The future is looking bleak,
And the horizon is black.
I can’t see my hand in front of my face,
Because I am blinded by tears.
My happiness left me long ago,
And I said goodbye to the life I had.
I tried to live in my memories,
And stay sheltered in my dreams.
I hid behind my hate,
And trusted no one.
I have fallen at the hands of romance,
The thing I thought was so sweet.
But its beautiful eyes and sweet words deceived me.
It led me into a death trap that is eating me alive.
My soul is withered,
And sits in a corner,
Avoiding the light.
My heart has been unused for so long,
It collects cobwebs while it beats slowly,
And every breath comes painfully,
It feels like my last.
This is what love has done to me.
It has torn me apart,
And broken me.
What I thought I knew so well betrayed me.
And what I thought wanted to help me,
Only chewed me into pieces.
I was left for dead on the road,
And I had no one to comfort me.
I thought I was loved,
But the only people I trusted hated me,
And used me for their own selfish purposes.
I thought everything was going well,
But then the world turned its back on me,
And I was left without a friend.
My hope came back when I met you,
But I’m fearing that this may not last.
Do you love me?
I wish I knew,
For I’m fading away,
And this dream is too.
I have only you to live for,
Though I’m starting to think that my fantasy will never come true.
Many hands threw me down at your feet,
Have you seen?
I need someone to piece me back together,
To make me whole,
To keep me safe.
I have fallen,
And you are why I’m trying to get back up,
To try again at love.
I’m trying to repair myself,
Trying to make everything seem alright.
I don’t want you to be burdened by my presence,
I just need a helping hand.
I’m lingering on a lost dream,
I’m waiting on a broken promise,
I wishing on a vanishing hope.
I’m slowly recovering,
But is love really worth it?
Will I get hurt again?
I wonder if the pain is going to be bearable again,
After I tried so long to get rid of it,
To ignore it and push it away.
Love brings back all the memories of the past,
The things that hurt,
And make my heart ache.
I’m like a withered flower.
Will anyone want me?
Am I worthy of anyone?
Will anyone accept me?
Or have I gone too far to be saved?
These are the questions that haunt me,
And go unanswered.
I just wish I knew,
If I would fall again,
At the feet of romance,
The thing I thought was so sweet and full of joy.
Every night is a sleepless night,
Because I realize I would die for you.
But would you do the same for me?
I would risk everything for you,
But would you do the same for me?
I am thrown to the ground with the hands of romance,
And my bruises become darker each time,
And my cuts become deeper.
Each day my scars grow worse.
I want to let this all go,
But it pounds in my head,
Reminding me of what happened before.
I want to love again,
I want to love you.
I want to trust again,
Trust you.
I don’t want to fall again.
And even though I might,
I want you to be there to pick me up.
I will give you my hand if you will be by my side.
I will give you my love if you hold me tight and never let me go.
I want to love and be loved.
But can I take that chance?
Will I risk all I have worked for,
And risk bringing back fresh waves of pain?
I have suffered through the years,
But none is worse than not knowing how you feel.
No one has ever paid attention to my pleas,
My cries for salvation.
I need to be rescued from this sinking sand,
Before I slip away into eternal darkness.
You don’t know what I would do for you,
How much I would give up for you.
I adore you,
But if you do not feel the same,
All this is for nothing,
All my work is in vain.
If you do not love me,
Then why do you let this continue?
Want I’ve wanted to say to you for so long won’t come out,
Because I’m afraid of being hurt again,
Afraid of rejection.
I’m running away from my stark past,
Putting up a wall to keep out intruders.
It seems to me that this love will never be.
If we are to ever take off our masks,
We must let our true feelings show,
And come out from hiding,
If this love is going to make it through the struggles and the hardships,
The lies and the blows.
I want to feel your touch,
I need you to wipe away my tears.
I can start anew with you.
Before I fall at the feet of romance again,
I’m asking you to save me,
Before I’m gone,
And there’s nothing left to love.
Please.
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