Lily laughed.

"Soon we'll be able to wrestle again like we used to without me breaking all the bones in your body" she said, obviously excited. I on the other hand was as scared as I had ever been in my whole life. It was now obvious to me that he was, infact my soul mate, and the threat of reaction was fresh in my mind. What if I wasn't his soul mate? I never thought I would ever feel this scared. I had never imagined what it would be like after I found my soul mate! I didn't think it was going to happen! Let alone with Jordan!

"Oh God, Lily what am I going to do?!" I asked frightened and anxious. She raised an eyebrow at me like I was the stupidest person she ever met.

"You're going to go tell him" she said like she was talking to a little kid.

"But what if he doesn't like me?!" I exclaimed, freaking out. She took me by the shoulders and shook me.

"Listen to yourself woman! You're making no sense!" She exclaimed. I started breathing regularly again and she stoped shaking me.

"What if he doesn't like me Lil?" I repeated worriedly.

"What part of making no sense do you not get?" Lily asked incredulously.

"The no sense part" I said. She groaned.

"Violet, you oblivious fool. You're almost as oblivious as he is! He's so in love with you!" She said like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"You don't know that! He could just be being nice!" I exclaimed, starting to freak out again.

"Well if it'll make you feel better, I'll go ask him for you" she said smirking and starting to walk toward where he stood talking to Leo. My eyes widened.

"No! Lily stop!" I said, running up in front of her.

"Please don't!" I pleaded, clasping my hands together.

"Either you tell him, or I'll ask him because I will not let you run away from this like you always do and you'll never get the guts to be with him if niether happens" she said, crossing her arms. I bit my lip nervously. It was kind of a lose lose situation. If she asked, it would make me seem like the biggest coward ever and then I'd end up avoiding him until I die. If I asked, I would be embarressed as hell and I would run away, and end up avoiding him until I die. So really, it would end up the same way. I tried to think, what we be the best option though. Hmm...I've got it! Maybe I could tell Lily that I was going to tell him and then I never would and everything could just stay the same. It sounded like the kind of boring option, but it was the safest and I was all for safe right now.

"I'll tell him" I said, trying not to sound to ok with the decision. She smirked.

"Ok go ahead" she said nodding in his direction. A bomb dropped on my plan.

"Now?" I asked, my voice squeeky and nervous.

"Yes now" she said expectingly. I tried to think of some way to get out of this.

"Please Lily, let me wait to do it! I want to wait for the right moment to make it special!" I pleaded, knowing well that I had already won this arguement. Lily was a sucker for doing things at the right moment. She sighed looking defeated and frustrated.

"Oh alright, but don't wait too long" She said impatiently.

"Thank you!" I said grinning.

"Yeah whatever, I'm not happy about this" she said, pouting. I rolled my eyes. That was just too bad, she'd get over it eventually. After that, for the rest of the ball I avoided Jordan like the plague even though it was painful when I was more drawn to him than I had ever been and I kept looking for me. I didn't dance with anyone else for the rest of the night and I avoided talking to people who could potentially be Jordan attracters. The rest of the night went on like that. I tried to avoid the watchful eyes of my parents as well. If they found out that I wasn't talking to anyone, I'd be in big trouble. When the dance finally ended at one thirty, I quickly ran up the stairs and to my room. I lied in my bed, staring at the seeling. It was so weird that I hadn't noticed before but there was a large window at the very top. I could see the stars and they soothed my aching soul. There was just so much to think about but mostly I thought about Jordan. The way he laughed and smiled. The way his eyebrows crinkled when he was startled. How his eyes were so cloudy that I sometimes couldn't tell green from clear when he was sad. It was so weird because I didn't know that I had noticed all these things. It was so scary because I had never cared about someone so much. Lily was my sister so I always cared about her a lot. But it was so weird to care this way for someone. I think it's called love but I'm not sure because I've never experienced it or had much experience dealing with it. Before I even knew I fell asleep, I woke up to sun shining brightly from the windows. I sighed thinking about Jordan again. He seemed to love the sun. It was frustrating because I thought maybe once the ball was over, the affects would lessen but they didn't seem to be. I longed to be with him more than ever now and being away from him for as long as I already had left an empty hole that could only be filled by him. This sucks! What am I going to do now? I heard someone knock on the door and fear raised its ugly head again.

"Who is it?" I asked nervously.

"Not Jordan" I heard Lily's familiar voice say from the other side of the door. I could tell by the way she said it that she was rolling her eyes. She opened the door and skipped over to my bed.

"I take it you haven't told him yet" she said.

"No, not technically" I said a little guilty.

"Technically?" She asked, eyeing me.

"Ok not at all, but it's only the day after the dance and I haven't found the right moment" I defended. She shook her head.

"You really don't know what you're missing. If you did, you wouldn't hesitate. It's the most amazing feeling in the world to have someone to be with forever that you know will never leave you. It's the most beautiful thing I've ever felt and the most wonderful connection. Ever wonder where I am all the time? It's with Renold mostly and I wouldn't have it any other way" she said, shaking her head. It sounded wonderful, it really did but the undeniable chance that he didn't return my affection kept on getting in the way.

"Mom and Dad are out on some business with the other three nation's royals so they wont be back for a week or so and they expect you to have a soul mate by then so I'd hurry it up" she said. Everything shattered in my head. That was something I had failed to think about. My parents would want an answer eventually and that put a damper on my whole plan. I would just try and find a way to slide my way out of it, I was good at it. I just couldn't tell him.