Realizing what I said, I brought my hands to my mouth and found the strength to pull away from his loosened grip. I could see the suprise in his eyes and I took it as a bad sign. My eyes started to water and I looked up, trying to hold them back. Suddenly I was pulled back to him, but I just looked down so I wouldn't have to see the rejection in his face.

"Why are you so sad beautiful?" He asked and I felt like I was going to break down at the sound of his voice.

"I just can't believe I told you. Now it's ruined our friendship" I said, my voice shaky.

"Come now love, you know I love you" he said chuckling softly. I shook my head. He could stop humoring me now, he should just let me down nicely. I could take it.

"Look at me" he said. I refused.

"Please look at me" he said, his voice a little sad. Trying to be strong, I looked up at him. It was painful to look into his eyes and know that he didn't love me.

"You know I love you right?" He asked, now actually asking the question. I didn't have the strength to answer him. I was about to look away again when he placed both of his hands on my cheeks, forcing me to continue looking at him. His eyes searched mine.

"You don't, do you?" He asked, his voice sad. How could he expect me to? How could someone so wonderful as him love someone as messed up as me. No one ever had before and why would anyone now?

"I love you" he said, sad that I didn't believe him. I shook my head.

"How could I not?" He asked. I could think of so many reasons.

"Everything about you, there's nothing not to love. The way you walk, swaying your hips without even realizing it. Like there's an imaginary song in your head. The way your voice sounds so heavenly to my ears. The way you're so modest, but too modest for your own good. I love the way you laugh at the most subtle of things and smile at the most random of moments. I love the way you blush whenever I'm around and look like you're going to fall whenever you're near me. Not to mention, you're beautiful" he said smiling.

"But then again, I've already told you that. How could you not know I love you?" He asked. I wanted to believe him so badly. My eyes wondered back to his own. I didn't see any lies there, just longing though I wasn't sure for what.

"Prove it" I challenged, wondering what he would do. Seconds after I said it, I was shocked to feel a pair of soft lips caressing my own. There were so cold yet warm at the same time. My knees litterally gave out then and he caught me by my waist, holding me against him. I was so shocked that for a second I didn't react. When I finally realized exactly what was happening, I melted against him and kissed back, moving my lips along with his. This was my first kiss so I hoped I was doing ok, though I could hardly think about it. Everything was fuzzy and blissful. I wrapped my arms around his neck and ran my fingers through his hair. He pulled back and started placing soft kisses from my cheek, down to my neck, the skin where his lips had been, burning. He placed one last gentle kiss at the very bottom of my neck and I let out a gasp at the pleasure I felt there. That was really weird. He smiled against me skin and pulled back a little, though I could still feel his icy breath on my neck. I was breathless myself, but I assumed he didn't get breathless.

"Do you believe me now?" He whispered, sending shivers down my back and making goosebumps appear all over. I didn't know what to say. He came back up to face me, his eyes shining. I smiled at that and I was overwhelmed with so many emotions, it was hard to keep track. Happiness, love, suprise, woozyness, and something I couldn't quite identify. I was still so entranced by the affect his kiss had on me, I couldn't answer.

"Hello, anyone in there?" He asked laughing. I shook my head, trying to think of something to say.

"I love you" I said, sounding like a love sick puppy. It was kind of embarressing.

"I love you too" he said, smiling.

"I know" I said, smiling shyly. He smiled.

"Well since we're here anyway, you wanna watch a movie?" He asked grinning.

"Sure!" I said running over to the couch. I loved watching movies. He laughed.

"What do you wanna watch?" He asked, going over to the tv.

"Serenity!" I exclaimed, jumping on the couch at the prospect of watching my favorite movie. He laughed again, shaking his head.

"Action and horror, my kind of girl" he said flipping the channels on the tv until he found the main menu for Serenity. The tv was special because it had every movie and tv channel known to anyone programmed into it. So you just had to turn the channels until you find it. He pressed play, came over and sat next to me. Half way through the movie, finding new courage, I snuggled up against Jordan's chest. I still couldn't help but be a little nervous about how he'll react, thinking that if I did one thing wrong he would stop loving me. All nerves vanished when he wrapped his arms around me. The movie was nothing compared, though it was good as always. When it ended, we just stayed there sitting like that. His lips were pressed against my hair and my head tingled. He took my hand in his and started rubbing gentle circles with his thumb into my palm.

