I Think of you

As I sit here, I think of you

As I sit here, I empty a bottle into my stomach

The bottle is my only resort from loneliness and thoughts of you

Concentration is absent, because my mind is on you

Absence steals my concentration because I think of you

As the alcohol diffuses across my body and enters my blood stream,

I get weak, I think of you

Music fills the voids

And the words I put onto paper are all for you

As my cigarette slowly shortens,

I worry about you and I

I worry like the fire that burns and the smoke I inhale into my lungs

It will all extinguish, and I fear putting the cigarette into the ash tray,

A bitter end

I take comfort in knowing I can light another,

But I know, it soon will go out

And I’m scared

So I chain smoke

As I sip the glass becomes half empty,

Or is it half full?

Only you can tell me

As my head spins, the words before me blur

And this pen becomes heavy

As I walk, I stumble and I’m comfortable

Because I am so used to stumbling when I’m with you

I wish you were this paper,

Then my thoughts and feelings would fill you

I compare you to this beverage

Because, as with you I feel safe and happy when it’s near

And perfectly content when it consumes me

I wish you were this glass

Because I’d constantly be holding you

I wish your lips were this straw

Because mine would never leave

This warm fuzziness inside isn’t resultant from eighty proof

But one hundred percent you

When I fall asleep shaking, I dream of you

When I wake up a headache presents

Such that only subsides with more thoughts of you

All I can say is, I think of you

This point I attempt, is all about you

Now since this is done, I can read about you