You don’t want me anymore?

You have no idea how much I love you.

Through all my pleading,

When I’m tattered and bruised,

And at my worst.

I have no time to repair,

I have no time to stand or recover,

Because then something hits me again.

You used me as your shield against the world,

To you I’m nothing but a tool for you to use,

Or something in the way.

I’m by myself,

No one to protect me from the abusive words and fists.

I can't always be my own hero.

Who will be mine?

I can’t always save myself from the world,

Because I’m alone.

I though you loved me,

But your eyes told me otherwise,

Even though you spoke those three words as a lie.

When something doesn’t go your way,

I am to blame.

All my failures disgust you.

When you are insecure,

You hurt me,

Because I am by myself,

And I have no one that cares enough to deflect the pain you inflict on me.

I needed love,

And you smothered me with hate,

And crushed me with you hands into pieces.

I’m by myself,

I have no one to comfort me when I cry,

No one to hold me when things turn for the worst.

Hope has left me for good.

Yet somehow,

I don’t want him to leave.

A part of me still loves him,

And wants to prove myself to him.

I want to be his again.

I don’t why I want to,

But I will.

Let me know what you are thinking,

Let me know what you feel.

Is your love for me a void?

If my love for you is in vain,

Tell me,

Before it’s too late.

Before I get my hopes up,

Before I go too far this time.

Right now I’m thinking the worst,

And no one can save me from the slave I’ve become to you.

You didn’t use to be like this,

What has the world done to you?

I’m trying to fight back the all the lies,

And I’m facing the doubt,

All by myself.

I’m protecting you from the rumors,

Using my soul as a shield,

Even though it is already cracked and worn from use.

You don’t care about me,

Yet I still want to help you.

I need someone,

Because I’m by myself.

Others fear it is too late for me to realize what he has done to me.

I’m by myself in the suffering,

And I have no one to help me,

And tell me everything is going to be alright.

I have to deal with the brokenness alone.

I have no one by my side,

To come when I need them.

You are my life.

But I don’t realize I’m walking into a deadly trap.

I need to move on,

Because you did long ago.

I’m running from the past…

All by myself.