"Hi babe," Pamela said with a smile, but her face said, she's
afraid. "Did you have fun today?" Declan asked, playing his
cigarette. "What do you mean?" Pamela asked, she's very afraid.
Declan's tone wasn't too nice. "How was your date with the Japanese
Prime Minister going?" Declan asked again, looking at Pamela's eyes
so sharply. "What are you talking about? What date? I told you I
was going to interview the Japanese Prime Minister. Please don't
overcomplicate matters!" Pamela replied with a high tone.
"Bullshit! Overcomplicate matters you say? Are you saying I'm
making things a big deal?" Declan asked with a loud voice, "You
know what, if you keep lying, I may as well break your teeth, and
you know I am deadly serious!" Declan snapped. "I was working, for
God's sake, babe, stop it!" Pamela said. "Working? Pleasing the
Japanese Prime Minister as his prostitute you call it working, you
slut?" Declan replied, still with a high tone. "I'm tired, I need
to shower and then rest," Pamela said. "So now you're tired. You
weren't tired pleasing that old man, but now you're tired talking
to me?" Declan asked. "We ain't talking, we are arguing and I'm
tired. Please understand," Pamela said, heading to the bathroom.
But Declan rose from the sofa, grabbed Pamela's hair, and dragged
her to the sofa and push her body onto it. Pamela got so shocked.
"What are you doing?" Pamela asked in fear. "Bitch, shut up and
listen when I'm talking to you!" Declan roared, and continued,
"Where did you spend your day with that man? I heard you both were
in a hotel." "The interview did take place in a hotel where the
Prime Minister stayed," Pamela replied. "So you call your
passionate sex with him an 'interview'? Were you both role
playing?" Declan asked. "Wwwwhhhhhhaaaatttttt?!!!" Pamela asked out
of surprise. She couldn't believe Declan really thought she was
whoring around with the Prime Minister! "Please, just stop, you're
being deluded. I was just doing my job as a journalist!" Pamela
said, but Declan slapped her mouth. "Why'd you slap me?" Pamela
asked out of surprise. "I had to give your lying mouth a lesson,
that's why," Declan replied, so calmly. Pamela's cheek felt really
hot, it was a hard slap, she kept rubbing it. "Why you keep doing
this to me? I really was just doing my job, I didn't do what you
accuse me of, I swear," Pamela said, her voice sounded weak. "You
think I believe you?" Declan asked in cynical voice. "Why won't you
trust me? You know how much I love you," Pamela said, she reached
to Declan's waist trying to hold him, but he warded her off, "Don't
fucking touch me with your dirty hands, bitch!" Declan said. "Baby
please, I love you only and you know that," Pamela begged. Declan
then sat on a sofa opposite to Pamela, "Then give me your body,"
Declan said. Pamela got so surprised. "I thought we agreed there's
no premarital sex?" Pamela said. "We've been together for 3 years,
and until now you won't let me have sex with you, what is it? You
said you're a virgin still, if so, prove it! What do you got to
hide from me? If you're really a virgin and you truly love me, you
gotta let me know, 'cause I feel like raping you tonight," Declan
replied. "Baby, please, let me preserve my body 'til the night
we're married, I preserve it just for you, because I can see my
future with you, you said you will marry me, I want to honor you
with my body babe," Pamela said. "What's the difference now or
later it's going to be mine still, so do it now 'cause I feel like
doing it now. If you love me, you will do it for me without
thinking twice, without letting me repeat myself like this. That's
your punishment for being a whore the whole damn day with that old
man," Declan said. "Baby please, I was just doing my job. Let me
just preserve my body 'til the day we are married please?" Pamela
kept begging. "Are you so afraid that I'll find out you're not
virgin or something? What you gotta hide?" Declan sounded upset,
and he continued, "It's been 3 years!" "Babe, if you love me, you
will wait for me," Pamela said. "I've been waiting for 3 damn
years. How long more do you want me wait? If you love me, you will
do it for me, you are mine, your body is mine, I own you, you're my
property!" Declan snapped. "But babe…" Pamela sounded so helpless,
she was afraid. "But what? So I conclude it's either you don't love
me or you're not a virgin, simple as that. Ok, I'll go home now,
goodnight and goodbye," Declan said and rose up from the sofa.
"Wait," Pamela said, and continued, "Is sex really important to
you?" "Of course, it will let me know that you really love me,"
Declan replied. "But isn't everything that I've done for you enough
to prove that I really love you? I am not so close to my family now
for you, I don't go out with friends, I don't befriend guys, all
for you," Pamela said. "No, of course not. Because who knows, you
fake it all," Declan said. "How could you say that? I never faked
anything with you," Pamela said. "Well, as you know it, I don't
believe you," Declan winked and smiled. "How can you say you love
me yet not trust me?" Pamela asked. "And why can't I say I love you
and not trust you?" Declan asked back. "Because I've been with you
for 3 years already, you should have to trust me by now. And if you
love me, you will trust me. That's how our relationship will work.
If not, we will only fight, fight, and fight, and I'm tired of
fighting with you, I wanna be loved," Pamela replied. "Well, I have
trust issue with you, who knows what you do behind my back when I'm
not around," Declan said, and continued, "Hey, don't waste my time.
If you ain't giving me your body, I better go home." "Now you're
talking to me like I'm a whore," Pamela said. "Because you are a
whore and you are my whore. I'm just treating you the way you
should be treated," Declan said, with no expression. Pamela's heart
felt like it's torn apart, "Ok," she said. "Ok what?" Declan asked.
