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The Letter of My Heart..

Poetry By: an0nym0us
Romance


Tags: Love


I dont know what this is.. but i just needed to get it of my chest..
Its kind of like a letter to my cheating partner.. should i give it to him?
Here's the thing, he cheated with this girl and now her marriage is in ruins.
he says he still love me but all he cares about is to comfort her..
what about me?? I feels so alone


Submitted:May 16, 2012    Reads: 25    Comments: 3    Likes: 2   


you promised me so many things...
you promised to love me forever
you promised you would never hurt me..
i believed in all those things, I was so naive, Believing that i could be happy forever...
and I thought i could have that with you...
.
looking at you now all i can see
are those lips that kiss hers
and the hands that held hers
I have never felt so much pain in my life before, Ididn'tknow it was even possible to feel is way..
I jus want to be 'OK', not happy, just 'OK'
because if this is the price that I have to pay forhappyness, I cant afford it. It will kill me
.
I wish Ididn'tlove you, so itwouldn'thurt so bad.
I wish Ihadn'tgiven you everything I had, now, knowing that it is not enough to keep you by my side.
.
Do you know what it feels like?
when the love of your life tells you 'she' is THE ONE?
Do you know what it is like?
to be lied and cheated to?
To blamed yourself for what happed, knowing nothing you ever do will never be enough.
I wish I was more beautiful
I wish I was perfect
so you wouldn'thave to look for something more.
.
Do you know what the most painful part is?
Its not the cheating or the lying..
Its the way you still say you love me yet you are not willing to give her up.
You are always defending and protecting her. and I become the horrible one for thinking she is a horrible person.
You always put her needs over mine.
.
I am in the darkest place i have ever been...
It feels like
I am in a black hole, falling and falling, deeper and deeper everyday..
I wish there was someone to help me, pull me out of the darkness
But you are too busy comforting her..
I feel so alone, more alone than ever...
I wish no one would ever have to feel like this (even her)
I could never wish this feeling upon anyone..
.
The ironic things is, during this whole situation, I finally understand what love is..
Love makes everything simple, uncomplicated
Love is selfless, putting the joy of that someone beyond yourself, even if it kills you..
Love is unconditional - and that's the way I love you...
I wish you nothing but the best
I wish you lifetime of happyness




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