It’s not as though I chose this way,
If just afraid of what might happen,
If you knew.
How would I know if I was making a mistake?
I wouldn’t be able to prevent the aftermath of pain,
If you didn’t feel the same way.
I want to take a chance,
But I’m afraid it will go wrong.
Would you trust me?
They make me wonder,
But I don’t know how,
How to take the first step.
How do I know it won’t be disaster?
I feel so incomplete,
And so alone,
Without you.
But I just can’t seem to change the way things are.
So many times.
How do I know that what I see is true?
Will you leave me?
Abuse those three words’ power,
And break my heart?
Will you use me like the others?
Or really love me?
What I suffer,
When I wonder,
What would you do, if I said I loved you?
What would you say?
What would you really think of me?
This pain won’t go away,
Not until I know.
But how do I do it?
I feel as though I will never be complete.
I’m so confused,
Caught in so many feelings,
I don’t know where to turn.
Will you love me the way I love you?
Or will you be indifferent to my pain?
I remember the last time I let someone know how I really felt,
Who I really was,
They mocked me,
And left me.
Stitches can't repair a broken heart.
I’m afraid if I get too close,
Everything will go wrong,
I’m expecting the worst.
Please prove me wrong.
Show me you aren’t like that.
I would be so vulnerable,
How do I know I won’t be hurt again?
How do I know that things won’t go wrong like they have before?
If I take off my mask,
Will you accept me?
Will you love me?
Or be afraid of me?
Incomplete is all I feel.
Incomplete is all I knew,
Until I met you.
Will things ever be different for us?
If I offer my heart to you,
Will you rip it apart?
Or will you protect it?
If I trust you with my life,
Will you shatter that trust into pieces?
If I fall,
Will you leave me there?
Or pick me up and comfort me?
There are so many doubts,
I don’t think the chance I want to take is worth it.
I don’t think I could bear anymore pain.
But my other half is missing,
And I won’t be complete without you.
I’m so lost.
I can’t say what I feel,
If only I knew.



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