"You can have my body tonight," Pamela said. "Are you sure?" Declan
asked. "Yes," Pamela replied. "Don't worry, I will not do anal with
you as I'm afraid your anus might be dirty and I don't want to
catch a sexual disease," Declan said. A tear rolled down Pamela's
face as Declan was undoing her clothes, "Can you say you love me
babe?" Pamela asked. Declan stopped undoing Pamela's clothes and
looked at her with a sharp look, "Why so lovey-dovey, huh?" Pamela
didn't respond. Tears kept rolling down her face. And Declan, out
of sudden, tore Pamela's clothes. Pamela got so surprised, "Babe?!"
she said. "Shut up! I told you I wanted to rape you!" Declan
shouted. He then dragged Pamela by her hair to her room and threw
her body to the bed. He took off all her clothes and took off his
as well and started to look at Pamela's body. Meanwhile, Pamela
closed her eyes, she's so afraid, her heart thumped real hard.
"Wow! Look at your body! So soft, I like it," Declan smiled and
started to do a soft massage to Pamela's breasts, while Pamela
still closed her eyes, her heart thumped really hard. "Why you
close your eyes? Don't you enjoy this? Don't you want to see me
naked?" Declan asked. "Yea," Pamela said, she was so afraid that
she couldn't think of what to do. "Open your damn eyes!" Declan
snapped, so Pamela opened her eyes. "You wet yet?" Declan asked.
"What do you mean?" Pamela asked back, she's not experienced in
sex. "Are you acting dumb? Come on, you know what I mean! You've
been doing this with so many guys and yet now with me you pretend
like you don't know what I mean?" Declan asked in disbelief. "Babe,
please, I've just been doing this with you," Pamela said.
"Bullshit," Declan replied, and continued, "However, make this fun
for me. Open your legs wide." Pamela shocked, "Why?" she asked. "I
want to see that candy," Declan replied, forcing Pamela's legs to
open. "Babe, can we just do oral?" Pamela asked. "What?! Why oral?
I thought you're a virgin? And I thought I could have your
virginity as you kept saying?" Declan asked out of surprise.
"That's right, but I'm afraid," Pamela said. "What are you afraid
of? That I might find out you're not a virgin?" Declan asked. "Why
you keep saying that? It's not that. I'm just afraid, please
understand," Pamela said, with tears that kept rolling. "No, I
can't understand. Try to enjoy this and don't dare to ruin my
mood," Declan said. "Babe, please, oral is so far I can give you
for now. I love you, yes I do, but please, you can take my
virginity on the day we're married, I promise you, I cannot do
things against the voice in my heart, please sweetheart understand
me," Pamela said, begging. Declan stood there, he stopped forcing
Pamela's legs to open and he looked at her eyes. He didn't say
anything for a few seconds but then he said, "Then let's not do
it." It surprised Pamela, "What? Why not?" she asked. "Why do
something when you're not willing. Why must I take something that
you're not willing to give," Declan replied. "It's not that I'm
unwilling to give, I just feel that it's not right," Pamela said.
"What's not right? We love each other. Each couple that love each
other would share intimate moments together," Declan said. "Yes we
do love each other, but it's against my conscience," Pamela said.
"Are you saying that I don't have conscience?" Declan asked. "No,
I'm not saying that babe, please understand," Pamela said. "Yeah,
okay. Wear your clothes back," Declan said. "We can do oral if you
want," Pamela said. "No, it's okay, I've lost my mood. Just wear
your clothes back," Declan said. "I'm sorry. Are you sure?" Pamela
asked. "Yes, I'm sure," Declan replied. "Are you really okay?"
Pamela asked again just to make sure. "Yes, I am okay, quit asking
if I'm okay over and over," Declan said. "Okay, I'm sorry," Pamela
said. The two of them did not say anything, they wore their clothes
back. Pamela felt uneasy. She knew she had disappointed Declan. And
although Declan said it's ok, she could feel that Declan was
disappointed. "Can I stay here for the night since it's too late
for me to come back?" suddenly Declan asked, and he added, "Don't
worry, I will not rape you, or ask to have sex with you. It's all
clear to me now." "Yes, of course you can stay here tonight. What's
clear to you now?" Pamela asked. And continued asking, "Have you
misunderstood me?" "No, it's all good. So, where can I sleep?"
Declan asked. "You can sleep in my bed," Pamela replied. "Are you
sure? You're not afraid that I'd do what you don't want me to do?"
Declan asked, wondering. "No, babe. I know I can trust you," Pamela
smiled. They both went to Pamela's bed, and Declan wrapped her in
his arms, while he kissed her forehead. "I love you," Declan said.
"I know," Pamela said, and continued, "I hope you don't lose your
interest in me for what happened just now." "No, you're my baby
that I love and loves me. Our love is beyond anything. I truly love
you. And if I act up sometimes it's 'cause I freak out you might do
something behind my back when I'm not around. I own you, you're
mine, you're my beautiful baby," Declan replied. He certainly was
disappointed. But he hid it. "Aww baby, I know you love me," Pamela
grinned in joy. Declan wrapped her in his arms more tight, "Yes I
do, and I love you so much," he said, giving another kiss on
Pamela's forehead. Pamela rubbed his chest gently, they're wearing
their clothes. "I'm so sorry about earlier, I just want to preserve
my body until the day we are married," Pamela said. "It's okay
babe, I understand," Declan said, and kissed her again. "I love you
sweetheart," Pamela said, giving a kiss on Declan's lips. "I love
you too. Let's go to sleep because tomorrow you have to go to
work," Declan said. "Okay, darling," Pamela said. They both kissed
and closed their eyes to sleep. It's their first time to sleep
together. They had been together for 3 years, but Pamela, being a
conservative girl, never gave Declan a permission to sleep together
in one bed. Today, it was because of her fear of losing him, that's
why she allowed him to sleep with her, but just that far, no sex.
The only thing they ever did as a couple was tongue kissing,
touching, but never till they took off their clothes.
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