news, I'm not pregnant!!! I texted Ashton: Period
came!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went back to bed and then Sam and Sassy
curled up to me. I was relieved, I'm glad I'm not pregnant. I
want to be a mother some day, but not any time soon. I have
really learned my lesson and I won't do anything that stupid
again. I woke up at eight thirty and I had a text back from
Ashton: Good baby!!!!!! I love you!!! I texted Lauren: Not
pregnant!!! I can't believe Miss Hope will be one month old in
two days! Lauren will be back at school tomorrow. I mom will be
watching Hope while she is in school. Ashton has sent me pictures
of Lindsay and Abrianna and they are beautiful and really well
behaved kids. Maddie is seven months old, so she's crawling a
little bit so it's fun to baby-sit her.
Sophia and Jason arrived at nine thirty, I was wearing my
denim shorts and then my Juillard shirt I got with my hair in a
pony tail. "Do you mind baby-sitting Maddie?" Sophia asked "Not
at all. I'm heading over to Lauren's though. Anderson is working
all day." I said "Maddie can go if you don't mind?" Sophia asked
"Not at all." I said and Sophia smiled "Thanks." Sophia aid and I
smiled at her. I picked Maddie up and I spun around with her and
she giggled at me "Let's go to Lauren's." I said and I put her in
her car seat and then her diaper bag came with me. I got to
Lauren's in no time and I got Maddie's diaper bag and then I
placed Maddie on my hip and we walked up the apartment steps and
Lauren opened the door. Maddie was crawling around "Do you mind
baby-sitting Maddie?" Lauren asked me "Not at all. Do you mind
her crawling around?" I asked "No. Hope will be doing this one
day." Lauren said and I smiled at her "I can't believe that." I
said and Lauren smiled at me.
It's the 14th and I'm baby-sitting Lindsay and Abrianna and
Kyle right now. "What do you two wan to do?" I asked Lindsay and
Abrianna "Tea party!!" They said and I smiled at them. Savannah
came down "Hey you get to play tea party!!" I said and Savannah
looked at me "no way." Savannah said "Yes!" I said and she
smiled "You have to do it too." Savannah said and I smiled at
her. Chelsea wasn't feeling good so I'm having to take care of
Kyle. Aunt Alice and Uncle Carl are also busy at work today for
something important so I'm needed to baby-sit them. "Are you
jealous or something?" I asked Savannah "No I'm not." Savannah
said "You aren't daddy's little girl anymore!" I said and
Savannah rolled her eyes at me.