"I'm so lucky to have you" I said quietly, though it wasn't ment for him to hear, he heard it anyway.

"I'm the lucky one" he said, kissing my hair lightly but it was enough to make me feel high again. That's what I had decided to call the affect he had on me. He made me feel high like heroine.

"You're so fragile" he said, chuckling softly.

"You're the reason I'm not broken already" I said, smiling, my eyes sliding close. Being by him was so comfortable for someone who felt like they were made of stone. I smiled, laying my head in his lap and opening my eyes to look at him. He smiled down at me with his wise green eyes.

"I'm sorry that kiss probably wasn't very good" I said bashfully. He raised a beautiful eyebrow at me.

"Why?" He asked.

"Because it was my first kiss and all, and judging by the way you kissed, you must have experience" I said blushing. I couldn't believe I said that! He laughed and I blushed even harder. "Well actually that was my first kiss as well, but I suppose that's ok seeing as if I was good enough to have had experience" he said drawing out the experience part. blushed and now I was sure I was as red as a cherry.

"Oh God!" I said, scrambling up and off the couch.

"I can't believe I said that, you must think I'm a complete idiot" I said quickly blushing wildly. He grabbed my hands and pulled me from where I stood into his lap so my legs were on either side of him. He wrapped his arms around my back and pulled me close so my face was close to his. I still wasn't used to being this close and his eyes were so breath taking.

"Don't ever think that" he said, his eyes searching mine as they always were.

"Why do you do that?" I asked.

"Do what?" He asked, his voice getting quieter with every word.

"Search my eyes like that" I said, my eyes traveling unintentionally to his lips.

"I'm trying to see what you're thinking" he said, his voice still quiet. I licked my lips subconciously.

"Now can I ask you a question?" He asked.

"Uh huh" I said, only half of my mind was focused on what he was saying. My other half was thinking about that kiss again.

"Why do you look at me like that?" He asked.

"Like what?" I asked, starting to drift more in to day dream land.

"Like you want to throw me down and have your way with me" he said, his lips curving into a smirk. That broke me out of my trance real fast.

"I'm not trying to, it's just-Hey! I do not!" I exclaimed, blushing.

"Yes you do" he said, laughing uncontrollably. I blushed, again, not bothering to deny it. I really didn't know I was doing it but I probably was. I didn't know why but after that kiss, I only felt two things: love and lust. I wonder if it was normal or what. Lily really did have more experience with this kind of thing. I'd have to ask her about it.

"It's incredibly cute" he said, kissing my cheek with his soft cool lips that made me tingle all over. When he pulled away, I missed his lips again already. Man, what is wrong with me?! I looked down and traced the muscles that I could see through his white t-shirt. I heard him sigh a little raggedly. I stopped. That was kind of weird. I did it again and the same thing happened. Smiling, I did it again, liking the reaction it got from him. I kept doing it and he got a little fidgety. All of a sudden, he grabbed my hand. I looked up at him with an innocent smile. It was I that was searching his eyes this time and I was shocked to find lust in them.

"I wouldn't do that if I were you" he said, his voice really ragged. I was suprised. I smirked.

"Why not?" I asked, doing it again with my other hand. He groaned.

"I might not be able to control myself" he said, his eyes closed.

"I trust you not to go too far" I said, smiling in a way that I only hoped was seductive. He grinned, looking unable to protest.

"I suppose there's nothing wrong with one more kiss" he said. And that was all I wanted. For now anyway. I smiled, leaning in and kissing those lips I'd missed so much. I felt him smile that irresistable smile and pull me closer against him. The kiss was more passionate than soft this time, and I felt such longing coming from him that it only made me fall deeper into darkness. I gasped when I felt him nibble my bottom lip lightly and then giggled a little, blissfully. He pulled back and leaned his forehead against mine, his eyes clouded.

"You're so delicious" he said, licking his lips a little. I giggled a little, pecking him swiftly. "You know we were never really just friends" he said, his eyes piercing into mine.

"What were we?" I asked, breathless.

"Soul mates" he said, and I believed him.